So this chapter is terrible and I apologize. Sorry if the ending is kinda abrupt. So yeah...

Kendall knocked on the door to his mom's room. Tears were falling from his eyes. He didn't know he could ever hurt so much. Logan chose James over him. A sob escaped him as his mom opened the door.

"Sweetie, what's wrong?"

Kendall threw himself into her arms. Mrs. Knight led them to the bed and she sat.

"Kendall," she said, "tell me what's wrong."

"L-L-L-Logan."

Mrs. Knight started to pet her son's hair. "What about Logan?"

"He doesn't want me."

Mrs. Knight pulled back then held his face in her hands. "What?"

"I-I told him that I have f-f-feelings for him, b-but he'd rather be with J-J-J-J-James."

"Oh my." Mrs. Knight wasn't really sure what to do with the information. How could she not notice something going on with James and Logan? And how did she miss her son having feelings for another boy? "Logan and James are together?"

Kendall sniffled. "They've been experimenting with each other for a couple months."

"OK. And how long have you liked Logan?"

"Middle school. Mom. It hurts so bad."

Mrs. Knight embraced Kendall again. "Oh, honey." Never before had she wanted to murder Logan."

...

Logan sat on his bed, dumbstruck. He touched his lips. They were still tingling from the brief kiss with Kendall.

James walked in, leaving the door open. "Why did Kendall just run to his mom's room?"

"He kissed me," Logan said.

James sat next to him. "Oh."

"He said he's liked me for awhile. And when he started dating Jo, he ignored me so she wouldn't catch on."

"Well. He was bound to reveal his feelings at some point." Though James didn't think it would be so soon. He wanted more time with Logan before Logan abandoned him for Kendall. "Did you like the kiss?"

"It was short."

"Did you like it?"

Logan let out a breath. "Yes. A lot."

"Alright."

"I told him I couldn't be with him."

Hope surged through James. "Why?"

"He's with Jo. And being in an actual relationship with him? What if things go wrong? It could ruin our friendship, which could destroy big Time Rush. With you there's no strings attached. It's easier."

"Yeah. Easy." Then a thought struck James. "Shit."

"What?"

"You think he's gonna tell Mrs. Knight about us?"

"I did." Logan and James turned. Kendall was standing in the doorway. "She's not gonna tell your parents, and won't have an awkward talk with you. She just wants me to tell you that like when one of us is in a relationship with a girl, she doesn't want to walk in on any hot and heavy stuff. James. I don't want you in my room."

"What?" James looked at Logan, wanting Logan to defend him.

"You should probably just go," Logan said quietly.

"Fine." As James walked by Kendall, he was given a death glare.

Logan watched Kendall get his pajamas. "Have you been crying?"

Kendall nodded then took off his shirt.

Logan found himself wanting to touch Kendall. "I'm sorry."

Kendall put on the shirt he slept in. "No. You're not."

Logan stood. "How can you say that? I hate seeing you upset. I always have." He walked up to Kendall and put a hand on his shoulder. "I never wanted to hurt you."

"I may feel better if you answer a question."

"OK."

"Did you enjoy it? The kiss? I mean, I know it was short, b-"

"Yes."

"Huh?"

"I enjoyed the kiss."

"And you'd still rather be with James?"

Logan's hand moved to Kendall's face. "Being with you would be more dangerous."

"How?"

"First off, you have a girlfriend. A lot more hurt feelings would come out of it. And what if it goes badly? We wouldn't be friends anymore. And Big Time Rush may end. Do you want that?"

"No."

Logan wrapped Kendall into a hug. They stayed that way for awhile.

When they separated, Kendall asked, "Will you ever end things with James?"

"Eventually. We promised that if one of us started to develop feelings it'd be over."

"Do you think you could get feelings for James?"

"Probably not."

Kendall nodded. "Good."

...

Gustavo had been so stressed by Kendall's depression, he gave them the rest of the week off. Kendall was relieved. He was able to escape Logan and James easier. Currently, he was in Palm Woods Park, under a tree.

A shadow blocked the sun and he looked up to see Jo. "Can we talk?" she asked.

"Uh. Sure."

She sat next to him. "You've been distant these past couple of days."

"Oh?"

"Yeah. Ever since we walked in on Logan and James."

Kendall sighed. "I have something to tell you."

