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AN: Sorry about the wait. I had this chapter ready and rearing to go like a week ago, but I think me and most people had problems with the site, but it's finally sorted. So I hope you like the chapter, I kinda just went with it. And if any of you reading this read my other story 'The Light that Shine's Twice as Bright' then I should have updated that one by the weekend.
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Chapter 11
Jovi's Point of view
I blinked back the harsh light that was above me, seemingly hanging from mid air, or not? I don't remember much about the last however long it's been. All I can remember is a mass of fur jumping over me and attacking Chase?
Yup, that's right the two people, or should I say things I wanted to forget, I didn't. Sucks to be me, huh? But the thing is, in a way I wanted to be gone, away; never to be found. Cause then, nothing would be complicated. I'd be happy, seeing my mum and dad again. And eventually people would forget about me, I'd just drift of in the wind, and let the spirits take me to where I belong.
But then again, I'm glad to be alive, even though I haven't really woken up yet. But all the same, I want to see all those faces again, to see Sam, Emily and Paul, Embry and most of all my little brother. He's my saviour. If I ever thought about doing something remotely dangerous I'd think about him first because I know that he wants to see me, and I want to see my little brother grow up and turn into a young man.
I felt a heat on my right hip, I unconsciously twined my fingers into the short locks and ran my hands through the unknown persons hair. I opened my eyes to find a head, and my hand in the black hair, it jerked back and there was a grumble coming from Paul? I think.
I needed some water; my throat felt all dry and scratchy, so I reached out to my left where I saw was a glass of something and my fingers caught the edge of the cup I didn't want to move too much and wake him. But also my ribs hurt. My hand was almost to the cup, when it crashed to the floor and the contents spilled all over.
"Shit!" I whispered annoyed. I felt Paul move and suddenly he was right at the side of my face.
"Jovi?" He looked at me and my face turned quickly and our faces were so close I could feel the heat of his breath on my lips. He searched my face for any type of response, but I was a little taken back, and couldn't find my voice.
"Uhh... water, pl...please." I managed to scrape out and say. He rushed round to the other side of my bed so fast and saw the water on the floor and he walked out the room and left.
That's nice.
But lately I've been getting these little twinges of feelings when I'm around Paul. He was a dick, yes. But I kind of forgive him now. To be the first person to see when I wake up, it was nice, and for him to be sleeping; must mean something right?
I was cut off from my train of thought as Paul walked back into the room with a plastic cup in hand and a doctor trailing him. Paul walked over to my side and lifted the cup to my lips, and tilted it so I could drink. I opened my mouth and felt the water trickle down my throat, moistening it and coating it so I could get my words out. He had this look in his eyes as I drank, I couldn't really tell the emotion, but it was intense.
The doctor cleared his throat "Jovi, it's nice to see you awake. I'm Dr. Frieman. Well Jovi. You're a fighter, you've been put through hell and back. You have a few lacerations through out your body, you have one on your face, which I'm afraid is going to scar, I'm sorry. Your ribs are looking good everyday, which is very remarkable, so you should be okay to go home sometime today or tonight." He told me, he walked over got his clip board thingy, wrote some stuff down and walked out.
Okay, I've mentioned this before, awkward silences, I hate em'.
"So... Where's Sam and Emily n' co?" I asked him. But I didn't get the answer I was looking for.
"Jovi, before we get them all in. I have to tell you this. I know you know, well, of course you do. About me and the pack, But err... I've been so worried about you. I thought you were never going to wake up, given it's only been a 4 days but those 4 days have been hell, Sam told me to go home, but I didn't. I wanted to be there when you woke up, to tell you this. If you don't feel the same, it's okay; I like you, well maybe it could a little more than that, so yeah it is. I love you, and I want you to know that you don't have be with me.
There's this thing that we do, as in us shape shifters; it's called imprinting. And it's sort of like a soul mate GPS, err... it's when we see that one girl and nothing else matters, the whole world around is her. Her scent, every girl that he sees is nothing compared to this one girl, like gravity connects you to her, it's not gravity in the earth that holds you down it's her. And Jovi, you are my imprint. I know it's a lot- wait, why are you crying? Don't cry" he stood there and confessed his love for me, and all I could do was cry! What the hell must he think now? That I'm crying because I hate him? No the complete opposite. Well almost.
"Paul, you were a dick to me. And you had to earn your forgiveness, and you did. But these past weeks, well when I was gone" He growled at that "I thought about my life a lot. I thought I was going to die, until they told me I wasn't. But I had my own mind to keep me company, and I thought about you. And how nice you were to me after you were a jerk, and I get this feeling when I'm around you and I can't explain it. And for you to stand here and tell me you love me, and all I can say back is that I like you, but I don't love you. Well not yet, anyway, is horrible but I hope you can accept that?" I told him, in a shaky voice. I wiped the tears from my eyes and looked at him.
