Out of Control

Chapter 39

Disclaimer: I still only own London.

A/N: All I'm going to say right now is that I love you all. And make sure you read my note at the end of this chapter. :)

London sat in her hotel room, watching Monday Night Raw. It hurt her to just sit there and watch, knowing that a part of her wanted to be there and be in action again. But she couldn't be there now. She couldn't mentally handle it yet.

Did London regret becoming a part of the WWE? No, not at all. But she was beginning to think that her time with the company had run out. Maybe it was time for her to go home. She still needed to deal with everything she had been through.

Leaving wasn't something that she wanted, but it was something she really needed to consider, as she'd been through a lot lately. She hadn't made any legitimate efforts to move on yet. Regardless of what she decided to do, she would still be doing something she didn't want to. Her head was just one massive conflict.

And that massive conflict had one major resolution. London could not Wade for a long time. That was one thing she needed, or she would absolutely go crazy.

London needed to move on with her life. She needed to move forward from everything that had been causing her pain. But she wasn't sure if she would be able to move forward unless she left the company.

There was an unexpected knock on her hotel room door. London got up and opened it. She saw Stephanie standing there.

"Hey Steph. Come in. I didn't expect to see you tonight," London invited.

"Thanks, London. I couldn't really concentrate so well on the show tonight because I'm really worried about you. So, I figured I may as well come by and see how you're holding up," Stephanie explained, walking inside. The Undertaker's daughter shut the door, and the two women sat on the couch.

"How are you doing?" Stephanie asked.

She shrugged. "I don't honestly know."

"I know that feeling all too well."

"Wade stopped me before I got to leave the arena."

"How'd that go?"

"It was a shit show."

"It's alright, you know? Now's the time that you have to focus on you and what you need, in order to move on."

"Exactly."

Stephanie took a deep breath. "I guess that means what I think it means, huh?"

London nodded, tears filling her eyes. "I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry. This is what's best for you right now. You have a lot to deal with. You're going to need time."

"Honestly, I really appreciate the opportunity your father gave me. I wish I could stay. It's just…you know?"

Stephanie nodded. "We were all beyond happy to have you. And at some point, if you decide that you want to come back, you know you're always welcome."

She smiled. "Thank you."

"We'll still be in touch, though. And you know, if you need to talk, I'm a friend," Stephanie told her.

"Thank you, Steph. I hope you know I'll be taking you up on that."

"I hope you do."

"Alright. I'll have the contracts sent to your house, alright?"

London nodded. "Thanks."

After the Monday Night Raw taping, Randy came back to the hotel room that he was sharing with London.

"Hey Lon. How you feeling?" he asked her, seeing her laying on her bed. Something seemed off to him. He just couldn't figure out what it was.

"Nervous," she replied.

"Why?" he questioned, raising a confused eyebrow.

"You should probably sit down."

"After everything that has gone on in the past couple of months that you've been in my life, now you're telling me to sit down?"

"Yeah."

Randy didn't like the sound of that, but he acquiesced anyway. He sat on the bed next to her. "What's going on, Lon?"

"I quit," she told him.

Randy froze. "Excuse me?"

"I quit. I'm going home in the morning."

"Are you serious?"

She nodded. "I'm sorry, Ran. I just can't do it anymore. I can't handle it. I've had too much happen. I need to deal with all of it. I can't do it anywhere near Wade. I love him, but I can't be near him while I'm trying to move forward. Besides, I need a break from everything. Steph came here before to check up on me, and I told her," London explained, speaking quickly, as if to defend her decision to him.

"I understand. It just…it sucks a lot. You're my travelling partner and my roomie. You've become like a little sister to me. I'm gonna miss you a lot."

"I'm gonna miss you, too." She sat up. "I'm gonna run downstairs and say goodbye to John. I'll be back. I need a minute away from you anyway. I'm feeling more emotional than I'd like to admit," she told him. "I'll be back in a few."

He nodded. "I gotcha." Randy didn't want to admit he felt a little overwhelmed with emotion, at the thought of her leaving, after everything that they'd been through together.

London gave him a small smile before getting up and leaving the room. She didn't want to go down to a Nexus room and risk running into Wade. But she had to tell John what was going on and say goodbye to her first real friend since becoming a part of the WWE.

She got into the elevator and hit the number six button. She waited a few moments to arrive at the floor, butterflies in her stomach. London had no idea how this was going to go. She just had to hope for the best.

When the elevator arrived at her destination and the doors opened, she made her way to room 615 and knocked on the door.

Luckily, John opened the door. "Hey Lon," he greeted her.

"Hey John. I need to talk to you. Is Wade here?"

"No. He's gonna be back in a couple of minutes, though, I'm sure."

"Okay. I guess I'll just say it then."

"Say what?" he curiously asked, raising a confused eyebrow.

"Um…I quit. I'm going back home in the morning."

"What?!" he exclaimed, shocked at what he was hearing her say.

"I have to. I can't be around here right now. Too much has happened. I need time to sort my life out."

"I know. But you can't leave yet."

"I have to. I can't be around Wade right now. It's too hard. I have so much to deal with right now. I can't move forward if I stay here," she told him.

John's eyes focused on the floor until he finally spoke. "Well, I hope you know that I'm still gonna be your friend."

She gave him a smile. "And I'm still gonna be yours."

"I'm gonna miss you, you pain in the ass, bad ass vigilante."

"The last month or so was rough, but before that, you were my best friend, John. I hope you know that I love you very much."

"I know. I love you, too, Lon."

