Just a little Swan Song ficlet – the Stull Cemetery scene *sob*

'Sammy, it's okay. It's okay. I'm here. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you. I'm not gonna leave you.'

I can't … I've got to … I can't leave you like this. I've got to do something, anything, to make this right. It's my fault, and oh God, Sammy, you're hurting.

I've got nothing to lose now, so I'm not going to let you die alone. Never that. Because, as much as every fibre I have wants to save you, needs to save you, I don't think I can. I don't think I'm strong enough. As much as I lied, you were always the strong one. But even you're not strong enough to fight the devil one on one and win.

But that's okay, Sammy. It's okay. Because I'm here. Dean's here. It'll all be alright. It doesn't matter anymore, Sammy. We tried, you tried, and we couldn't do it, Sammy. Nobody's gonna blame us for that. We only had a snowball's chance in Hell, anyway.

So you relax now, Sammy. Stop fighting. God knows I stopped trying to save the world a long time ago. All I want to save now is you. So relax now, Sammy. Let it go. Die, here, with me. We don't have to leave each other behind any more. Let's do it, let's go together.

I know that feels like losing, like giving up, like giving in, but what can they expect us to do Sammy? We've given our all, and more. Haven't we given enough?

Come on now, Sammy, come with me. I can feel myself going, and I don't want to leave you behind – I can't, not again. Don't blame yourself, Sammy, this isn't you killing me, even though it looks like it is and that breaks my heart. None of this is your fault. It's mine – it's always my fault.

But that doesn't matter anymore, Sammy. Here, let me take your guilt from you. Let me take your pain. Please? Here, Sammy, let my dry your tears. Come on, Sammy, one last push. All you've got to do is break free. And then we can go, together.

Of course I won't leave you. I'm here. And if you can't do it, I'll stay. It's as simple as that. I'll stay here, alive, with you. See, I don't think I'm physically able to leave your side anymore, so I'll stay. I'll stay until you find the strength to break free and to come with me.

Sammy, it's okay. It's okay. I'm here. I'm here. I'm not gonna leave you. I'm not gonna leave you.

Thoughts? (it's ok, cry it out, kiddo, cry it out)
xx