There we are. Last chapter. Can't believe it's finally here! Just realized it took me over three years to get this done and I'm seriously sorry for that! I do, however, have the diary as promised. Instruction to how to get there are at the bottom of this chapter. Feel free to include commentary about that in your review!

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Shivers ran down his spine as those fingers touched his now tearstained cheek. So warm. So alive. This could not be real. His mind tried to focus, tried to remember whether he had drowned himself after all, but he was quite sure he hadn't. And when he finally dared to look and found those familiar golden eyes, gleaming with life, he knew it was real.
'Remus. Oh my god, Remus.' He whispered in the other man's hair as he pulled him close. He wasn't a ghost or a figment of his drowned imagination. It felt too good. Those few words were all he said for minutes. He cried. Not with sound, but his body heaved and shook while Remus held him close.
There were no words that described how they felt that moment. Feeling you lover's heat when you were just about to believe you'd never see them again was about the best thing on earth. Neither of them would doubt that right now.

The short moment in which Remus had been mesmerized by how good Sirius looked in his new clothes with damp hair was gladly exchanged for this one. And no matter how cruel it made him feel, Sirius crying like that only made it better. He could feel Sirius' heart beat like mad against his chest. He recalled how his own heart had skipped several beats when James had informed him about his plan. Remus had asked him over and over again whether it was true. If the would really be with Sirius again. James had promised him again and again but in return made Remus promise over and over again to be more careful.

Remus had not been able to believe it would happen, no matter how often James promised, until that very moment he touched Sirius' cheek. And now he had one arm wrapped around his waist and the other in the wet curls in which he buried his nose. He could feel Sirius' body, still hot from his bath, glow through his clothes. He pushed himself away a little to take a good look at him. Sirius was indeed skinnier then when they first met. But now, bathed and dressed in proper clothing, he looked better than Remus had even seen him. The pale silk with shiny blue stitches matched his eyes and emphasized dark hair and lashes.
The mentioned eyes were staring back at him, watery with a look of disbelieve. Remus could only wonder what they saw. He surely looked better than was Sirius was used to. Smelled better, too. His new clothes weren't as fancy as what he used to wear in his glory days of Dukeness, but he felt more comfortable in them. But Sirius… Sirius was just plain gorgeous. Well.. Apart from one thing.

'You got this wrong.' Remus mumbled and fixed Sirius' collar, which was buttoned misaligned. His fingers brushing against Sirius' throat made him shiver. It was real..
'Where would I be without you.' Sirius said, voice croaky. Remus was rendered speechless for a little while. It felt as if his body had already started to eject memories of Sirius and hearing him talk.. It was once again the most beautiful thing he had ever heard, just as it had been weeks ago in a room not fat from this one.
'You'd be right here.' Remus smiled. 'It was with me that you would be far away.'
'So I guess trusting James is the right thing to do.' Sirius frowned.
'Who knew, right.' Remus smiled.

They stared at each other, Remus' fingers still holding the collar and Sirius' hands moving towards the man's wrists, rubbing his thumbs over the exposed skin.
'Can I kiss you? Or do you think we should talk.'
'Keep talking and I'll die.' Remus muttered, not willing to admit how much he longed for this moment. He grabbed onto Sirius' collar and let his lips brush past his before crushing into a devouring kiss.
'Please, not again. Once is enough.' Sirius mumbled between those two kisses.
'Twice, actually.' Remus corrected him. 'Now stop talking.'
Of all the kisses they shared, this would be their favorite for quite some time. And all that came after, too.