The two exchanged a hug that lingered for a few moments longer than a normal hug between the two would, as they knew this would be their last time interacting while being on the road together. It was sad for the both of them.

When they pulled back, London took a deep breath, trying to hold her emotions in. "I'll see you around, John."

He nodded. "You will. I can promise you that. Goodbye, Lon."

"Goodbye, John."

With another exchanged smile, London turned and walked away, getting back into the elevator. She was beyond grateful that she had made it without seeing Wade. At least she had some sort of good fortune, in that respect.

"Well, just make sure that you text me when you get home, alright?" Randy told London, as he had packed her bags in the car that was picking her up and bringing her to the airport.

"I will," London promised. He pulled her in for a hug.

"Be safe. Don't talk to strangers. Don't punch anyone. Behave yourself."

She laughed. "I'll try not to. Take care of yourself, Randy."

"You, too, London. I'll be checking in with you to make sure that you're okay," he told her.

As much as she tried to hold back, London allowed a few tears to fall out of her eyes. "I'm gonna miss you."

"I know. I'm gonna miss you, too. We'll still be friends. I'm still gonna look out for you and get myself into trouble kicking ass for you."

"Thank you," she said, a chuckle escaping her. "But seriously, thank you for being there for me when no one else was."

"That's what family does, and as far as I see it, you're a part of my family, London," he told her, the sincerity apparent in his voice.

"And you're a part of mine."

Randy pulled her in for another hug. "I love you very much, London."

"I love you, too, Ran."

"Goodbye."

"Goodbye," she said and got into the car.

He shut the door behind her. She opened the window. The two waved to each other until the car drove out of sight.

Randy remained outside for a few minutes, trying to pull himself together before going back inside the hotel. He may have been the Viper, but he just had to put his best friend in a car and say goodbye. That wasn't an easy thing to do.

As he walked inside, Randy saw Wade.

"Randy," the Englishman spoke, quickly walking over to him.

"Hey Wade," he greeted, though his demeanor was more of a dejected one.

"Hey…um…have you seen London, by any chance? I tried your room, but no one answered the door. I really need to talk to her. It's important."

"Uh…well…I saw her. But you're not going to be able to see her."

"Excuse me?"

"Well, I guess word doesn't spread around here as quickly as I thought it did," he commented, just loud enough for Wade to hear.

"I don't understand, Randy. Where's London? What's going on?"

"She just left."

"To go…?"

"Home. She…uh…she quit, Wade."

"She quit?" he asked, in complete disbelief. He felt like the wind had just been knocked out of his lungs.

He nodded. "Sorry, man."

"Because of me?" he questioned, feeling like his world was collapsing.

"Because of everything that's gone on lately."

"I have to go to her."

"Whoa. Wade, you need to give her some space. She wants to be away from you right now. She left to try and deal with everything that went on. We talked for a long time last night. She loves you and all. She knows that everything that happened isn't your fault. But she's dealing with a lot right now. London doesn't know how to deal with it and handle it when she's around you," Randy tried to explain to him.

"But I love her."

"I know, but you have to back off for a while, man. She's got a lot going on in her head right now. She needs space and time."

"Randy, you don't understand. I need her."

"You can't have her right now. Please. She's suffering enough. Don't make it worse for the both of you. Just let her have what she needs for the time being."

Wade looked like a lost puppy. Part of Randy felt bad for the guy. But part of him knew that it was his actions that were partially to blame for this. He wanted to be mad at Wade. But even the Viper didn't have it in him. This guy was beating himself up more than he ever could. And he was Randall Keith Orton. He could dish a beating.

London cried the majority of the car ride, the plane ride, and the ride back to her house. She left everything that had become important to her in the last few months. It killed her to just walk away from everything. She had loved her job. She loved Wade. She loved Randy and John. She loved everything. But there was too much pain inside of her to handle staying while she tried to move on in her life.

Randy and London spent most of their last night, as roomies, talking about everything. She knew that everything wasn't Wade's fault. Part of her wanted to forgive him. But she needed time to work these things out. Maybe one day she would be able to come back. She wasn't so confident in that. But it was still possible. London needed time to go through the grieving process for her child, for her relationship. She had to do what was best for mentally right now. Going home was what she needed. And probably some therapy wouldn't hurt either.

Truth be told, it was hard as hell for to walk away and not say goodbye to Wade. She wasn't sure how he was going to react. But she knew that Randy was going to make sure that Wade didn't do anything crazy…like follow her. He had her back.

London was just going to have to figure out how to move on from everything she had been through. And maybe one day in the future she and Wade could be together. But it wasn't going to happen now. She had too much going on to be able to handle a healthy relationship.

Wade was heartbroken. London was gone. He had lost her for good. He wanted to chase after her more than anything, but he knew that it wouldn't help the situation at all. The last thing Wade wanted was to make it worse.

He could only hope that London would change her mind and come back. But, he wasn't crazy, he doubted she would do that.

Wade was just going to have to accept it. London was gone and out of his life.

A/N: This is the last chapter. I know. I know. Please don't hate me. Not the happy ending everyone wanted. But...I guess it just fit for the situation. On the bright side, I promise, I've been working on the sequel. So, look for it in the coming weeks. I haven't titled it up. But in the coming weeks, make sure you check for it. Or you can add an alert for me, and you'll get notified when I post it. I hope you all enjoyed my insane melodramatic take. I promise part two will be just as much fun. I really appreciate all of the reads, reviews, alerts, and favorites. You guys have seriously been amazing. I love you all. And trust me, London will be back soon :) Love you guys XoXoXo