Summary: the cabin happened, the attack on the school, and the rescue mission, only Dimitri miraculously makes it out of the cave. Dimitri tells rose he regrets sleeping with her and says they can't be together but what if it's not Dimitri that leaves but rose? Where will she go? Who will she meet? What becomes of her? And what tragic event makes her go back 5 years later? Read/review and find out.

Hi this is my first Fanfic i hope you enjoy it as much i am writing it. I've already written the first two chapters but i will be up-dating the story every 4-6 days just to keep the readers in anticipation. I have the whole plot figured out and have a few ideas for a follow up story, don't worry i won't be like some stories where they just stop writing and you keep waiting and waiting till up-date. I plan to be at least 1-2 chapters ahead in case i get stuck or don't have time to write. Hope you enjoy

=-) Natty

Attention: I do not own Vampire Academy although i wish i did! Richelle Mead does and has to be my favourite author along with J.K Rowling everyone loves Harry Potter!

Chapter 1

I was making my way to gym, i actually had a few minutes to spare. Well there's a first time for everything. Kirova decided to give the entire academy the rest of the week off. Hey i was definitely not complaining, but i hadn't seen Dimitri since the molnija ceremony. Everyone had received their marks even Christian for the one he killed. I walk into the gym and quickly spotted Dimitri, he had his back to me. He turned around when i closed the door his guardian mask was up. I wonder what was wrong.

"Hey comrade," i slowly made my way towards him. When i seen him i wanted to run and wrap my arms around him and get lost in one of those passionate kisses that make my knees go jelly, but his posture was screaming don't touch me!

"Rose, i need to talk to you." Shit, what did i do now? He motioned towards the bench but i just stood there rooted to the spot. My legs just didn't want to function. I definitely knew something was up, i could hear it in his voice. "Okay, look Rose what happened between us was wrong i know what i said to you but there can never be anything between us."

I can't believe this is happening. "But you said you loved me."

"This can't go on, it has to end. When i got my cards read i thought that losing you was my biggest fear but when i was in the cave i got so close to losing my life i realised that it wasn't you it was my soul. I was so close i could have been turned. I'm sorry Rose but this is over. If you ever want to be the best guardian you can be to protect Lissa than you don't need the distraction from me. I definitely don't need the distraction from my duties. They come First." And with that he left walked straight passed me like i was nothing.

I can't believe this shit. What the fuck had just happened. My whole body was shaking i was so pissed i walked over to the boxing bag did a round house kick and it completely broke off. I was on the verge of crying, i needed to get away and put as much distance between me and him as possible. Before i knew it i was knocking on Adrian's door.

"Little Dhampir, what brings you here? Come in." I swear any person could get drunk of the fumes in Adrian's room.

I was going to keep this short and sweet. "I need money Adrian. There's no one else i can go to."

That caught him by surprise. "Okay."

Wow that was easy but he is intoxicated i feel like I'm taking advantage of him. He walked into his room and came out with a big pile of cash stuffed it in a backpack and handed it to me.

"Umm thanks Adrian, i appreciate it." I made my way to the door.

"Ah Rose, may i ask where you are going?"

"I'm leaving the academy. I can't stay here anymore." I still had my back to him i couldn't face him

"When are you leaving?"

"Tomorrow, and could you please not tell anyone i don't want anyone to know."

"But what about Lissa, you know she'll be upset."

"Lissa will be fine. I have a slim chance of even being considered her guardian, anyways she's better off without me. Goodbye Adrian thanks again for everything." I walked out of the room as fast as i could before he could ask any more questions.

I walked straight to my room locked myself in started to pack my stuff. Not that i had much, i grabbed my clothes and shoved them in my duffel bag. I picked up Lissa's chotki deciding I'd write her a letter explaining i left and probably won't be returning. I also had to fill out some paperwork if i was going to leave.

Next morning i got up early well i actually didn't sleep, leaving Lissa's note along with her Chotki on the bedside table she'll probably look for me later on and find it here. Duffel bag over my shoulder along with the backpack Adrian had given me and made my way to the administrative building. I was just about to grab the handle and the door swang open, i hastily jumped back. I was face to face with the man i loved, the reason for me leaving.

"Rose? What are you doin up so early?" Is this guy serious? He basically told me yesterday i was nothing more than a worthless piece of shit and now he wants to know what I'm doing. The nerve of some people, i could just easily drop my bags and punch him straight in the face.

"Nothing that concerns you Guardian Belikov." I could see the hurt flash through his eyes but i couldn't give a fuck. I pointedly stepped around him and made my way to the desk. He followed me in and just as i was about to speak to the receptionist when Kirova walked through the door.

"Rose what can we do or you?" she asked looking back down at the paperwork in her hand.

"I'm withdrawing from the academy." She dropped her paperwork and gave me a puzzled look.

"You can't leave Rose. I know you've been through a lot lately but we're all dealing. Don't make any rash decisions the attack has taken a toll on everyone." She almost sounded as if she was pleading for me to stay.

"I've already made my decision, i would like to leave I've filled out the correct paperwork which i got from the library just need your signature and a stamp and I'll be on my way."

"You can't let her leave, she's only a minor." I had completely forgotten Dimitri was in the room. "Rose you've come so far, why waste all that training if you leave now you'll never become a guardian!" Yeah great now the man give a shit about me.

"Why don't i get your Mother and then we can talk about it?" Kirova said

"She left already and it doesn't matter." I pointed to my birth date on the forms. "I'm eighteen today there's no need to involve her. It's my decision. Could you just stamp the damn thing and I'll get out of your hair Kirova."

Unwillingly they gave in. Finally i walked out of the room with the paperwork i needed to get out of the gate declaring i was no longer a student here.

"Rose, why are you doing this?" Shit Dimitri had caught me by surprise i thought i left him back in the office and why the fuck does he care.

"It's my decision, I'm legally an adult now." I stated

"Well its a pretty rash decision your making, leaving right now is a bit childish isn't it? I mean does this have to do with what i said to you yesterday?" Ya Think. After pledging your love to someone then a week later saying it was just a bunch of lies, yeah of course it's got nothing to do with you.

"Why the fuck do you care?" i suddenly turn on the spot facing him. "You definitely didn't give a fuck about me yesterday." I was on the verge of crying just holding together by a thread.

"Roza wait, i love you but." Is this guy serious? First he loves me then he doesn't, now he loves me again. Make up your fucking mind! "i... we can't be together for Lissa's sake."

I was so angry right now. I tried to tell myself to calm down but all i was thinking of was hurting him. "Well let me make it easier on you Guardian Belikov." Wow my voice is a lot calmer than i expected. "I'm leaving, so i won't be a distraction to you or Lissa."I readjusted the bags on my shoulder.

"Rose-" I put my hand up to stop him

"They come first." And with that i turned around and handed the paperwork to the guardian on duty and with a confused look on his face he let me out of the gate.