As i have said i am going to write a fic for VA and here i am now, writing one.

i haven't worked out all of the kinks in my story because it is not as i originally planned it to be.

For all of you who saw my original description that no longer aplies.

The story is going to be different.

Also i am looking for a beta for this story so if anyone is interested...

Here is a little pro log

~Az

Her heart is broken into a million pieces, scattered in various places around the academy. Some of the pieces are in the cave where she last saw Dimitri. Some of the pieces are in the room where her mom delivered the news that shattered her world, "We couldn't find Guardian Belikov. He is either dead or being held for later." Rose knew what the third option was, some pieces of her heart were there too. Other pieces where with her friends who Rose knew were in pain because Rose was. The last pieces are in Adrian's room, where Rose is sitting now. It has been a five months since the attack and she has pent all of her time in her room or his. He was the only one who could seem to comfort her. Well comfort her in a way. She knew that he loved her as more than a friends, and Rose hated to take advantage of that. But he also knew that there was no way she was going to be able to love again anytime soon. Adrian was the only one who previously knew her and Dimitri.

Rose as basically spent the last month ruining countless numbers of Adrian's shirts with her tears. Now she was just starting to get her life back. She had been going to the gym daily and even to class. She is different though. She came constantly feel the gazes on her every where she goes. No one ever says anything. Luckily she always has Lissa at her side. Right now she was on a couch in the lounge of Adrian's apartment. He wasn't here now. He was probably out somewhere drinking or getting into a fight. Adrian's drinking though has gone down since the attack. He has been making an effort to stay sober for Rose's sake. Sometimes though when he thinks that Rose isn't around she will catch him drinking strait from the bottle. She had her own key now. She could feel through the bond that Lissa was worried about her. It hurt Rose knowing that she was. She told told Lissa not to but of course Lissa didn't listen.

There was a nock on the door. It was probably Lissa. Rose had called her and told her to come over. Rose got up and opened the door. She was right it was Lissa. Worry was displayed on all of her features.

"Rose are you okay?" her voice was filled with worry, "you sounded pretty bad on the phone."

"I-I don't know Lissa. Something may have happened," she had no idea how Lissa was going to react. Rose was still in shock herself.

"Rose just spit it out," Lissa knew her. Rose sighed.

"Lissa, I think i am pregnant." she managed to say. It pained her to say those words out loud. Rose had never expected this to happen. She fell to the floor, crying again.

"Oh Rose," Lissa quickly came in and shut the door. She sat down next to Rose on the floor and put Rose's head in her lap and massaged her back, "Have you told Adrian yet?"

Rose could feel Lissa's worry. Worry for how Rose, worry for Adrian, and worry for what will happen next.

"no-no-not yet," Rose sniffled, "I just took the test."

What was she going to do. Rose didn't love Adrian that way and they all knew it. Rose was just not capable of that love right now. It happened though a few weeks after the attack. Rose, Adrian, Lissa, and Christian were all depressed. They all got mad drunk in Adrian's room. After Lissa and Christian left Rose needed to feel love and had sloppy drunken sex with Adrian. The next morning Rose regretted it with everything she had left. She knew that she hurt Adrian by feeling that way be she had no choice. Ever since that night she had tried to keep her distance from him but Adrian was making that very hard. The selfish part of her was secretly glad. But now they are going to bring another life into this world. Abortion was not an option. Being a guardian gave her a new prospective on that, everything deserves a chance at life. She just wasn't sure how Adrian was going to take this news though she had a feeling this would making him happy. It would just give him more of a reason to insist that him and Rose be together.

Rose could also feel through the bond that Lissa was secretly happy that Rose had told her before Adrian. At first Lissa had been upset when she found out that Rose had kept her and Dimitri's relationship a secret and even more that Adrian had known. Rose going to Adrian for comfort had just topped the cake, but everything was okay between them now even though every now and then Rose would feel a twang of jealousy from Lissa.

"You need to tell him soon," Lissa told her, "but maybe you should go to the doctor first, see if this is for real." Rose nodded.

There was no doubt that she was pregnant and both Rose an Lissa knew that. This was going to be quite a scandal, senior pregnant at academy. This was going to reflect badly when it came to who she was going to get assigned to guard. She would always be 'Rose the blood whore'. Rose didn't really care about that now. She knew Lissa would never let anything bad happen to her.

The tears had stopped falling and Rose stood up, "I am going to tell Adrian,"

The door opened, "tell me what?"

What do you think about the base of the story so far? I don't know why people call it green because it isn't, but please hit that review button down there and tell me what you think.