The piano had been playing for 5 minutes and Rachel hadn't even sung a word yet. She was just standing there frozen. She couldn't do it. She couldn't let people see her so weak. She ran out of the room, with no clue of where she was going to go. Before she could change her direction, she realized she was standing in the auditorium. A few minutes after she ran in there, she heard someone say her name.
"Rachel?" Mercedes said.
"Yeah?"
"Are you ok?"
"Not really. I wrote this song, hoping everyone would be able to see the real me and everything that I've had to deal with but, I just can't sing in front of everyone in there, especially not in front of Finn. I don't him to see me so weak, when he seems to be perfectly fine dating Quinn now."
"He's dating Quinn again?"
"I guess. When I was talking about how I saw something yesterday, it was seeing Quinn and Finn kissing. It just hurt so much and I knew it shouldn't have with us broken up but, it just tore my heart out."
"Rachel, it's okay to hurt. You loved him with everything you had. You still love and seeing him with someone else isn't fair to you. Though I think you should be a single diva, you and Finn belong together. He's just not smart enough to know that yet."
Rachel laughed at that and Mercedes joined her knowing Rachel needed a laugh right now.
"And as for your song, just sing it. Let them know that you are weak and that you aren't always strong. Let everyone know that have feelings and what they do to you really affects you. And if you still don't think you can stand in the front and looking at everyone. Just look at me."
"Your right, they need to know that. I can't always be the strong person in the club. Let's go I'm gonna go sing this song and by the way I probably will end up looking at you the entire time."
Mercedes smiled at her as they made their way back to Glee club. When Rachel got back into position in front of everyone she waited for Mercedes to sit down, then told Brad to start and then stared at Mercedes as she started to sing.
"What have I done?
I wish I could run,
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions
Keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right, to get it right?
Can I start again, with my fate shaken?
Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes,
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touch tumbles down?
Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things,
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?
So I throw up my fists, throw a punch in the air,
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair!
Yeah, I'll send out a wish,
Yeah, I'll send up a prayer
And then finally, someone will see
How much I care
What can you do when your good isn't good enough?
And all that you touches tumbles down
Oh, my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Oh how many times will it take for me to get it right?
To get it right"
As Rachel finished the song she could feel tears starting to make their way down her face before Ms. Holiday and Mercedes came up and hugged her.
"Rachel, that was amazing! We definitely will be singing this song at Regional's!" Mr. Schue said as he got up to go and hug Rachel.
"That was so good! I can't believe I inspired you to write that song but, I'm glad I did! You were so amazing!" Ms. Holiday said as she and Mr. Schue pulled apart from her.
"Thank you both. Especially you Ms. Holiday, you've helped me so much." Rachel said to them both.
"You're welcome." Ms. Holiday said as she and Mr. Schue started walking over to his office.
"Rachel! How did you write that? It's so amazing and great. I'm literally speechless." Artie said to her.
"Well I've just taken everything that's happened in my life from the bullying, to heartache, to sending Sunshine to that crack house and rolled it all into one song. No one really knows what I go through every day."
When she finished saying that everyone, except Finn, got up to go and hug her telling her how sorry they had been for everything they've done to her. As they were all sharing a special moment they realized it was time to go. Mercedes told Rachel that she'd be waiting at her locker for her, so they could go over to Kurt's house. As everyone was leaving, Rachel hadn't realized that she was alone in the choir room with Finn until he said something to no one directly.
"You saw us yesterday didn't you?"