Disclaimer: I do not own Harry Potter, nor am I making any profit from this.
Warning: Spoilers for books five through seven (Order of the Phoenix, Half-Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows). Canon RemusTonks and AndromedaTed, not so canon CharlieTonks.
Smile baby,
You're growing up.
Just yesterday it seems you were learning to walk
To toddle on those clumsyclumsy legs
To speak
(And now you won't shut up!)
Getting those visits from that funny man you call your cousin
(Whatever happened to him anyway?
You haven't seen him for a longlong time)
And dancing under the moon
(That special time once a month when it was full and
-ohso-
B e a u t i f u l
&& you would look up and gaze
Once upon a time when you were young and innocent
and the moon was your best friend
because it was always there,
r e l i a b l e
no matter what)
And now you're getting on that bigbig train
Going to your first year at that ohsomagical school
And Mummy's scared
You think she's being silly
o/v/e/r/p/r/o/t/e/c/t/i/v/e
just like every other Mummy
But Mummy I'm grown up now!
But really
She's trying to save you
You don't know who you are
Not really
You're
Just Dora
You aren't a
-Black
-Shifter
-Danger
((not yet))
You see their prying eyes
And you think it's just because you're a
Littleclumsy
You don't notice their
Shockedeyes
When you're sorted into Hufflepuff
(But surely she should be a
...Slytherin?)
&& it's then that you find out.
When
Certain people won't trust you
And
Certain people look at you funny
And you can't understand w h y
(You know about the war
And that meanmean man
But not enough
Butbut those people
That lost their lovesdones
Don't know that, now, do they dear?)
People glare at you
(not many; only some
&& it's mostly the parents, anyway)
And you hear those names
Bellatrix Lestrange
Regulus Black
&& you don't know what they're talking about
But then you hear that one name
Sirius Black.
That's my cousin!
...
Sweat baby
Under their prying eyes
He's a
k i l l e r
Or at least
So they say.
&& soon you hear about those names
Bella&&Reg&&Sirius
++ Maybe they were bad
But he wasn't
Surely not
He shouldn't be in there!
You cling to that until you see him again.
(because he was part of something you always wanted-
A family.
And now without him you've barely got it.
You hear those tales about your meanmean aunts
And that one little cousin
&& you wish that maybe
Justmaybe
You weren't all a part of this
Massivelegacy
&& that you could all be a real family
Just like everyone else has.
&& they all get Uncles&Aunts&Cousins&Grandparents
So why can't you?)
You're just a broken girl;;
&& Maybe you didn't realise it before
But you've never been completely whole.
But then again how could you be?
Those normal people fear you
(she's related to Death Eaters!)
and those
Purebloods
Sneer at you.
(A Half-Blood? On the Black family tree?
WhatADisgrace!
And she's a shifter too.
Dis gus ting)
&& you're just caught in the middle.
Notquitesure where to turn.
Who could expect you to be whole?
...
Love baby
You've fallen in it
(or so you think)
With that boy
Your
bestbestfriend
Dragonboy.
Seeker.
Weasley.
&& you know what?
He's fallen for you too
&& you're so grown up
(But really you're young and foolish-
You're only sixteen kiddo)
You give eachother everything
&& you're naive enough to think it might last forever.
...
Choke baby
He's goingoingoing
To that one place
With the stupid name
And you're heartbroken
(or so you think.)
But then again
You're going to be an auror.
&& it's what you've always wanted
Right?
They treat you like they did at Hogwarts
With caution
She's a Black!
We can't
T
R
U
S
T
Her!
She'll only turn into one of them
Oh don't worry
She'll be locked up in a few years.
Nobody sees you for you
Nymphadora
You're just a
-Black
-Shifter
-Danger
No one but him.
He takes you underhiswing
(Merlin knows why-
You're just that clumsy little girl-
Hell, one of the youngest in the class!
Why should you get this
Honour?)
He sees something in you.
(Something you can't even see in yourself)
...
Grin baby
You're an auror now
(And one of the few from your bunch
Only Twenty two!
Youngest for years)
Mummy and Daddy are so proud
&& you've got those two people that believed in you
MadEye&&Kingsley
&& you've even got Charlie
Even if it's just for a second
&& you're so grown up!
...Right?
...
Laugh baby
Everything's going perfectly
You've been an auror for a
Wholeyear
&& now you're trusted enough
(by one of the greatest wizards to ever live!)
To become a part of the
OrderOfThePhoenix
(&& even the name sounds magical to you)
And you know what?
You've got him back
Yourcousin
&& he hugs you close
"I always knew you'd do it. Siriusly!"
&& you've got a little sister
Something you always wanted
That girl that looks up to you
(Although honestly you have no idea why)
Ginevra Weasley
"You're so cool Tonks! I want to be just like you!"
&& that broken girl
Hermione Granger
"Thank you Tonks! You've given me confidence!"
&& you've got you're best friend
(or at least one of them;;
you've gotten overCharlie.
well you kindasorta had to)
William Weasley
"Honestly, you're such a prat sometimes...
But that's why I love you."
&& you've got someone to confide in
Molly Weasley
"No dear, it's lovely having you around!"
&& the man that believed in you
Alastor Moody
"Always knew you'd be one of the best we've had."
&& that one man that makes you feel special
"Hello, my name is Remus John Lupin"
(Baby, don't deny it-
he had you at hello)
&& suddenly you're not
-Black
-Shifter
-Danger
You're Tonks.
And you're happy.
&& you'rehealing.
(what could possibly go wrong?)
...