His fingers fumbled with buttons and Sirius knocked them away, struggling to get out of his pretty new clothes as fast he could. Remus watched in awe as he undressed until he stood in front of him, as naked as the day he was born.
'Should we..' Remus started, not sure why he was still doubting. He wanted this. So much.
'Shut up.' Sirius answered his doubts. 'I'm a Duke now and I say this is perfectly fine.' His fingers, slightly calloused from the gardening he used to do, started unbuttoning Remus' clothes.
'Wait.' Remus stopped him. Sirius attempted to protest but Remus shut him up with a kiss and walked towards the door, locking it. 'Let's not make the same mistake twice, alright?' Then he rushed back, taking his place and allowing Sirius to undress him further until the two of them were fully naked.
They stood like that for a while, looking at each other. The only other time Remus had seen Sirius naked was a brief moment before he ran off, feeling as if what they were doing was completely wrong. But now.. The phrase you don't know what you have until it's gone was right. And he would be willing to give up anything if that meant keeping Sirius with him.
He carefully took a step closer and Sirius followed his example. His breathing hitched as they repeated that process once more and they touched, head to toe, and it was fireworks. He wanted to say so much but words failed him. All he could do was move his lips before closing them again. Sirius softly caressed his shoulders as he bowed forward to whisper in Remus' ear.
'Don't run away from me this time, alright?'
Remus promised not to as Sirius pushed him towards the bed and they fell down on it. Remus on his back, Sirius on top.

***

'You think James had this in mind when he sent you up?' Sirius asked, still panting as Remus cleaned the cum of his stomach. He had just finished Sirius off with a hand job and couldn't stand seeing his Duke this dirty. He was making quite the servant already. Well. Sort of. He liked to think this task was given to him solely.
'I think he did.' Remus admitted. 'Though he probably blocked out some details.' He checked his own body for leftovers but Sirius had done a thorough job with his mouth that still made Remus blush. His cock grew half hard again by just recalling that hot mouth that had been working on it not that long ago.
Sirius snorted.
'Well, he doesn't know what he's missing. He'll never get laid chasing Lily the way he does!'
"That ended, actually.' Remus said as he cascaded the handkerchief and sank his head down on Sirius' chest, heart pounding even harder than it had done before.
'Really? He gave up?'
'She gave in.'
'Insane.' Sirius stated as he buried his nose in Remus' hair. 'Can't we stay like this forever?'
'We could try.' Remus chuckled. 'May make audiences a bit harder though.'
'Nonsense. We'll keep them right here.'
'Great plan. No one that would ask questions about the naked servant in your bed.'
'I'll hide you beneath the blanket.'
'Excellent. I'm used to hiding anyway.'

It was supposed to be a joke but the air grew thick with complications of the past.
'Trouble will start again if I die.' Sirius said, leaving Remus confused with the lack of explanation.
'Sorry?'
'You know what I mean. I won't marry. I don't want a wife and so I'll never have an heir. And after my father's death they'll surely refuse my with darkness infested brother or any of my insane cousins this position.'
Remus pulled himself away from Sirius, leaning on one arm to look at his lover.
'Of course you will marry.' He said, leaving Sirius to stare at him with big eyes.
'No, I won't!'
'You will.' Remus pressed. 'You will father children and you will love them every step of the way. It will be complicated, yes. And it will take a fair amount of control from the both of us. But I'm willing to believe that is the price to pay for this.. relationship.' He was to say sin, but it didn't feel like a sin anymore. A complication, yes. But a good one. One he was willing to fight for.
Sirius stared at him with anger in his stormy eyes.
'Would you have married someone if it had been the other way around?'
'I would have.' Remus admitted.
'Well. That's great.' Sirius growled and pulled himself away from Sirius completely, trying to get out of the bed but Remus grabbed his arm.
'It wouldn't have been love.' Remus calmed him. It was as if only now he realized how he used he was to the life of secrets and privileges he had led. How ruling a country and the responsibility for his people came before his own needs. Sirius had a lot to lean. 'You know what happened when my father died without an heir. It is only now, so many years later that tragedy seems to have come to an end. I had to hide, live a secretive life. I wouldn't want that for any further generations. It hurts too much.'
'But I wouldn't love her!' Sirius said, pulling his arm from Remus' grip.
'And she would understand!' Remus continued. He was starting to see why James had pressed him to fulfill this role in Sirius' guard. 'That is how it works. Work out an agreement. Let her have a lover. Need I remind you I'm the son of a maid? Do you really think my father's wife didn't know I existed? We are not supposed to marry out of love.'
'But I need you!'
'Gods, Sirius. Enough with the buts!' Neither of them laughed. 'I will always be there. But we have to be practical.'

