This is my first song fic so there's a good chance it'll be bad. Anyway, this is all Camille's POV in the episode "Big Time Crush".

The song is "Where I stood" by Missy Higgins.

She was beautiful. No one could ever deny that. I was always afraid that some new girl would just steal him right from under my nose. But it didn't happen like that and I know that. I needed to move on because it would only get worse if I continued this game. It was a tug of war and I was tired of it. I can't keep pushing girls away from him.

There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening

Something has been telling me that I should just leave it alone that i should let him be happy. Something was telling me to just let it go and let him breathe. That something was me. I knew I couldn't keep him all for myself.

Because I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Because she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

The thing is since Logan and the guys moved to the LA, it's like I'm not sure what I want anymore. I had never been in love before but when I first saw Logan it was like I was finally starting understand what everyone was talking about. I also figured out why I could never get any roles in romance shows or films. Love isn't dramatic and a show. Love is a feeling that only someone else can give you if you let them in. So that's what I did, I let him in.

Now, I feel lost while he seems okay. I'd rather see him happy then miserable like me. I want to see him happy. Really and truly happy even if it means it's not with me. Because the next girl will probably love him more than I ever could. Peggy will love him in so many ways that I couldn't.

See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside

Because I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Because she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood

So I let him go. I told him it was okay and at that moment it was. He smiled and told me how cool i was and how we're such good friends. I smiled even joked around a bit about how I should try to win him back. I was somewhat hoping that maybe he would say yes but it didn't happen.

And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do

Logan was my first love. He taught me that it was okay to trust myself and be who I am. He means so much to me and that's why I know I should let him go. I'll always come back, I know that. But people say that if you forget your first love than you forget about love in the first place.

Because I don't know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
Because she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood

I decided not to spend that night alone. I went out with a friend. Yes, I put the outfit that Logan always loved on me but that was so I would have a part of him with me. A part of him that would let me know that it's okay and that pretty soon I'll be okay.

It was fine but when I saw him the lobby of the theatre I thought I would cry. He looked handsome. I wanted him. I needed him. But I stayed in my seat and listened while he talked. Before he could finish what he was saying Steve, my date, came back with our popcron and it was time to go. So, I left him standing there. I had an idea about what he was going to say but I couldn't believe that it could be true. I wanted to go back. I really did but the next girl will love him more. I'll make sure of that. Even if it's not Peggy someone will love him better than i did.

Okay I was really into that episode last night, I can't believe the writer's are doing this to us! Hopefully Logan and Camille get back together. Either way, this is my first song fic so bear with me on this one. Please review!

-Nessa