Disclaimer: Sadly all the characters belong to SM.

Warning: material in this fanfiction deals with mature subjects, coarse language and sexually suggestive themes, please be advised that if you not over eighteen then you should not read this.

Beautiful Disaster

""He that falls in love with himself will have no rivals."
-Benjamin Franklin

The pack was crammed into Jacob's box sized living room staring at him like he had some sort of incurable disease. He clenched and unclenched his jaw willing himself to show no emotion, hoping-praying that lightening would strike him dead.

"So you imprinted?" Sam spoke first breaking the uncomfortable silence that settled into the room. Jacob didn't look at him all he did was stare at the ground in shame.

"What's the big deal then?" Billy said casually rolling himself towards Sam and placing a firm hand on his shoulder.

Seth and Leah shared knowing looks with each other they both knew what was coming next. Seth himself did not find the idea repulsing but did in fact wish that he himself had imprinted. Leah looked around nervously trying to hide her own pity for Jacob's disgrace of an imprint.

Jacob had hid the imprint for three months before it had become physically painful. His heart was pounding loudly in his chest, his blood rushed all over his body. Would he kick me out? He tried to calm himself down but numerous questions bombarding his mind. Would they find it disgusting to find out who the imprintee was?

"I don't see the big deal," Paul said loudly, he was slightly agitated at the whole point of this meeting. So Jacob imprinted big deal. His own mind ran back to Rachel his imprintee and he wondered how long this stupid meeting would continue so that he could hurry back to her.

Jacob opened his mouth to speak but closed it shut. He pondered how the fuck he was going to tell them. His mind filled with hate and self-loathing. Why did fate have to fuck him like this? Why had everything that he desired turned to shit?

"Who did you imprint on?" Sam asked gently sensing Jacob's distress. Sam had become somewhat of a mentor to Jacob and at times considered him to be son he wish he had.

And there it was the big question they had all been wondering. The answer would turn Jacob's life upside down then right side up. Jacob felt his throat constrict, his mind racing a thousand times a minute.

What the hell was he going to do?

"Come on just tell me Eddie!" Alice whined three feet away from him. He growled at her because she knew he detested the name Eddie.

"No." He answered.

"Just tell me where you were last night and we can put the whole thing behind us" She pleaded again. Edward gave her a stern look. There was no way in hell he was going to tell her where he was last night.

"Fine, don't tell me. But we're all worried about you Edward. I mean a few months ago your future disappeared. I can't see you!" Alice moaned in frustration. She hated the fact that the wolves were constantly blacking out the future.

When Edward failed to respond she sighed and left the room. He then threw himself on his chair and ran his hand through his brown locks. He had thought long and hard about the consequence of leading a secret life but neglected to understand the repercussions of his actions. As he sat he felt it. The unmistakable iron pulls. He had fought it with all his might but still his thoughts and feelings betrayed him.

He shot out of his seat and ran towards the open window. The trees blurred behind him as he made a bee line for Bella's house urgently needing her comfort and reassurance. Slipping past a sleeping Charlie he made his way through the always open window.

Bella sat waiting for him to envelope her into his arms. Without sound he slipped into her room and captured her lips with his own. She reciprocated kissing him back trying to match his intensity. To Edward this felt wrong. Her lips were too soft, too feminine and too delicate. Her scent that once used to drive him over the edge now makes him want to run to the hills to hide from it.

He fisted her hair trying to enthral him-self in her delicacy, but he soon got frustrated because his fingers became tangled in her silk hair. He tried to enjoy the feel of her body pressed up against his but found himself wishing she had more muscle, broader shoulders and a musk to her scent. He started to ponder what it would look like to have his luminous skin against a russet skin tone.

He started to crave the sight of raven dark hair and thought about suggesting Bella dye her hair black. He also thought about advising her to bleach her teeth. He broke away from the kiss with Bella gasping for air. He looked down on the idiotic girl he thought he love with all his heart and his soul, then realizing that she herself didn't really give a damn about him.

"Edward," she breathed still panting. Bella knew Edward had been acting strange he seemed somewhat dejected in her presents. He gave her a pained smile before pulling her into his arms and settling on the bed.

"Edward, are you okay?" Bella asked quietly almost afraid of the answer.

"I'm fine." He answered coldly.

"Goodnight, I love you" Bella whispered already half asleep.

"Night" Edward responded.

Jacob stood in his human form outside of Bella's house staring up at her window. Within seconds Edward came down with lightening speed smelling the sweet intoxicating scent of Jacob Black.

"What are you doing here?" Edward hissed once he was a few feet away from Jacob. Jacob looked down and shifted his feet uncomfortably trying to block his thoughts.

"They know." He whispered looking everywhere except Edwards eyes. If it were possible Edward went paler. He racked his brain to somehow figure out how they had found out.

"How?" Edward demanded.

"I don't know how they know they just know that I did. Half of them assume it's Bella" Jacob snorted.

"Is there anyone on patrol now?" Edward asked looking around cautiously trying to make sure the coast was clear.

"No," Jacob said with a mischievous smirk on his face. Edward shifted his eyes back and forth quickly before grabbing the werewolf by the shirt and haling him into the forest.

Once Bella's house was safely out of view Edward pinned Jacob against the tree and look deeply into his black orbs.

"Meet me at the cottage tonight" Edward commanded. He desperately needed to be near Jacob it didn't matter to him if anyone knew. Jacob shook his head back and forth.

"I can't, last time we were there I swear I was being followed." Jacob breathed his hot breathe washing over Edward face.

"It's been three days Jacob how long do you expect me to wait? I can't wait anymore. I can't" Edward pleaded with him. Jacob suddenly became lost in Edwards golden eyes.

"I know it's been hell, please have a little more patience with me-" Edward abruptly pulled away from Jacob and turned his back to him.

"Patience," He spat "I am sick of having patience!" He whipped his head around to face Jacob "I can't do it anymore! I am sick of hiding and never being allowed to show my true feelings, my true self! You have no idea how bad it gets! I can't even pretend to like to kiss Bella anymore!"

Jacob sighed and looked away. He himself didn't know how long he could keep this up. His pack members were starting to ask questions. In all honestly Jacob was afraid. He feared that they wouldn't accept him and he needed their acceptance more than anything. Jacob cursed himself and he cursed the imprint for making him feel this way towards Edward. With Victoria still on the loose it wasn't safe to leave Bella unprotected.

"You should go back to Bella" Jacob said he watched as Edwards face contorted in pain. In a blink of an eye he soon found himself pinned up against a tree by Edward. Gingerly Edward brought his lips down to Jacobs.

Fire contrasted with ice and ignited as they lost themselves in each other. Edward loved the feel of Jacob's warm full lips on his and relished it. Jacob unable to control himself or think coherently when Edward's lips crashed into his he began to fist Edward's shirt bringing him closer.

Jacob took advantage of Edward's slightly open mouth and forced his tongue down his throat. They both battled for dominance. Edward loved that he didn't have to be gentle with Jacob, he loved the feel of his massive shoulders between his hands and the air of arrogance Jacob carried around.

They were so caught up in the moment that they didn't hear the pounding rhythm as claws dug into the earth. Or the distinct rapid beating of six hearts catching their scents and closing in on them.

I really wasn't sure about writing a Jacob and Edward FF but I find that I like it so REVIEW and tell me what you think!