I couldn't register the emotion he was giving me. But he had a slight smile on is face. "Can I hug you?" He asked.
"Oh, sure..." He walked up to the bed and looked at me and then wrapped his arms around my back and pulled me up a little, being careful with my side. I slowly encased my small arms around his torso and nuzzled my head into his neck and breathed him in. He smelled amazing, and his body felt good when he hugged me. This wasn't a normal friendly hug; it was a little more intimate than that.
He whispered in my ear "I'll be anything you want me to be Jove, anything." Then pulled back and smiled at me. I whispered a thanks, that he probably caught with his wolf hearing n' all.
"So I should probably go and get Emily and Sam, huh?" He said to me, I nodded and smiled as he walked towards the door.
I want to be more than friends with Paul, but I have a little trust issues, now I'm not saying I don't trust Paul, but I barely know the guy, sure he comes over, we've had conversations, like now for instance. But I'm hoping this 'imprinting' thing can help me get through those issues that I have. I want to trust him so much. Now that he's confessed his love for me, it's going to be a little weird to be friends with him, knowing all that information. It's just a lot to digest with-in a few hours.
Maybe that was why I felt something for Paul from the beginning? Was it the imprint telling me that Paul was the one, and it's okay for me to crush on him? I'd like to think it was. But for now, I think we could start with being friends.
P~J
My accident left me scarred more physically then mentally, but the scars are there to show me what happened, they remind me everyday of the specimen that took me. I inwardly shivered at even the mention of them. Emily; my amazing sister in law, sat me down after she saw me upset about my scars, and told me to be proud of them and as this has happened, don't take life for granted and live everyday like it's your last. Which makes sense as I nearly died that day, so all the wolves are on stand-by if anything happens.
Yes, that's right I found out Olive got around my brother and Jacob during the little battle. Now I can't leave the house without at least a wolf with me at all times, I have to tell everyone where I'm going. The worst person for this? Paul, yup. The guy won't leave me alone, it got so bad once he followed me into the bathroom, until he realised what I was doing, blushed and walked out.
Our relationship well friendship I should say, is going surprisingly well, considering he loves me and I'm not talking friend way. But he's being patient with me; well that's what he tells me. But these last few days, when Paul comes off Patrol and isn't wearing a shirt, it seriously makes my heart skip a beat, and I have to literally wipe my mouth of the drool that forms in the corner. Sure, there's a physical attraction between the both of us, but I still only like like him, not love him. But sometimes when I'm in my room catching up on work that I missed that the school sent me. He would come and sit in my room, lie on my bed and sit quietly watching me. I'm not going to lie and say he doesn't make me feel special, because he does, all the time. With the little things he does for me, like help me with my work and he'll sit and play with my hair which distracts me and sends me off to sleep. My feelings are definitely changing for him, but they're doing so slowly; like that story the turtle and the hare, I'm the turtle and Paul is the Hare, he's so set on loving me fast and being with me straight away and I'm just taking the slow road towards it. Not because I want to, it's because trust is my main focus at the moment and I'm slowly trusting him. I'm just not totally there yet.
It's one of those work days, but Paul hasn't come in from Patrol yet. I ate earlier and told Emily that I was catching up on some more work that Seth got for me yesterday. Noah was around here somewhere?
I'm due back in school on Monday but it's only Wednesday at the moment, so I still have a little more to catch up on before then. Mr. Kile had given me a book to read and some questions to follow up on what the book was about and then I had to write an essay of some sort, I was reading the last pages of it when my door opened to reveal Paul, hair messy from the forest and his chest gleaming with beads of sweat, and a tired look in his eyes. My double bed could at least fit Paul on it so he could lie down, and I was grateful for that, he spends more time looking out for me, than he does sleeping.
"Hey, come and lie down." I told him, while he was still stood at the door staring at me through droopy eyes.
He grunted and walked over and collapsed on my bed, it creaked in protest of the large body now residing on it, but it put up a fight to hold him. Paul turned and looked up at my sitting form and smiled.
"Hey" He said in a quiet voice. I looked at him and smiled at him.
"Hey" I answered and turned back to my book.
"What you reading?" He asked me, not being bothered to actually look himself.
"Oh just a stupid book Mr. Kile made me read. It's not even that good." I told him and laughed.
