Disclaimer: I do not own Glee or any characters associated with Glee.

A/N: EEK! This is my FIRST EVER piece of fanfiction that I have written. I have read lots, and had so many thoughts and ideas in my mind, that I finally decided to write some of it down. What Dave Karofsky is going through just tears at my heart, and I want him to find acceptance and redemption. He is a very troubled young man who needs a very gentle hand to guide him through the most difficult journey of his life. This poem is written by him to Kurt, and is what I think he might be feeling after he finds out Kurt is gone.

GONE, THOUGH
NOT FORGOTTEN

It's been a week,

Seven horrible days,

Since I made you leave,

Since I drove you away.

What else could I do?

There was no other choice.

I couldn't take a chance

On you finding your voice.

This silence is worse

Than a windowless cell

It shrieks through my mind

Like demons from hell.

The secret shames me

To the depths of my soul.

Knowing without you

I'll never feel whole.

Wanting so badly to

Hold you and take you,

Choosing instead to

Bruise you and break you.

The fear in your eyes

Is a fist in my heart,

Knowing I've hurt you,

It tears me apart.

I am filled with self-loathing

Grief and fear, also relief

At not having you near.

How can I want you and

Hate you and need you?

How do I live with

Myself since I freed you?

I cannot speak out

Yet I cannot be silent.

I want to be loving and caring

and violent.

How you must hate me with

All of your might,

But oh how I need you

To hold me tight!

I tried once to show you,

I did it all wrong.

I shocked and unnerved you

My need was too strong.

It is time to let go,

I must give up this fight,

And stop longing for things

To which I have no right.

Maybe someday

I'll be free from this mess

And I'll gather the courage

To beg your forgiveness.

I will not deserve it,

But just the same,

I'll ask and I'll hope that

You'll soothe my shame.

I am scared half to death! This is literally the first thing I have ever submitted for public viewing, ever, in my whole life. I really want to know what you think of it, even if you don't like it. Constructive criticism is welcome. Reviews are awesome.