Sirius crossed his arms and sniffed, but Remus could slowly see his shoulders lower in understanding.
'I'm going to be a shite duke.' He said, now burying his hands in his hair. 'I was willing to give it a try when I thought you were dead to honor you and stuff. But it's freaking me out right now. I know nothing about this!'
'And that's why I'm here.' Remus whispered, glad Sirius didn't shake off the hand he placed on his shoulder. 'It's not going to be easy, but we're not going to let you figure this out on your own.'
'But the estate is so big! How am I ever going to keep track of that! I'm not as calm and organized as you, you know. There, I even said you, you know twice!'
Remus decided to not mention how he once hid under a bed, not that long ago, and walked towards a dresser. Surprised how comfortable he seemed to be with his own nudity, he opened a drawer and pulled out some rolls of parchment that had been there for quite some time. He sat down on the bed next to Sirius, smiling as he realized he had never done any of this naked before. That sure was a pleasant change of a dull job.
'Break it down.' Remus advised 'I was planning on doing so myself for quite some time. Here.'

He walked over to a drawer and pulled out some papers, placing them on the bed next to Sirius, who decided to crawl back under the blankets.
He walked over to a drawer and pulled out some papers.
'This is a cousin of yours, but from the good side. Nymphadora Tonks. Her father, Ted Tonks, was one of the people that has been working on your appointing. She is the heir to the original Hufflepuff bloodline and raised to rule. I suggest you reinstate her for this part.' He circled a part of a map with his finger.
'And there is Xenophelius Lovegood. An odd, but good man. With advice from his daughter Luna, they'll be able to rule the former Ravenclaw estate.' And he circled another part.
'That leaves you the Griffindor and Slytherin grounds to rule and I'm sure you can manage that.'
'As long as you're with me.'
'I'm not leaving, even if you want me to.'
'Never want you to. Fuck. Are you really real?'
Remus raised an eyebrow.
'Unless you do what you just did with ghosts on a regular basis, I'm quite sure I'm real.'
Sirius poked his side and Remus giggled. Then his face grew serious again.

'You are really going to be alright, you know.'
'I know.' Sirius admitted.
'And I'll never leave you.' Remus promised as he squeezed Sirius' hand. 'Promise. Now, get dressed.' He ordered Sirius as he jumped of the bed and started dressing himself.
He heard some ruffling of fabric behind him and he turned around to find Sirius buttoning his collar.
'Better?' He said with a lopsided smile but still slightly sad eyes.
'Much better. See, you learn fast.'
Remus leaned against the windowsill, admiring his lover. It wouldn't be easy. He knew that. But every step of the way would be worth it, as long as they would be together. As he aimed for a more comfortable position by putting his hands in his pockets, he felt something in his pocket. With a smile he pulled it out and walked over to Sirius, putting it in his hands.
'Is this what I think it is?' He asked.
Remus nodded.
'It is.'
'Shouldn't we burn it?'
'We should. But perhaps you'd like to read it first.'
As Sirius sat down on the edge of the bed and flicked the little notebook open, Remus returned to his windows, looking out through the glass that had been his cage for so long.

His gaze wandered off at the flowers and the enchanting green of the grass, plucking his simple clothing. The sun seemed warm, their beams luring. His lips formed to a smile when he remembered how James had pressed
Never had he been more thankful for the curtains that he had once hated so much.
The curtains that, until the bitter end, had hidden his appearance.
Finally he turned around, facing the astonishing grey eyes that had crept up behind him, notebook still in one hand. He placed his hand on the flat chest, feeling his heart beating in time with his own.

'Sirius?'
'Yes?'
'Would you fancy a walk?'

There! The ending! Oh my god. I can't believe it's really over.. I think when I started I had in mind to end it with a spectaculair sex scene, but that just didn't seem to fit. Now.. There was some promising of a notebook! You guys gave me way more than the 40 reviews I asked for, so it's yours. Take the link below, delete the #'s and enjoy!

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Goodbye and see you innnn.. perhaps… the Atticted Sequel?