Cry baby
You've lost it all
(&& you're losing your mind too)
She was there
Bellatrix Lestrange
(Yeah, 'strange' would be right)
&& she taunted you
&& it scared you how much she could hurt you
You've never met her before
But she knows how to hit you where it hurts.
++ you fall
And when you wake
He's gone.
(not like the last time-
Last time he could come back.
Last time he came back.
This time he's not coming back.
Ever.)
&& suddenly you're falling.
Oh, you're used to falling.
ButNotLikeThis
Not this hard.
You've fallen inlove
And that 'love' you felt before
Is nothing compared to this.
(&& you remember that time when you danced under the moon
it's still the same moon, darling
but now it's
-ohso-
u g l y
&& now that reliable bestfriend
is your worst enemy
Because it's always there
no matter what)
&& for the next year your life becomes a cycle
TooOldTooPoorTooDangerous
Tell me you don't love me.
I... You'd be better off without me.
&& you see her
You don't mean to
(don't want to)
But she finds you
Wolfie doesn't love you-
I killed Sirius Black-
Little shifter freak-
Nobody loves you-
&& the worst part?
You believe her.
She's breaking you baby
She's got power over you
(&&Andromeda&&Narcissa&&Draco&&Sirius&&Regulus...)
She alwayshas
&& then that
Greatwizard
d i e s
(&& if he couldn't do it what hope does a little girl like you have?
Not so grown up anymore dear, are you?)
&& you're giving up
Losingit.
(YourMind?
Don't worry dear, all Black's lose their minds at some point)
...
Hope baby
Things are picking up
He loves you
&& he's stopped denying it
&& you're married
Soso grown up!
Things will get better
You're healing
((and even the fact that she still wants you
Chases you for that wholenight
Nearly kills little Weasley too
Can't stop that.
Because you're not scared.
You're an adult now.
Right?))
...
Gasp baby
Someone else has gone
That one man that believed in you,
Trusted you when no one else would,
Yeahhe'sdead
butbut
You're
Havingababy
&& you're excited-
(A little scared)
But happy.
Until he leaves.
...
Break baby
You're alone
&& now Daddy's gone
(soso many people have left you)
&& you're losing it again
Yourmind.
...
Breathe baby
He's back.
&& he loves you
Even if your mother has threatened to castrate him.
&& then you hear
Daddy's dead.
Butbut you promise to be strong.
For Mummy.
...
Beam baby
You've done it
You're a Mummy now
&& he's perfect
Theodore Remus Lupin
&& you hold him
&& he
(Remus of course)
He holds you
And you're a family
That one thing you always wanted
But never really had
And he's happy
(delighted in fact; nobody's seen him this happy in years)
And you're happy
And it's just so perfect.
And you're
Healed.
(But how can you be fixed
When you weren't even whole to start with?)
...
Scream baby
You're there
In the castle
Fightingfightingfighting
&& she's there too
Youknowit.
(There was a reason you came tonight)
And then.
You.
See.
Him.
F
A
L
L
And you break again.
((ItWasAllTooBrief.))
You see her and you
Loseyourmind a little bit more
She's broken you so many times before
&& now she's laughing
Wolfie's dead.
stupid little girl.
so weak.
And then you know.
You were just a child before.
You were scared.
But not anymore.
You are going to face her.
It's doordie.
(&& Harry though he was the only one with problems.)
You look her straight in the eye.
And what you see shakes you.
The two of you aren't so different.
She's been hurt before, too.
She's loved someone that couldn't love her back.
And she's had people taken from her.
((Her 'Dromeda.
Her favourite sister.))
&& she's had people think theworst of her.
The difference is;;
You proved them wrong
+ she proved them right
&&ThatCould'veBeenYou
But It's Not.
&& then
You're the one laughing at her
You're the weak one, Bella.
She sneers.
She glares.
She screams.
(Because she knows that you're right?
&& you've found her little weakness
That brokenlittlegirl inside of her)
&& maybe
Justmaybe
That's why she does it.
She stops taunting you.
And for once in her life-
She stops playing games.
&& maybe that's why.
You've worked her out.
Scared her.
"Avada Kedavra!"
...
Blink baby.
It's flashing before your e y e s
(Nonono
You can't be dead!
You've got a baby to care for
Little Teddy
You wanted to watch him grow up soso much.
Wanted to be his Mum 'till he was old
&& what about your Mummy?
She's lost so much
toomuch
She'll break without you there!
&& you already promised Ginny that you'd be there for her
When she has her own baby
And...
And...)
&& suddenly he's holding you again.
Yourcousin.
"I'm sorry. I've missed you Dory"
&& you know it's true.
Because there's
Sirius
andand
Mad-Eye
andand
Daddy
andand
That one Uncle that always smelled kinda funny
andand
Remus.
&& you know it will all be okay.
...But even so
...
You never really got the chance to do
Somany things
&& now you're just a memory.
The girl with the bubblegum hair and the contagious smile.
The girl with a thousand names.
The girl that was a descendant of something somuchbigger than she could ever be.
The girl that was broken from day one
And never really got the chance to heal.
(not completely)
A/N: So that was my little... Piece on Tonks. Tonks is my favorite (or one of my favorite) characters but due to the films (which she was barely in) and the final book (in which she seemed to lose almost all importance to Remus and just about everyone else. I mean, most of the time she was only mentioned in passing...) she gets forgotten about. If you really think about everything that's happened then she's had a pretty tough time. I wanted to do a more in-depth piece and I'm having a bit of an obsession with the family at the moment. Feedback would be rather appreciated!