Jo let out a nervous breath. "What?"

"I kinda... have a thing for... Logan."

"Excuse me?"

"I even kissed him that day. He gave me all these reasons why he can't be with me, and the rejection really hurt."

"You kissed him?"

"Yeah. Sorry."

"So the whole time you've been with me, you've been wanting Logan?"

"I do like you, Jo. But I've liked Logan for awhile..."

Jo frowned. "I don't know how to feel about this. I, um, don't think I can be with someone who wants someone else."

"You're breaking up with me?"

"Well. You're... confused. And I don't wanna be second best next to Logan."

"Oh." Kendall got up. "I'm gonna go." He started walking before she could respond.

He was a free man. One less thing on Logan's list. Maybe he could make Logan forget the others.

Kendall stepped into 2J. No one was in the living room. He went to his room where he found Logan doing his homework on his bed. "Where is everyone?"

Logan looked up at him. "Carlos and James went shopping. Your mom's getting groceries. And Katie's off messing with Bitters. You OK?"

Kendall sat at the foot of Logan's bed. "Jo broke up with me."

Logan shut his books and threw them onto the floor. He moved closer to Kendall. "I'm sorry. Why'd she do it?"

"I told her about you."

"Oh."

"Yeah." Kendall chewed on his nails a bit. "Logan?"

"Yes?"

"Have you wanted to kiss again at all?"

"I have."

That was all Kendall needed to hear. He moved forward, attaching his lips to Logan's. His heart swelled with joy when Logan kissed him back. He happily let Logan's tongue enter his mouth, and he also allowed Logan to take control of the kiss. Logan started to lay down, pulling Kendall with him. He quickly rolled them so he was on top of Kendall. Logan then moved his mouth to Kendall's neck, gently nipping at the skin.

Kendall was in heaven. It was almost like a dream. He pouted when Logan sat up. Logan chuckled and took off his shirt. Kendall sighed happily. He reached forward and moved his hands up Logan's stomach, to his chest. Logan took Kendall's hands and softly kissed each knuckle, his eyes on Kendall the whole time. Kendall let Logan pull him into a sitting position and remove his shirt. When Kendall laid back down, Logan placed light kisses all over his torso.

Logan sat up again and looked down at Kendall. He ran his fingertips down Kendall's cheek and asked, "How far do you wanna take this?"

"All the way," Kendall said without hesitation.

"You sure?"

"Very."

Logan nodded and undid Kendall's pants. Kendall lifted his hips and allowed Logan to pull off his jeans and underwear, Kendall then intently watched Logan finish removing his own clothes.

"Gorgeous," Kendall whispered.

Logan blushed. "No."

Kendall pulled Logan down to him. "Yes," he said before kissing Logan.

Logan just chuckled. He put his fingers to Kendall's lips. "Suck." Once Logan felt they were slick enough, he took them out of Kendall's mouth. Kendall hissed in pain when Logan's first finger entered him. Logan ran another hand through Kendall's hair. "Shh. It'll get better."

Kendall nodded in understanding.

Logan took his time preparing Kendall. He really wanted Kendall to be ready. He didn't want to hurt Kendall too much.

When Logan's fingers brushed Kendall's prostate, Kendall groaned. "Logan."

"You want more?" Logan asked.

"Yes."

Logan took his fingers out of Kendall. He used his own saliva as lubricant then slowly entered Kendall. He saw tears of pain fall from Kendall's eyes and kissed them away. "Just tell me when it's OK to move."

They sat there for about a minute, Kendall getting used to the intrusion. "Go ahead."

Logan put his lips to Kendall's as he started to move. He was sure to be slow and gentle for Kendall's sake.

"Kendall," Logan moaned. "You feel so... perfect."

Kendall wrapped his legs around Logan and their pace quickened. Kendall kissed along Logan's jawline before going to his lips. "Harder," he begged of Logan. He cried out when Logan hit that spot again and again. "So close."

Logan reached between them and started to stroke Kendall. Soon, they were both coming, calling out the other's name.

Logan looked at Kendall and his heart skipped a beat. Kendall had the happiest smile on hi face, and a loving look in his eyes. He pushed some hair out of Kendall's face. "You look so beautiful like this."

Kendall kissed him in response.

