Illogical, Irrational, Intrigue: A Death Note Fanfiction

(A/N So here it is, the very first chapter of Illogical, Irrational, Intrigue. I got to thinking one day about how deeply L and Light think in the series, and I got inspiration to write a story about how I interpreted the way their characters felt about developments in the plot and about their relationship with each other. It seemed like a decent idea for a fic and here we are!

This is an LxLight pairing story, but at the moment, I'm not too sure about how quickly their relationship will develop. But don't worry dear readers, there WILL BE relationship! And yes that means yaoi! But enough drabble, I really would love for you to read my (first ever) fanfiction and enjoy it)

Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.

Chapter 1: Unease

His footsteps echoed through the corridor. His deliberate steps leading him closer and closer to the one who would seek to expose him. The sounds of the door as it swung open announced his arrival, and L could do nought but sit and stare at the monitor. His unwavering gaze did not shift from its position, but he was alert. Oh yes, his entire attention was focused on the one standing behind him, the one whom he knewwas the mass murderer Kira – Yagami Light.

Yet L could do nothing until he found proof, some solid evidence that would support his own assurance that this… boy… was the deadliest killer in existence.

So he could do nothing as aforementioned killer opened his mouth and uttered the words that L knew were coming. "Ryuuzaki, I may be Kira".

L opened his eyes with a jolt, his limbs stiff from being in the same crouched position for an extended period of time. He slowly levered himself out of the chair, and walked over to the trolley of sweet foods Watari must have brought in whilst he was asleep.

Asleep. The very action was unfamiliar to L, as he did not partake in slumber often, preferring to use his time finding leads on Kira. Which admittedly hadn't been going too well until Light had made his move late last night.

Just the errant thought of Light made L wake up fully. The boy really was intriguing after all.

He was a few years younger than L himself, yet his intelligence was on par with his. L reflected on the superb way Light had manipulated the situation so that he would be imprisoned. He had appealed to the task forces' very emotions and they had played right into his hands.

L had seen through it though. He knew that Light desired to be watched, what he didn't know was why. Did he hope to prove his innocence by continuing to kill criminals even under L's watchful eye? Did he really think that a thing like that could clear his name, even though L had already deduced that Kira could control the time of death?

L did not know, could not unravel Light's true intentions, and this more than anything made him feel uneasy. He turned back to the monitor and nearly grimaced at the sight of Light sitting so erect on the bed. He would never admit it, but he regretted that Light had to be locked away like this. He regretted the fact that such and intelligent boy's talents had to wasted. More than that, he regretted that this enigma had been taken over by power; such a beautiful mind had been corrupted and tainted. It made L angry, even though the emotion did not show on the detectives face. He would catch Kira. If only he could save Light in the process.

…

After a few days of confinement, Light did not seem much worse for wear. Oh, of course his normally perfect hair was mussed and thin black clothes were wrinkled, but his demeanour had hardly changed. It was as though the thought that he may be Kira did not affect him in the slightest. If anything, the teenager looked bored, slightly weary, as though he was waiting for something.

That disturbed L. After all, what could he possibly be waiting for under these severe conditions? He remembered when Light offered himself to be kept under watch to 'fight the fear that Kira was inside him'.

"I may be Kira". L had immediately retreated into his mind, trying to uncover what Light had planned. He had no doubt that this was an act, that Light was really saying that he was Kira. Soichiro's face had contorted into an expression of horror as he ran to his son and violently shook his shoulders.

"What are you saying? Light, speak to me!" Soichiro's spluttered and yelled in the face of his immobile son.

"Father, please" Light had said quietly, "Please" His voice had rung with such remorse that L very nearly considered the boy truly regretted his actions. L could not help but marvel, the boy was truly a masterful actor.

His father backed off, and L could almost see the satisfaction in the teenager's eyes. It was all going to plan.

As Light explained how every clue they had pointed to him being Kira, L could see the taskforce were buying it. Light was sucking them in with his scripted lies, using his twisted words to con them into trusting him. He played on their pity as he declared himself scared of what he could be, saying he was losing himself and he wasn't sure of anything anymore.

Even though L had come to expect it by now, he could not help but be astonished by how well Light was wording his misconceptions, how easily he was able to manipulate these grown men with his words. This boy was truly a genius.

