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Many thanks to my co-horts Holloweenlover, Dazzleglo, and busymommy

The Last Thing I Wanted

Chapter 1

Edward's POV

Alice and Bella had gone shopping in Seattle for the day. Carlisle was working at the hospital. Everyone else had left to go hunting, leaving Jasper and me home alone.

I couldn't explain to anyone - except for Jasper - what had been transpiring between us for years. He understood, since he felt the same way. Jasper and I had always looked like we were the least closest in the family. However, that was the furthest thing from the truth. There was no way Alice didn't know. Between her visions and my scent lingering all over Jazz's firm, yet supple flesh, she had to know.

The first time it happened blew my mind. I had never had the urge to have sex with anyone before. Nonetheless, on a solo hunting trip with Jasper, I found myself aroused as I watched him take down and feed from a mountain lion. The urge was so strong I grabbed myself through my jeans and palmed my first ever erection. I didn't even realize, until I felt my hand grabbing my cock, that I had shoved down my pants desperate for more. When I looked up, Jasper was grinning at me. Before I could pull my hand free he was next to me urging me on.

"Undo your pants, I want to see how hard I made you," he purred with hooded eyes.

"I…um…didn't…" I stuttered, trying to find a reason behind my behavior.

"Yes, you did. Pull it out and I'll show you how it's done." He licked my earlobe, sucking it into his mouth.

I shivered at the sensation I was feeling. Throwing my head back, I did what he wanted. It felt freeing to have my cock out in the open. It surprised me when he did the same. Just hearing his zipper pull down had me shivering with anticipation. Taking his rod in hand, he stroked it showing me what to do. A sigh slipped through my parted lips. It felt so good massaging the massive, rock hard flesh in my hand. Pushing his hips closer, he rubbed the tip of his shaft against mine. I shuddered at the erotic gesture. I wanted more, so much more. When he grabbed both our cocks together and stroked them as one, I thought I would lose myself in the sensation. I wanted to get lost in it, never letting it end.

Dragging his nails down my back had me purring to him. Pulling him closer, I buried my face in the crook of his neck. Feeling his firm chest heaving against mine was beyond fantastic. He rubbed his pebbled nipples against mine, purely by accident, but I craved more.

Writhing together, "Jasper," I panted into his shoulder.

"Me, too," he snarled, nipping at my neck.

The faster he moved, the tighter the coil in my stomach wound up. When he locked my lips between his for the first time, something snapped inside. Together, we spilled out in spurts, coating his hand and our cocks with our venom. Without stopping, he moved faster than any human could comprehend, dragging me to my next climax. Before I could step back, he increased his thrusting. Bucking into his touch, he brought us to a third release before my knees wobbled and buckled under me.

Slumping down against the nearest tree, I panted through my blissful state. Looking over, Jasper was still watching me. I knew he wanted more, but he was deliberately not thinking about it. Before I could ask him what, he jumped me, flipping me over. With one hand he held my face against the forest floor, parting my cheeks. At first I struggled, even though I wanted him to take me. His first intrusion was with his fingers, using the venom from our jerking off to coat me. My hips jerked against his hand telling him how much I was enjoying it. He knew what he was doing. Each pumping of his fingers was done to excite me, not hurt me.

"Please fuck me," I whined.

"Since you said please, how can I say no?" he breathed into my ear.

Smearing the rest of our cum on my ass, he buried himself inside me in one fluid thrust. I screamed out, taken over by an even mix of pain and pleasure. After a few thrusts and grinds against me, I began moving with him, seeking out more. As the pain ebbed, pleasure swelled inside me. His throbbing member was the only thing I could think about. Grabbing my hips, he pushed in harder and faster. A thrill shot through me when he snarled out and shot his warm, venom deep inside me.

He pulled out and flipped me again, licking his lips as his eyes raked my body. I so wanted that tongue to stroke my cock. I wanted to feel my shaft moving in his mouth. Jasper didn't disappoint me. As he wrapped his soft, sensual lips around me, my hips bucked to meet him. Twisting my hands in his hair, I controlled the pace. My mind fogged over when he started swirling his smooth tongue around my tip.

"Oh, fuck," I growled.

Pushing in deeper, I could feel the back of his throat tighten around me. My hips rocked, needing another climax. When he swallowed against my tip it was over and I spilled my venom down his throat. It was singularly the most erotic thing I had ever felt.

Just remembering the first time had my cock throbbing to be out of its confines. "Edward?" I peeked up from the newspaper that I was using to cover my ogling eyes.

"Jasper?" I played coy, smiling my half crooked grin, knowing he could feel the waves of lust rolling off me.

"I need you," he flashed to my side. "I want you. Now," he begged, running his nose along my neck.

Grasping my shoulders, he pulled me from my seat and flung me against the wall. "I want you, too," I snarled, ready for him.