Logan pulled out and laid next to Kendall. After sex with James, Logan usually got out of bed and cleaned up as quickly as possible. But he found he wanted to stay with Kendall. So he pulled kendall closer to him. Kendall rested his head on Logan's chest, and Logan ran his hand up and down Kendall's back.

"Was it good?" Logan asked.

"Excellent. Please tell me we'll get to do it again."

"We will."

...

About a half an hour later, they were sitting on the couch watching TV.

"So," Kendall said, "what happens now?"

Logan shrugged. "I don't know."

"Are you gonna... end things with James?"

"I don't know. I don't think I ever considered it ending like this."

"Like what?"

"One of us finding another person. I always thought one of us would fall for the other."

Kendall took Logan's hand in his. "But we're gonna tell James, right?"

Logan nodded. "It's only fair that we do."

"Yeah. Um. Can I kiss you?"

Logan laughed. "You're so adorable." He pressed his lips to Kendall's. His hands found their way to Kendall's hair, and Kendall held onto Logan's waist.

During their make out session, they didn't hear the door open. Or Carlos and James' voices. But they did hear James scream. They flew apart and stared at their friends.

"What the hell?" James yelled.

Logan cleared his throat. "We were just, you know..."

"Playing tonsil hockey," Carlos finished.

Logan nodded. "Yeah."

"H-how did this happen?" James asked.

Logan let out a breath. "Well. Kendall told me Jo broke up with him, and next thing I know, we're in my bed having sex."

"There was more to it than that," Kendall said.

Logan rolled his eyes. "I know. I was just giving the Cliff's Notes version."

James knew he should've seen it coming, but it still hurt. He kind of had fantasies of Logan falling for him, but now that wouldn't happen. Because of Kendall. Fucking Kendall.

"Well, this is awkward," Carlos said. "I'm going to my room. You three have fun." He quickly ran off, not wanting any part of the conversation that was about to happen.

"You guys... has sex," James said flatly.

His two friends nodded.

"Are you... ending things with me, Logan?"

"I-" Logan's phone rang. He looked at who was calling. "Uh. It's my mom. I'll be right back." Logan got up and walked to his room to answer the phone.

Kendall stood too. He crossed his arms over his chest and looked everywhere but at James.

"I wanna ask you something," James said.

Kendall let his eyes fall on James. "OK."

"After. Did he just leave, or stay and, like, cuddle?"

"There was cuddling, yes."

James frowned. "He didn't just clean up and leave?"

"No... We stayed like that for awhile."

"Well. What's so fucking special about you?"

Kendall tilted his head. "What?"

"What makes you so wonderful? Why is it that he can't wait to leave me, but will stay for you? Huh? What could you have possibly done different than me?"

Kendall shrugged. "Maybe I'm just better than you?"

James shoved him. "I highly doubt that."

"Dude!"

"You know, everything was going fine with me and Logan. But then you had to go and fuck it up."

Kendall raised his eyebrows. "Were you falling for Logan?"

"M-maybe..."

"Well. That sucks."

"Why?"

"Because I'm not letting you have him."

"Not letting me?"

Kendall nodded. "Yup."

"How fucking dare you say that? Where do you get off thinking you're hot shit? I had him first. You shouldn't get to steal him away."

"Can't steal what was never yours."

James pushed him to the floor. "You ruin everything! You asshole!"

Kendall kicked James in the shin. "What the fuck is wrong with you?"

"OW! Fuck you!" James' foot collided with Kendall's side.

Kendall pulled James to the ground and punched him in the gut.

Logan walked back into the room as both boys punched the other in the face. James hit Kendall's left eye, and Kendall got James' nose.

"What the hell?" Logan screamed.

Kendall and James got up and said, "Um..."

Logan walked up to them, grabbed their wrists, and pulled them to the kitchen. He gave James some paper towels for his bloody nose then went to the fridge. He got out two ice packs and handed one to each. "For your nose," he said to James. To Kendall he said, "For your eye." He stared at them both for a second. "What happened?"

"Kendall broke my nose!" James cried.

"You gave me a black eye!"

Logan sighed. "Why did you injure each other?" They both just looked at him, and he got it. "Was it because of... me?"

Kendall and James looked down at the kitchen floor.

Logan let out a little whine. "Oh Christ! I fucked everything up!"

"No!" Kendall said. "You didn't. We just got into a little argument."

"I was the cause of the argument!"