L didn't like the way this was going, but he knew he had no choice. He was going to imprison Yagami Light, if only he could shake the feeling that doing so would only further his plans.

The click of the handcuffs around Light's slender wrists jerked L out of his reverie.

"I'm counting on you Aizawa" he said stoically to the man leading the mass murderer to prison.

"… Yes" he replied, uncertainty colouring his voice.

L did not turn around, but as the sounds of Light being led away he felt apprehension. He just couldn't stop thinking that he was playing into Kira's hands, just as much as the other members of the task force had. The doors shut behind them with a sense of finality, and L knew that there was no going back from this point onward.

…

So now, as L sat watching Light endure his captivity he was still as uneasy as he had been that crucial day when Kira had been put behind bars. Suddenly, as if knowing L's very thought, Light asked a question, the first thing he had said since his imprisonment.

"Ryuuzaki, have there been any more deaths? Have any criminals been identified that are likely to have been targeted by Kira? Have any of them been killed?"

But you know the answer to that, don't you Kira? Still, L did not hesitate to answer Light' question.

"As a matter of fact, many new criminals have been identified, yet none of them have been killed since you were detained".

"Is that so?" Light could not hide the smirk of satisfaction on his face from L. "Then it is only a matter of time until I am convicted of being Kira".

As L listened to Light speak he realised that his original calculations were not working in accordance to the current situation.

At this rate, Light will be convicted of being Kira, there is no doubt about it. The only question left to answer will be if Light was aware of being Kira or not.

This sounded like an excuse to L. A poorly planned, weak excuse. This was not like Yagami Light at all. No… it was not like Kira to act in this manner.

…

L hated to admit the fact that he was fascinated by the boy lying before him. He wanted to study him, observe his behaviour without the necessity of a cage. After a week of confinement, L could see a change about Light. It was almost as if he was done waiting. As if he was ready to continue with his plan.

Feeling slightly apprehensive, L depressed the switch that allowed communication to Light in his cell.

"It's only been a week Light, yet you look exhausted. How are you faring?"

There was a slight pause, and suddenly, L felt that in this moment something momentous would occur. It was if all his hard work had come down to this moment. Everything depended on Light's answer. This was what he had been waiting for – and he didn't even know why he was so sure of it.

"Yeah" Light breathed "Even I can't say I look too good at the moment. But such meaningless pride…" Again he paused, and it seemed to L that he had imbued all the finality and triumph into what he said next.

"I'll discard it!"

L was very nearly dumbstruck. That was it? His words had sounded so intense, so passionate, that L had been 95% sure something vitally important would have happened.

But there was nothing. Light continued to start stonily ahead of himself, and L continued to stare down at the boy, unable to conclude why nothing had happened.

He recalled his words: I'll discard it! No, that couldn't be all he intended. Light had spoken with more resolve and feeling then then he had for the last week. It could not be a coincidence. Again, L looked into Light's eyes that were so focused and so determined. What is it? What does he hope too…?

L cut himself off as he gazed in muted horror at Light's eyes.

They had changed.

No longer were they narrowed in suspicion and distrust. No longer were they filled with the look that they had killed and that they felt power for it. No longer did those sepia points of light give him the sense he had to watch his step and calculate his every move.

L's own obsidian eyes widened as they gazed into Light's unwitting ones.

What he saw there now was confusion. He saw a scared teenager who did not know why he was there. He saw desperation and a need to be rescued. Light looked helpless, and it surprised L so much that he found himself unable to contemplate why such a momentous change had occurred. He could only crouch and stare at him, mesmerized by Light's eyes.

This boy in front of him was not Kira. He was Yagami Light.

So… where had Kira gone?

L felt something shift inside him when he looked at the desperate teen. He felt his heart constrict at the mere sight of those panicked eyes.

He was incredulous. He could not reason, he could not think. In that moment he was the most vulnerable he had been in his entire life.

Just what on Earth has happened to Light?

And what on Earth has happened to me?

(A/N: So yeah, we've got a bit of a fluffy opening chapter but things should develop quickly from here on in!

How will Light react to L's surprising judgement? Is it possible that Light will actually ask L for help? How will L handle his foreign feelings toward his suspect? Is it possible that their feelings towards one another are more than that of just colleagues? And when plans go horribly astray, how will Light cope with the loss of one whom he loves?

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