This idea has been circling in my head for a while. I was thinking about it, and how depressing it would be to have a really long journey and to finally get home, because you would miss the journey. I don't own any of this.

Being home was too much to handle. She left a part of herself in the Delta Quadrant. She had missed her family when she was in the Delta Quadrant, but then they people she was stranded with became her family. They hadn't spoken since the Welcome Home party, which was a Month ago. She was an Admiral now, stuck at her desk doing paper work. She missed it, she missed the ship, she missed the danger, she missed the aliens she met, she missed her family. The people that became her family at least. She had seen too much it was like being in a war, she had nothing in common with her sister or her mother anymore. She kept starting sentences with "On Voyager we", "In the Delta Quadrant there..", "This one time Seven…", "The Doctor always.." "BE'lanna was very angry…" "Chakoaty was doing some kind of ritual" "Harry and Tom were flying this shuttle.." "Seven said…" and so on. Her sister tried to get her to remember the times that they had before she left, but they weren't as powerful for Kathryn as the memories from the Delta Quadrant. It was just a week after arriving on Earth when the happiness of being home evaporated. It just faded away, and was replaced with loneliness, depression, and a different of home sickness. It was tearing her apart, she needed to see them, she needed her real family, she needed Voyager, and she needed the Delta Quadrant. She knew she couldn't convince everyone most of her crew had no emotional connection to her or otherwise. However there were several people that did, that she was connected to as well, Chakotay, Harry, Tuvok, Tom, BE'Lanna, The Doctor, Naomi Wildmen and Seven. Then there was Neelix, who was still in the Delta Quadrant. Naomi was too young for this plan and her mother would never agree to it. So it would just be Chakotay, Harry, Tuvok, Tom, BE'lanna, The Doctor, and Seven. They could pick Neelix up on the way.

The month mark had pasted, she was ready to set up a meeting. First she contacted The Doctor, he wasn't too far away. She said she wanted the senior officers to come to dinner. That was her excuse.

After that she contacted Tom and BE'lanna they had a new born baby to think of, but she thought it was a good idea to at least ask. They took the bate. Next she contacted Harry, and on the phone she realized he was feeling the same thing she was. Libby didn't accept him, because he wasn't the same, and he wanted to be with people who understood what he went through and how he felt. Then there was Tuvok, he had a family too, it would be hard to tear him away from them, except that maybe they didn't understand him anymore either. No one could understand the connection they had to each other after their seven year adventure. Then there was Chakotay and Seven, who were still dating much to the Admiral's displeasure. Chakotay was hard to convince, he had this big thing of being reintegrated into his old Tribe. She remembered him telling her that his father told him that he would never really belong anywhere if he backed away from his tribe. She figured that he was probably trying to change that. She didn't speak with Seven, but she could hear them argue about it while Chakotay explained about the dinner party. She only saw Chakotay on her side of the screen, he took up the whole thing, but now he was facing away from her.

"We're going." Kathryn heard Seven's voice clearly and then Chakotay's objection.

"We have a new life now."

"You can't decide for me, we may be engaged but that doesn't mean that you make the decisions, we make them together." Kathryn found that it was hard to breath. They were engaged? Were they going to tell her?

"The man's job is to make the decisions. I know that you were raised by the Borg and you don't get it, but I'm telling you now, the man makes the decisions." Kathryn wanted to yell at him to scream and then she heard the timidness in Seven's voice next.

"okay." She wasn't sure what to do now that Chakotay was back to talking to her as if she didn't see what just happened as if she wasn't really on the other end.

"We won't make it Kathryn, we have other plans." The Admiral couldn't believe his arrogance.

"Please Chakotay." So she decided to beg. "I hate being an Admiral, and I miss everyone, I miss you."

"You miss Seven."

"Yes. I miss all of you." She wasn't understanding what Chakotay was talking about.

"Fine. We'll come." Kathryn smiled and Chakotay smiled back. There he was, the Chakotay she remembered.

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This was it there were all in her flat. BE'lanna, Tom, and their daughter sat on the couch. The Doctor and Harry were talking over some Champagne. Seven was staring out the large window, and Chakotay was facing her trying to get her to talk to him. He kept talking, and she wasn't listening. She was staring out at the city, thinking about how she was in the home of her former Captain. The woman that she hadn't stopped thinking about since she met her. First as a Borg, it was because the human had come up with a negotiation where assimilating was not an option. She was fascinated by her. Then after being stripped of her perfection, she started to admire, the older woman for her amazing ability to govern the humans without mind control. Then the admiration turned to friendship, Janeway would teach her about humanity, and she asked for this advice at all hours of the night. Then she found that she couldn't be without her, she couldn't stop thinking about her, and whenever their hands accidentally touched, she felt a strong electric current through out her body. She realized then that she was in love. It was confusing, wasn't she suppose to love a man? How could she be having these feelings for a woman, that couldn't be normal, so she tried to push them away. She decided to try dating Chakotay. It wouldn't be that bad if he wasn't so sexist. If he didn't insist on making all of the decisions. It would also help if she was even a little bit attracted to him, trying to get excited for sex with him, was impossible for her. Could she really spend the rest of her life with him, when the person she truly wanted for only a few feet away. When he proposed to her, she saw it as a way to escape to be normal, to finally put away her feelings for her Captain for good. It didn't work and going through with the wedding wouldn't change how she felt. What was she going to do. Just then as Seven was seaping even deeper into her own thoughts she heard the voice she loved so much ring out like a bell.

"Attention, I have something to ask all of you, it's the real reason that I asked you here tonight." Everyone seemed surprised even shocked. So they all gathered around their former Captain keen to know exactly why she called them there that night. "This may seem like a stupid questions, but do you miss Voyager?" She asked them, they all nodded. "Do you miss it so much it hurts?" She asked them again, all of them still not understanding what she was getting at nodded in agreement. "What if we could go back?" She finally asked, causing a lot of gasps and stunned expressions.