James shook his head. "The cause was Kendall being a jackass who thinks he can get whatever he wants."

Kendall faced James. "You knew-"

"Shut up!" Logan yelled. "Just shut up. Maybe... maybe none of this should've happened."

"What?" both James and Kendall asked.

"I was afraid just being with James would cause problems, but now throwing Kendall into the mix? I'm destroying your friendship. God. I'm such an idiot."

Kendall stepped up to him and put a hand on his shoulder. "You're not an idiot. James and I are." He lowered his voice so James couldn't hear and said, "Please, Logan. What we did today. I can't not be with you again."

"But maybe it's best if we don't," Logan whispered.

Tears began to spill from Kendall's eyes. He took Logan's face in his hands. "Don't say that. You can't mean it."

Logan removed Kendall's hands. "I'm sorry, Kendall." He pushed Kendall aside and walked away.

James watched as Kendall started to sob. "Dude. Do you, like... love him?"

Kendall shot him a glare. "Shut up." He headed to the door.

"Where are you going?"

"To find my mom!" Kendall slammed the door shut behind him.

...

A week had passed. Kendall and Logan were miserable. It was starting to affect their work, which angered Gustavo. Mrs. Knight would sometimes unknowingly shoot Logan dirty looks. Logan died a little on the inside every time he saw that pained look on Kendall's face. It killed Kendall just to be near Logan. And James didn't really know how he felt.

James still wanted Logan. He really wanted Logan. And he was so upset when Logan decided to end it. But not as upset as Kendall. Kendall seemed devastated. James wasn't sure if he was less hurt because he actually had time with Logan, or because Kendall loved Logan while James just liked him a lot. Then there was the fact that James knew Logan and Kendall were into each other before the two realized it themselves. He wondered if it was fair of him to want Logan when Logan wanted someone else.

Carlos walked into their room and looked at James. "I can't take this anymore."

"What?" James asked.

"All the drama and awkwardness and sadness. Kendall won't talk to or even look at you and Logan. Logan is acting like a lost puppy. And you just sit around thinking all day."

"What's wrong with thinking?"

"you're not exactly a thoughtful person, James."

James sighed. "I just feel kinda bad."

"For what?"

"It's like all this is my fault."

Carlos took a seat next to him on the bed. "How?"

"It was my idea to be fuck buddies with Logan. I agreed to the rules he set, but broke them. I should've ended it when I started to fall for Logan. But I was selfish. If I had ended it, Kendall could've made his move and gotten Logan to be his. I wouldn't have been in the way, Kendall and I wouldn't have fought, and Logan wouldn't have stopped with Kendall before it even started. It's my fault that two people who really like each other-and have for awhile-aren't together. God! I'm such an asshole!"

"Then make it better," Carlos said with a shrug.

"How the fuck do you propose I do that?"

"You'll figure something out. Just do some thinking."

...

Logan walked up to Mrs. Knight, who was in the kitchen. "Can I ask you something, Mama Knight?"

"Uh... Sure..."

"D-do you hate me?"

Mrs. Knight stopped what she was doing. Logan sounded so sad. So pathetic. She turned to face him. "Why would you ask that?"

"Well. You barely talk to me. You give me less food at meals. You don't ask me how I am or say good night to me anymore. When you're addressing all four of us, you look at the others, but not me."

She went up to Logan and hugged him, feeling horrible. "I'm so sorry, Logan. I didn't realize."

"So you don't hate me?"

"No!" She paused for a second and just looked at him. "I guess I was a little mad. Kendall came crying to me twice because of you."

"I wanted to avoid anyone getting hurt. I shouldn't have given in so easily the second time. None of this would've happened."

"Logan. How long have you liked Kendall?" Mrs. Knight asked.

"I-" Logan thought for a moment. He had been denying any feelings for Kendall for awhile. But could James have been right this entire time? Logan had hated that he and Kendall had been hanging out less. And it always pissed him off when Kendall went somewhere with Jo. Was that really just jealousy the entire time? "Honestly? I don't know."

"Honey, maybe you should stop trying to do the smart thing, and go with your heart."

"It's probably too late for that."

James walked in and asked, "Where's Kendall?"

"At the pool," Mrs. Knight answered. "But I don't know if he's ready to talk to you."

"I don't care," James said before making his way to the pool. He was on a mission, and nothing was going to stop him.

