This story is a China/Japan story my friend requested me to do. And there are not too many stories of these to two. I do not own Hetalia or the characters. I had a lot of help from my friend with their personalities. There will be romance eventually and there is quite a bit of angst in this story and if you like it yay if you don't, oh well find another story to read. Also, a lot of drama.

Chapter 1

Yao Wang, also known as China, sat on his porch watching the sun set on the horizon, memories of the past kept running through his head, happy ones and sad ones. He remembers well all those who had lived with him throughout his existences. All now have left him or are trying to. Taiwan and Hong Kong are both still part of him but they want their independence. And the rest were either taken away from him or left him, China still tries to figure out why they left but it is still not too clear except they wanted their independence. Hong Kong was taken away from him for a while and he finally got him back from the Opium bastard, England. Now Hong Kong wants to leave Yao now and not be held down anymore. But the one that hurt him most when they left was, Kiku Honda, also known as Japan. He was hurt physically and mentally from his departure and betrayal.

China had found Kiku as a small child lost in his bamboo forest and raised him as his brother. Yao loved him very much and as Japan got older his loved deepened for the island nation. But Japan was silent a lot and enjoyed to have a lot of alone time. Kiku would hang out with him and share tea with him. After a while Japan went and lived in his own land to be with his people and one day while other European nations were having issues with each other, he came to Yao's house and attacked China demanding he give him his land and resources. Yao was confused and refused and Japan attacked him leaving a scar down China's back that would always be a reminder to what happened between the two. China was torn inside that his little brother, that he raised, could do that to him and it broke his heart and sent Yao into an emotional turmoil that caused China become more to himself and more wary of others and made it harder for him to become close to others.

-(Break)(With Japan)-

Japan was walking towards China's home, he really felt bad for hurting his brother as badly as he did but he wouldn't change what he had done. His people needed the resources and land during the war since everything is so limited on his island. If Yao had complied with his demand then he wouldn't have ended up hurt but Kiku knew that China would never do that, his people would have lost faith in Yao and that would have caused issues and Japan wouldn't give up his land easily like China had tried to defend his land. Japan wanted to fix some of the broken strings between him and China but he wasn't sure if anything could be fixed. He did love his brother but he need to be there for his people and he might have done too much in the name of his government that he ruined any relationship between Yao and him.

But Kiku had to try, the emotions he had for his brother went to deep to be brushed off easily and he wanted to so badly to go back to the times where he could be with China but that was impossible because he didn't want to give up the independence and strength in the world he has gained. Sometimes Kiku wondered if his feelings for Yao were more than brotherly love but even if it was or not. He had to first be able to talk to China again.

He neared China's house and saw a figure on his porch, he guessed to be China, since he doubt any others would be there. He could see the figure as a vague shadow due to the sun setting and there being less little. He saw the person had shorter hair than Yao did, at least last time he saw him, but it had to be Yao. No one else would be at his home and not at this point in time.

-(Break)(With China)-

China continued to wallow in his misery and think about the past. He put one of his hands through his newly cut hair. He had cut it himself a few days ago; his hair has never been as short as it is now since he was a little child about 5,000 years ago. It was a tradition to cut ones hair after an emotional event that left you hurt these days, so Yao trying anything to help his hearting hurt cut his hair. It helped a tiny bit. Looking in the memory hurt less since he didn't see himself from when he had taken care of Kiku and the others. It was kind of nice for him to see a new him that hadn't been hurt by someone. As China tried to think of positive things, which was hard since his heart kept longing to see Kiku, yet his mind dreaded the next world conference when he see him again. Especially since he skipped the past few of them to avoid seeing Japan and since everyone kept trying to place them next to each other.

As China thought about what some of the other countries would think of his new and first haircut, he did not hear Japan walk up to his porch and call his name softly.

"China…" Said Japan a little loader trying to get the older countries attention without startling him too much.

"Japan…." Replied Yao, as he turned from the sunset to the island nation who stood a few feet away looking towards the ground nervously. "What are you doing here, aru?"

"I was worried… You hadn't been to the past 4 meetings… and everyone was getting worried…" Japan said back, as he looked up cautiously at China and looking into his eyes.

"I hadn't been felling myself lately, aru. Sorry that I worried you and the others, aru. I will be attending the next one, aru." China replied back in a defensive tone of voice.

"….I hope you are feeling better… many of the… well I have… been wanting to talk to…you…" Japan stuttered out nervously.

"About what, aru?" China replied in an indifferent voice, since he was in a very melancholy mood from thinking about the past.

"…Well… I was wanting to discuss what has happened…between us… and…if it was possible….." Japan trailed off staring at the ground. As Japan said this China's mind started to run crazy getting prepared where this conversation may go.

"Discuss what aru? Which specific time you hurt me aru? There are plenty of them. How about the time you attacked me because I wouldn't start a war with you, aru, and you gave me that scar." Yao replied back getting more defensive and angry as he spoke with tears filling his eyes as he glared at Japan and to keep a watchful eye on what he would do.

Japan's body went rigid and he tensed up when he heard China's tone of voice and remembering what he had done to China.

"I wanted to know if it was possible to make amends." Japan replied back in a quiet a tone that was very serious but could be seen that he was hiding his nervousness.

"Now, now you what to make amends, aru?" China said back in an incredulous tone of voice with hurt mixed in.

"…Yes… I do… I have been thinking a lot and I realized….. that…"Japan trailed off not being able to say what he wanted due to losing his composure due to being hurt by China's reaction towards him but didn't blame the other nation for feeling that way.

"Realized what aru? That you have to hurt me whenever you can, aru? Why does everyone I have held dear to me, aru, must hurt me?" China replied in a load voice close to yelling with tears falling down his face from anger, sadness and hurt as he stood up and faced Japan fully and glaring at him with hurt in his eyes.

"….Yao…" Japan said in a low hurt tone of voice as he looked sad and very guilty at the older nation, hurt as well but not to the same degree as China.

"Just leave me alone, aru." China replied back in a pleading growl as he stormed off inside of his house and slammed his door behind him.

Japan lowered his head in shame and guilt for causing his brother so much pain and he could guess that he was probably the main reason why Yao had cut his hair. Kiku stared on his journey home and would try to talk to Yao again at the next world meeting.