I finished the last page and turned and looked at Paul, who was now sleeping with a smile on his face. Our friendship was easy at the moment, but looking at him now, I can say that I definitely feel something more for him; I lay down, too tired to even begin to answer questions for the stupid book. I didn't want to wake Paul so I turned the bedside lamp off and kept to my own side. But when I turned I felt his hand start to play with my hair and that was it, I was gone and sleep unconscious with in minutes.
I woke up to heat, surrounding me, everywhere. And a vice grip on my waist, I was scared for a second, before I realised that Paul fell asleep last night and so did I. I tried to wiggle my way out but he wouldn't give.
"No, go back to sleep" Paul said groggily, clearly still sleeping.
"Paul, you need to let go of me, right now." I told him, but he just held on tighter. "Paul get off me" I kept on trying to shove him. Then I just thought of the perfect idea. So what did I do? Screamed, right in his ear. That got him off me and out of bed.
"What the hell! Why did you do that Jove?" He asked me angrily at the other side of the room, rubbing his ears.
"You wouldn't let go.." I told him looking down.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say it that way. But as were up and it looks like it's a surprisingly decent day in Washington, you want to do something? You, me and Noah?" He asked. I snapped my head up and smiled widely at him. I was sick of staying inside and just wanted to get out and about.
"Yeah! But what can we do?" I asked him.
"I don't know, we'll ask Noah. They're all down stairs anyway, you coming?" He asked holding the door open, I nodded. Your probably thinking isn't that a little weird that you just slept in the same bed and you brother will flip out? Well, naaa Sam knows Paul stays in my room, he also knows how I feel about Paul , well not recently. I walked down the stairs and into the kitchen in yesterdays clothes.
Sam and Noah were sat at the table eating pancakes, the clock read 8:47 am. Great, a little early but I'll live. Paul plonked himself on a chair and grabbed a few pancakes off the batch that was on the table. I copied him.
"Hey sissy! It's sooooo nice outside" Noah told me with his mouthful.
"Noah talk with your mouth closed, please." Emily reprimanded him.
"Sorry momma" He said with puppy eyes, and you just saw Emily's eyes smile at him.
I just laughed a little with Paul, but then noticed the glares I was getting off of Sam and stopped.
"So Noah, Paul said he'll take us somewhere, anywhere you wanna go?" I asked him. His eyes shot up, his breakfast forgotten and said the one word I kind of had in mind he would say.
"Swimming! I wanna go swimming!" He said basically bouncing in his seat. You see Noah has been learning to swim since he was about 2, and we haven't gone in months, clearly he's missed it.
"No" Was all I heard coming from Sam. I turned to look and give evils to my brother.
"What? Why!" I asked him whining like a child.
"Because of your condition Jove, your ribs, I don't want you hurting them again." He simply said.
"My ribs are fine Sam, I have no bruising, I haven't problems with them since hospital, I feel better than I did before the accident" I told him.
"No, the doctor says it takes a while" He answered back, but was looking at me with a weird stare.
I can't believe this! He's basically keeping me prisoner in my own home. "My ribs are fine Samuel. It's indoor swimming anyway, we'll go to Port Angeles and swim there, not the Pacific Ocean, okay?" my hands were shaking a little, because I was so annoyed with what he was saying to me.
"If it's indoors your taking another wolf. How about Quil? He can take Claire, I'll feel a little better, if your in Port Angeles any one can be in those pools." He reasoned with us. I just looked at Paul and saw him nod at Sam, he walked into the living room and what I presumed and phoned Quil.
"So we can go then?" I asked him, reassuring me and Noah we can go.
"Yes, you can go" He answered.
Noah squealed and jumped on Sam and hugged him. I just smiled at him, Noah got down ran up the stairs and got what was needed. I headed towards the stairs and told Paul I was going to shower whie he went home to get some things together.
P~J
I dressed in a pair of colourful chequered shorts, an All Time Low band tee and my trusty pair of Toms, for my feet. I put on a little mascara and some vanilla lip-balm. I didn't want to look like a damn racoon when I come out the pool, like you see some girls doing. Once I was ready Noah was downstairs basically jumping up and down waiting for me to be ready and to go. He likes swimming, as you can tell.
"You wanna come and wait on the porch with me No?" I asked him, he jumped and answered yes quickly.
We said bye to Sam and Emily and left them alone for the afternoon, urghh. We waited on the porch for a little over 10 minutes when Paul pulled up with Quil and Claire in the back of his truck. Noah ran up to the car opened the back door and climbed in saying a loud 'hi' to Claire and Quil. Claire being the 8 year old she is, thinking she's older than most, just said high and looked out the window. I got into the passenger side, I asked Quil why he wasn't sat there, he just looked at me and said 'I was saving it for you' I just nodded and turned around.