He saw Kendall sitting away from everyone else. James took a deep breath and went up to him. "Kendall."

"Get the fuck away from me."

"I just want to say that I'm sorry."

Kendall was taken by surprise. He never expected James to say that. "What?"

"I knew you and Logan were-are-into each other. I should've just told Logan to get with you when he told me about the time you kissed him. But I was only thinking about myself. I wanted Logan for myself. Even though I know he should be with you."

"But Logan doesn't want me," Kendall said quietly.

"Oh, he totally does. He's, like, lost without you."

"He seems fine."

"how would you know? You don't even look at him! You hating him is crushing him."

Kendall got out of the chair he was sitting in. "I could never hate Logan."

"Well, he sure thinks you do."

"Wow. Him thinking I hate him hurts more than him not wanting to be with me."

"He does want to be with you, dummy."

"Then why isn't he with me?"

"This is Logan we're talking about. He's trying to be logical. Which is also leading him to be a complete idiot. But still. He's trying to so what he thinks is best. But you and I both know this isn't what's best."

"So... You want me to be with Logan?"

"Yes!"

"Why?"

"Because it's you two who are meant to be together. Not me and Logan. You both wanted each other for awhile now. So go be together!"

"I don't know..."

"God dammit!" James grabbed Kendall's wrist and dragged him back to 2J. He needed Carlos' help to come up with a plan.

...

Logan was alone in the living room when James walked in. He watched James take a seat next to him on the couch.

"Why were you staring at the TV?" James asked.

:There's a really interesting documentary on."

"Logan. The TV is off."

Logan glanced at the TV. "Oh. You appear correct."

"Well, good thing it is, because we need to talk."

"About?"

"The little love triangle between you, me, and Kendall."

Logan groaned. "I really don't want to discuss this, James. It's a completely fucked situation. I never should've agreed to mess around with you, and I shouldn't have done what I did with Kendall."

"So you regret it all?"

"...No." Logan sighed and ran a hand through his hair. "I mean, with you it helped me figure things out. With Kendall... It was just... great."

"Then go be with Kendall."

"But I- Wait. What?"

"You heard me. Be with Kendall." James let out a breath. "Listen. You and Kendall have liked each other for awhile. Right now, you two aren't talking and you're both miserable. Go be happy."

"But what if we break up and it ends badly?"

"Stop over thinking this! Jesus! Kendall makes you happy! Be with the person who makes you happy!"

"But it's scary," Logan whispered.

"But isn't something like love worth it?"

Logan stood and started to pace. "What is it with people telling me not to think? That's my thing! I thought about it, and not being with Kendall is the smart thing to do! And why the fuck do you even care?"

"I want my friends to be happy..."

"But aren't you, like, into me?"

"Well, yeah. But I'll get over you eventually. And I rather see you two happy than depressed. Plus, I'm too hot for you anyway."

Logan stopped his pacing and laughed. "Jackass. So you think me being with Kendall is a good idea?"

"A very good idea."

"Mrs. Knight did pretty much say the same thing..."

"And obviously we're two very smart people."

"But-"

"NONE OF THAT!" James got up and put his hands on Logan's shoulders. "This is how it's supposed to be. You and Kendall need to be together." He began to shake Logan a little to get his point across. "Go to Kendall. Confess your feelings. Be an annoying happy couple." Logan still didn't look convinced. "How often do you think about Kendall?"

"Pretty much all the time. I think about our first kiss. About out first time together. I watch him sleep. It's fucking creepy."

"Aw. You love him." James started to teasingly poke Logan's stomach.

Logan pushed him away. "Shut up."

"Just go talk to him at least. Maybe he can convince you to stop being an idiot."

"OK. Do you know where he is?"

"On the balcony." James ran away before Logan could yell at him.

Logan was pissed that Kendall had been listening the whole time. He hated being tricked. He took a calming breath and walked over to the swirly slide. He crawled up it, and saw Kendall sitting on the floor against the wall. Logan sat next to him, their bodies touching, and said, "Hi."

"When james accused you of loving me, you didn't deny it," Kendall said quietly.

"This is true."

"I watch you sleep too."

Logan looked at him, surprised. "Really?"

"Yeah. I avoid looking at you all day, so that's the only time I can do it." Kendall blushed a little. "Though I may have done it for awhile now..."

