Lindsay was sitting on the chair in her room. She hadn't been in there for more than 5 minutes since the day he died. She looked at the bed she once shared with him and it was ripped her heart out. Today was the day her husband was being put in the ground and she didn't want to move. She kept thinking about their life and their children and everything that he left behind. She was brought out of her thoughts by a knock at her door.

"Lindsay it's time to go sweetie." Stella walked into her friend's room finding her just staring at her bed. "Lindsay come on the kids are waiting." She reached out her hand to pull her out of her chair.

"Stella I can't let him go." She wasn't crying she knew she would be crying alot today so she was doing her best to fight it now.

"Yes you can. You have to do this for you two girls down stairs. They need their mom back." Lindsay knew that she was right they had already lost one parent and now they were losing her. "Come on the limo is outside." The two girls left the room and went downstairs where everyone waited for them. Lindsay's mom handed her the black gloves and a small black vial to wear. She put them on looking in the mirror before leaving. With Bella holding her hand and Georgy in her arms they walked to the limo to take them to the grave yard. The whole way there she just kept saying I can do this I'm a big girl. The silent ride to the funeral home was intrepid but the sudden sound of the radio

"It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in white
Going to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in her shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand" Lindsay knew the song well it was one of her favourites. Stella made a move to shut it off when Lindsay hand stopped her.

"Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the gun's rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh,
Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah" She could feel the tears wanting to fall but she only let one slip out. She raised her hand to wipe it away then lifted her head to look at her daughters. They felt the car stop and she knew that this was it she would have to say goodbye. Stella got out and waited for Lindsay. Before Lindsay got out she turned to her girls.

"You ready for this baby?" Bella just nodded at her mother question. Lindsay slid out of the limo with Georgy on her lap and Bella close behind. She grabbed Bella's hand and starting walking towards the grave site. Walking up she got all the I'm sorry looks that were driving her crazy. She got to the front row and handed Georgia to Stella and help Bella sit down before walking up to the casket. She was standing in front of her husband's casket her heart breaking. Lindsay took off her gloves slid her ring off her finger and place it onto of the casket. She put her hands resting on it and lowered her head.

"Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
Oh, now I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream" She finished singing to him then kissed the top of the casket. She walked back to her seat in a daze. She was listening to everyone talking about how great Danny was and how he was an amazing father and husband but it was going in one ear and out the other. Before she knew it Mac was standing in front of her handing her the folded up flag. She held it close to her chest as she watched her husband being lowered into the ground. Everyone went back to Lindsay house for food after the funeral. She loved everyone who was there but she just wanted to be alone and go to sleep. Everyone had noticed that and didn't stay long. Once everyone was gone Lindsay put the girls to bed and went into her room. She took off her clothes and pulled on Danny's NYPD sweats. She needed to be near him. For the first time since he died she crawled into her bed but not on her side but on Danny's. She snuggled into his pillow that still smelt like him. She was about to close her eyes when she heard her door open.

"Mom can I sleep with you?" Bella was in her doorway her face red from the tears.

"Of course baby girl." She pulled back the blankets so Bella could get in.

"Mommy I miss him" Her daughter cuddled into her chest and started to cry.

"I miss him too baby." She hugged her and kissed the top of her head. Now it was her turn to start crying. The girls fell asleep pretty quickly after that. Lindsay shot up out of bed holding her chest having hard time breathing. She looked down at her hand and noticed her ring was there. She could have sworn she put it on Danny's casket. Lindsay started to cry and was struggling to breathe again. She heard footsteps running toward her room. She then the door flew open and he was standing there.

"Montana you ok baby what's wrong" He looked all over to make sure there was nothing physically wrong.

"What are you doing here?" She was beyond confused right now.

"What do you mean I live here" Danny gave her a weird look

"No you died I buried you I watched it go in the ground." Her tears were now falling harder. Danny grabbed Lindsay and pulled her into a hug.

"Montana hey I'm not dead I'm here baby. Its was just a bad dream"

"Are you sure" She looked up at him and he gave her a kiss

"Yes baby I'm sure. It was just a dream."