"Hey, you ready to go?" Paul asked me
"Yeah, looks like it." I said.
He put the car in reverse and turned the car around facing the road. We didn't really talk much on the way there, I think Noah spoke the most, bouncing from subject to subject, telling everyone how he used to swim back home and that his teacher was horrible. I just tuned out for most of it. And before I knew it we were pulling up outside the only indoor pool in Port Angeles, but I've heard its good.
We al got out the car and went inside. I was just about to walk up to the desk and pay, but Paul beat me to it and paid. He just turned around gave me a cheeky smile and then got the keys and walked back into the changing rooms not waiting for Quil to pay. Noah couldn't get in there fast enough to change and get in the pool.
The strong smell of chlorine and deodorant washed over me, it was strong and my nose turned up at it. I stopped and looked around for a cubicle but there was no luck. There were many pegs though, they were lucky I had my bikini on underneath my clothes. As I unchanged I could feel Paul's eyes on me and taking me in, I knew I shouldn't really be getting changed in front of him, but what's a little teasing gonna do? Give him blue balls, that's what it'll do. He was still staring at me when I turned around and I coughed to get his attention away from my body. I was a little self-conscious because I had some scars on my legs from years ago, and they weren't exactly beautiful.
Paul snapped out of his stupor and managed to undress himself, lucky he was wearing his trunks underneath as well, otherwise that would have been awkward. But now it was my turn to stare, I'm not going to lie to you all here, this man, no wait, this Bronze-Adonnis in front of me, defies the logic of hot. I couldn't keep my eyes away, the way his back muscles moved when he raised his arms to take his shirt off. I was gone, and I'm sure a little drool started to pool in the corner of my mouth. He must have finished cause felt someone hit my jaw and close it. That's not awkward... Then I felt someone slapping my legs. I looked down and Noah was staring at me with anticipation, he can swim, he just likes someone to be there when he does.
"Come on Sissy, we gonna go swim!" He grabbed my hand and pulled me towards the pool, where Claire Quil and Paul were already. There wasn't that many people here, but there were a few other kids as around the area it was some sort of Teachers day, and there was no school. There was two pools; a small one I reckon was for the children and a larger one with big slides attached and a couple of diving boards. Paul and Quil were talking the corner; Quil keeping an eyes on Claire as she went up one of the slides, Noah started to run off.
"Noah! Don't run, you could hurt yourself" I shouted at him. He just said a quite sorry and walked to the little pool which had these big plastic dolphins which shoot water, he would have fun. I walked over to Paul and Quil and slipped into the water, which was cold, but I warmed up as soon as I got close to the boys. They stopped talking when I was stood behind Paul, and Quil gave him a look and swam off to wherever Claire was.
Paul turned around and looked at me "Hey Jove" He smiled.
"Hey Paul" I cocked my head a little, confused by him saying my name. So I copied.
"Looks like Noah's having fun, the little nugget." He said glancing over my shoulder to where Noah was. Giving a small laugh.
I just nodded and just stared at him , there was so many emotions running through my body right now, I couldn't keep track. I don't know what made me do it, maybe the water running over his chest or just maybe that I couldn't resist it. But I bought my hands up and wrapped my arms around his neck, and scraped my nails over his shoulders, I heard a growl come from his chest, it just spurred me on further, I don't know what was happening I couldn't help it. It was just him, he's pure man and I leaned in and bite his ear and kissed along his jawline.
"What are yo-" Before he could finish the sentence I bought my lips down on his and sucked on his lower lip, I heard a faint moan come from his throat and he joined in. His tongue licked my lips and I let him take over. But that was when I pulled myself completely out of his grip, bought my hands to my lips and gasped. I shouldn't be doing that, I'm giving him the wrong ideas. Tears came to my eyes, I hoisted myself out the pool and fast walked back to the changing rooms, I saw Claire and Noah playing in the pool with Quil, he looked at me with sad eyes and followed my fleeting form.
I went into one of the cubicles that was free sat on the bench and let the tears fall. I don't have a clue why I was crying. I don't even know what made me do that back there, I was just so caught up with looking at him and thinking about his lips, I just wanted a reaction out of him, I got one alright, but I don't want to give him the wrong ideas, I don't like him like that yet, do I? I'm just confused, that shouldn't have happened, Paul is suppose to be my friend, and friends don't kiss like that. Even though I was the one who instigated it, I couldn't help it, something took over me. There was a light knock at the door.
"Jovi? Is that you?" Why did he have to come?