"Define awhile."

"Since we moved in."

Logan grinned a little. "Creeper."

Kendall let out a relieved laugh when he realized Logan was joking. "I guess I am. So. You're scared?"

"Yeah."

"Of what?"

"Of fucking things up. Like our friendship. I mean, look at what has already happened."

"But you didn't even give us a chance, Logan. We have one amazing moment, you tell me it won't be the last time, then you end it because I got into a stupid fight with James. That hurt, Logan."

"I thought it was for the best."

"Yeah, well, it wasn't. James and I would've worked things out eventually. And things would've been weird between you and James for awhile, but like he said, he'd get over it."

"I'm sorry, Kendall."

"No. You can't walk away. Not after-" He was cut off by Logan grabbing his head and smashing their lips together.

When Logan pulled away, he said, "I meant I'm sorry for hurting you. I didn't mean that I was gonna leave again."

"Why?"

"I figure i should listen to your mom and James."

"Carlos too."

"What?"

"It was Carlos' idea for James to talk to you and have me listen."

Logan rolled his eyes. "Of course it was."

"So," Kendall said, "does this mean we can be together now?"

"Yes."

Kendall smiled. He straddled Logan and brought their lips together. He pulled away and took his shirt off.

"Kendall. We are not doing it here."

"Yes. We are. You have no idea how long I wanted you. After it happened, I couldn't wait to do it again. But then you went and decided it was 'smart' to end it." He cupped Logan's face. "We have two hours alone. James and Carlos convinced my mom and Katie to go to a movie with them."

"Oh. Well. Please continue."

Kendall smirked and pulled Logan's shirt off. He threw it to the side and kissed at Logan's collar bone. He moved to Logan's neck and but down. He was gonna leave a mark for the world to see. Everyone would know Logan was his. After Logan moaned out his name, Kendall looked down at him. "I think I love you, Logan."

Logan ran a hand through Kendall's hair. "Good. Because I think I love you too."

Kendall moved in for another kiss. Logan quickly took control of it. He moved his lips to Kendall's cheek then went along hi jawline to the other. "Lay down," Logan whispered.

Kendall nodded and did as he was told. Logan slowly undid Kendall's pants before pulling them-and Kendall's underwear-off. Logan kissed his way down Kendall's body then took Kendall's member into his mouth. Kendall let out a long, low moan and bucked his hips forward. Logan didn't bother to hold him down. He let Kendall thrust into his mouth repeatedly. Kendall gabbed onto Logan's hair as he came. Logan moved back up and kissed Kendall. Kendall loved tasting himself on Logan's mouth.

"It's not fair," Kendall said.

"What?"

"You still have your pants on."

Logan chuckled. He got onto his knees and removed the rest of his clothes. Kendall took hold of Logan's arms and pulled him down, uniting their lips again.

"I want you inside me," Kendall mumbled against Logan's mouth.

Logan put his fingers to Kendall's mouth. Kendall began to suck. Soon, Logan was preparing Kendall.

"Now. Please," Kendall begged.

Logan kissed at Kendall's neck as he slowly entered him. It felt so good to be inside Kendall again. It was like they were a perfect fit. He wanted to move so badly, but knew he had to let Kendall adjust.

After a minute, Kendall said, "Go ahead."

Logan went slow. He wanted to make it loving. Sweet. When Kendall let out an impossibly loud moan, Logan knew he had hit Kendall's prostate. Logan kept hitting there again and again. Kendall was crying out and clawing at Logan's back.

"Yes! Yes! God, yes!" Kendall screamed.

Logan groaned out Kendall's name as he began to stroke him. "So fucking amazing."

Logan brought their lips together as they both came.

Once Logan was laying next to him, Kendall said, "I'm gonna have rug burn on my back."

Logan laughed. "I'm sorry."

"It's OK. Totally worth it." He pulled Logan close and held him tightly. "Promise you'll be with me for a long, long time?"

"Only if you promise not to let me fuck this up."

"Promise." Kendall kissed the top of Logan''s head. "I should thank James. He's the reason we're together."

"I know. We should buy him a gift."

"Or get him laid."

Logan let out a giggle and kissed Kendall's chest. "Yeah. I definitely know I love you."

Kendall grinned. "And I know I love you."

So as I was typing this up, I realized how terrible it was. Sorry about that... :/