Without thought, our hands roamed freely over each other's clothes, seeking out silky flesh where we could find it. With each pass, our hands grew more desperate. Groping and growling, we fumbled with each other's clothes as we tripped up the stairs. I hated that we couldn't just rip them off. There would be no explaining that one away. Everyone would know.

I couldn't resist the desire to kiss him anymore. Hungrily, I attacked his lips with my own. A snarl ripped from his chest as I devoured his tongue. I dominated his mouth forcing my will upon him. My tongue swirled around his mouth, pulling at his tongue, his taste lingering on my lips.

Pushing me hard against the wall, he bit down on my shoulder, breaking open the flesh, marking me. My answering growl had nothing to do with warning him off, and everything to do with wanting more. Licking the wound shut, his ministrations were driving me further into insanity.

Our nimble fingers made quick work of belts and zippers. With one shove, our pants and boxers slipped to the floor, leaving us both free to grind against each other. Pulling each other's shirts off, we staggered, our pants around our ankles. I loved feeling his molded chest against mine. He didn't fight me when I slipped my hands into his hair and tugged hard. Accosting his neck, I nipped and sucked my way back to his lips for another kiss.

Grabbing my manhood in his hands, he led me to my bed without breaking our passionate kiss. Before Bella we used my lounge., but the new bed in my room allowed for greater freedom. Pausing for only a second, we stripped out of the remains of our clothing.

This was only the second time, since Bella came into our world, that Jasper and I had been together. While we both loved our mates with every fiber of our beings, there was an undeniable attraction between us. We'd tried for years to resist, failing miserably. We loved each other. It was different from the love we had for our mates, but it was there. We would die for each other as quickly as we would for them.

The moment I hit the mattress, I reached out and grabbed his hardness in my hand. I stroked him with a firm grip, drawing his body closer. With a groan slipping from my lips, I pushed my hips against his palm. I needed more. He swatted my hand away, flipping me on my stomach, moving behind me, over me.

I was out of my mind with desire when he slipped his fingers into me, pumping, twisting, stretching. Reaching around, he grasped my shaft with his other hand. I thrust back against his hand. Meeting my rhythm, he stroked, making me incredibly harder. His name rambled off my lips like a prayer. "Jasper, please?" I gasped, shamelessly begging for more.

The loss of his fingers was replaced by the reward of his rod teasing my entrance. The urgent growl erupting from his chest when he finally pushed into me was sweet music to my ears. Feeling him throb inside me had me aching for my release.

"Fuck, Edward, your ass is so tight!" he snarled, pushing my legs further apart to plunge deeper, picking up his pace.

His hand fisted my erection, my body tightening under it. I couldn't fight it anymore. There was no way I would last. I needed to cum. Now.

"I'm so close," Jasper snarled, thrusting harder, pushing me over the edge.

"I – can't – stop," I bellowed, spilling my venom onto his hand.

With two more hard thrusts he filled me leaving us both panting and gasping for unneeded air, his body covering mine.

"Edward!" Bella's sharp intake snapped me out of my blissful haze.

"Bella, I can explain," I said, as I struggled out from under Jasper. But she was gone.

Alice still remained frozen where Bella had once stood. Jasper pulled out and I quickly threw my clothes on. With one last look at Jasper, who was trying to talk to Alice as she stalked away from my room, I ran after Bella.

"Bella, stop!" I demanded.

" Don't. EVER. Talk. To. Me. Again," she sobbed, running for her truck.

"Wait! Let me explain!" When she spun around, I foolishly hoped she would listen to me.

"Explain what? That the whole reason you wouldn't have sex with me was because you really wanted Jasper? And to think I was willing to give you everything and anything from day one. Get away from me!" she screeched, swatting my hands away when I tried to grasp her.

"It's not like that! Bella, I love you," I vowed , my pleas falling on deaf ears.

"No, you don't. It's over, here's your ring back. Don't try to call, come see me, or write. Just stay away." She shoved my mother's ring in my hand and spun away, climbing into her truck.

"Oh, and some food for thought, I would have blown your mind every day of eternity, I've wanted you so much, as much as I've wanted, Alice, too, but I was willing to wait " And with that parting shot, she backed out of the driveway.

Hanging my head, I stumbled back toward the house. I could have grabbed her, but I wouldn't risk hurting her if I used too much pressure in my frantic state. Dropping to my knees, I gave myself over to misery. I had lost the only thing I loved more than myself and Jasper. Bella.

I heard Jasper and Alice fighting over what she and Bella had seen. It was one thing to be able to ignore it when her visions are so flexible, but it was entirely different to see the truth with her own eyes. The shouting stopped the minute Alice was hit by her next vision. It was a vision that would end my existence.

I watched, as Alice saw Bella, blinded by tears, ram her truck into the guardrail on a stretch of highway that ended at the cliffs of La Push. Bella shrieked as the truck went over the cliff, her fragile body encased inside tons of crushing metal.

Alice's screams shook the house as we realized we would be too late, even if we broke the treaty. It was done. I had been a fool and it had cost me everything.