A sob just racked through my body and I started getting really angry with myself for doing that, Why did I kiss him? I'm gonna be leading him on now? He's gonna hate me for doing that! I saw my hands shaking and I couldn't stop I started to panic.
"Paul!" I shouted through it.
"Jovi! Are you okay? Open the door!" He shouted.
"I can't, it wont stop." I told him through gritted teeth and the tears running down my face. He must have broke in cause he was suddenly in front of me taking my shoulders and pulling me towards his body.
"Calm down Jove, your gonna be okay. Shhhh, calm. Your okay." He was talking to me, I started to hear his voice clearer and clearer through my panicked state. After about 2 minutes my shaking stopped and I just stood there my arms wrapped around him and crying.
"I'm sor...rry" I told him, my words not coming out fully due to my tearing up.
"I know, it's okay. Honestly." He said . He pulled back and looked at me. "Jove? Go get your clothes on, and we'll go, me and you I'll just tell Quil, cause he'll need a car to get home. Okay?" I just nodded and walked to go and get my clothes on.
Paul's Point of View
That kiss just blew me away, Jovi the girl who says she doesn't love me, kissed me. And damn it was hot. I nearly took her right there in the pool when she bite my ear, that girl knows just how to do it right. But after she ran off I got a little worried about her, I got up out the pool and walked towards where Quil was with the kids.
"Hey man you see where Jovi went?" I asked him.
He nodded "Yeah she went in there" He pointed towards the changing rooms. "But hey man, I saw what happened, she was crying when she walked past." He told me. I nodded and turned on my heels and stood at the entrance to the changing rooms. I listened out for any crying, and when I heard a sob come from the far corner of the room I shot off in that direction. I came to a cubicle she was obviously sat in. I knocked lightly.
"Jovi? Is that you?" I asked. I didn't hear anything except from sobs, but then I heard a strangled sound.
"Paul!" She shouted form inside, what? Why was she shouting me like that!
"Jovi! Are you okay? Open the door!" I shouted to her.
"I can't, it wont stop" She said a little more lowly this time, I was confused. What wont stop? So I barged the door open and took in the scene before me. She was trembling from head to toe with a panicked look on her facial features. I didn't know what to do, she looked like she was ready to phase, but that can't be possible, she's a girl and the only other girl was Leah and tha was because of some family lineage or some shit like that, but she's Sam sister? I just walked up to her and wrapped my arms around her body and whispered in her ear.
"Calm down Jove, your gonna be okay. Shhhh, calm. Your okay. I'm here, nothing's gonna happen." I just told her and then she stopped after a little bit, just stood there and cried a little, what's going on?
"I'm sor...rry" she told me,
"I know, it's okay. Honestly." I told her . I pulled back and looked at her. "Jove? Go get your clothes on, and we'll go, me and you I'll just tell Quil, cause he'll need a car to get home. Okay?" She just nodded and walked around me. I walked out and saw her going to the showers to get cleaned up, I walked up to the little pool where Quil still was getting into it with Noah and some water. While Claire was sat on a dolphin thing.
"Dude! Come here, now!" I shouted at Quil quietly. He just stopped what he was doing and got off the floor of the pool, stood up and told Noah he'd be back in a minute.
"Hey, is Jovi okay?" He asked.
"Man, I think these vamps" I whispered "they triggered the gene in her" I told him. He processed what I told him and then caught on and just looked at me like I was crazy.
"No, she's a girl, she's not a Clearwater. She's on Sam's side, how could that be?" He asked me.
"I don't know it's just, when I went to see if she was okay, she couldn't open the door, I barged in and there she was, shaking like she was about to phase, and Quil she said she couldn't stop it. Explain that? I have to tell Sam." I told him He was shocked to say the least.
"Wow, I think Sam isn't gonna like that. I don't think she is either" I just looked at him
"I'm taking her home in the truck, you'll have to call Embry for a lift, could you take Noah as well?" I asked him.
"Yeah, sure man. Do what you need to do." He said and walked back to the kids and started acting like one himself. Idiot.
Never mind Sam not liking it, I don't want Jovi being a Wolf, there's just too much responsibility to be put on her shoulders. There's constant danger, she'll have to miss more school, she'll hate it and in turn make me hate her in that situation. I love Jovi with all my heart, but her being a wolf isn't the best idea in a whole. But maybe it's just Jovi, maybe she shakes when she has intense emotions?
God I hope it's that. I really do.
Okayy guys, this is probably the longest chapter I've done, I'm not too shore, so if it doesn't look like much it is. It's 5,306 words, to me that's a lot. Well hope you like it.
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