Far Away Chapter 2: Savin' Me, a merlin fanfic

Author's Note: So I'm going to dedicate this chapter to TheFirstEverLostGirl1987 because they want me to write another chapter; so here it is! ^.^

Disclaimer: I don't own anything (Not even the song) I only own Kiya.

Prison gates

won't open up for me
On these hands and knees I'm crawlin'
Oh, I reach for you
Well I'm terrified of these four walls
These iron bars can't hold my soul in
All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

She remembers the first night he left. The tears falling down her cheeks as the sobs racked throughout her body; not even Will or her mother could pull her out of this stupor. It was almost like she was someone completely different; it was like she had lost her soulmate had vanished from her life.
Well in some ways he did.
The days went longer because he wasn't around; he wasn't there to tell her that he loved her nor was he there to give her soft kisses in the dead of night when they would sit silently in the forest because they didn't want anyone to know about them.
He wanted her his little secret.

It was harder then she would have thought to be without her best friend; there was nothing to do. In eighteen years of her life; this was the first time she had been genuinely bored. It was quiet, almost too quiet for her liking. The birds weren't even singing this morning, and that's how it all started. With the silence. It was the silence which became the loudest thing in her life, because he wasn't around to fill it. To hug her and tell her that it's all going to be okay.
She missed his gentle words of comfort when she felt like crying. When she looked up at the stars at night, she wondered if he was looking at the same ones and thinking of her.

Show me what it's like
To be the last one standing
And teach me wrong from right
And I'll show you what I can be
Say it for me
Say it to me
And I'll leave this life behind me
Say it if it's worth saving me

She had sent him letters, yet never got one in return. It made her wonder if he had ever received them, or if he had ever found anyone else and just forgot about her; because as she sat here waiting for him, he was off saving the world.
He was her hero.
The food was always placed in front of her, yet it was never touched. She pushed it around her plate but she couldn't touch it; every time it slid down her throat, it tasted like poison. She would spit it out almost immediately. She tried to ignore the worried looks of her friends and family, but she wasn't having any of it. She couldn't.

When she was ambushed in the forest, when she was beaten repeatedly and held by the five men; she thought she wanted to die. She wanted him there, rescuing her, telling her that he didn't love her any less. But he wasn't there, so she just felt filthy, dead inside. And he wasn't there.
She hated him at that moment.
He was living the life she always wanted. She wanted him so badly to take her away from there and take her to some magical, far away kingdom and just love her. But he didn't. He left her to rot.

Heaven's gates won't open up for me
With these broken wings I'm fallin'
And all I see is you
These city walls ain't got no love for me
I'm on the ledge of the eighteenth story
And oh I scream for you
Come please I'm callin'
And all I need from you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

When she saw him again, she didn't really know what to think of it. She didn't know if it was because of her, or because the village was under attack. He was too busy gallivanting around with Prince Arthur to really pay any notice to her; so she stayed in the shadows, listening to the speeches, the only time they really spoke was when he was teaching her how to fight.
And then when night fell, he finally saw her; he didn't look through her this time, he saw the pain in her eyes, the sorrow. He felt how skinny she was and wondered if she was looking after herself.

She wondered if he should know; about the men and the sorrow she felt after he left. But she saw how happy he was, being Arthur's servant. Making real friends. Her and Will shared a look with each other; both having the same thought. He didn't need them any more. She was only his first...well, everything. And he was his best friend. Not like he needed them any more.
So she blocked him out until the fight was over and the war was won. He asked her to go back to Camelot with him; and she said no, because she was needed here. And she didn't want her burden on his shoulders. Not any more.

He told her that his feelings hadn't changed; that he still loved her. But she wondered, deep in her heart, if she told him the events that had happened over the year would he still love her the same. He wasn't so sure any more. Her head was so messed up that it hurt. Her heart hurt more then anything though. She wanted to run into his arms and say everything she needed too.

She felt like she had so much more here for her; like there was something keeping her here. Even though there were so many bad memories; she felt like she couldn't leave.

They stared at each other for what seemed like a lifetime. She nodded once to him placed a kiss on his lips; hoping that everything she needed to say was said in that one kiss. She broke it off and stood back from him; allowing him to leave whenever he was ready. He kept pleading for her to come with him; to start a new life. But she stood her own ground and told her that she couldn't leave.

Hurry I'm fallin'

All I need is you
Come please I'm callin'
And oh, I scream for you
Hurry I'm fallin', I'm fallin', I'm fallin'

She watched him leave on the back of the horse; watched as it rode out of the village and out of her life. She turned around and let out a scream of shock as one single stray arrow pierced through her stomach. The four nobles from Camelot stopped and turned around; watching as she dropped to her knees, her hand around her wound. Blood seeped through her fingers as she looked up at Merlin as he jumped off the horse and ran over to her, fear and tears in his eyes.

She fell back and looked at the arrow which came out of her stomach. She listened to his pleas to stay with him as she drifted in and out of consciousness.
He inwardly winced as he pulled the arrow out of her stomach and threw it on the ground. He placed her head in his lap and looked at her; he continued to cry out for her as her mother came running out.

She wondered if she would find peace here; if Merlin would tell her everything now; tell her why he left for Camelot, tell her why he never replied to her letters and tell her why he left her behind.
The remaining three from Camelot had beheaded the man who shot the arrow at Kiya, and they returned, watching a heartbreaking sight before them.
Their friend was dying in the arms of her first love.

He continued to cry out for her; begging her not to leave him, not to leave him alone. She placed her own bloodied hands on his cheeks and shook her head at him; she felt dizzyingly light headed. She whispered her love for him before she closed her eyes for the final time.
He clutched on to her as if his own warmth would bring her back to life. His sobs echoed throughout the village as her mother cried into someone's shoulder.
He didn't think he could bounce back from something like this...

Hurry I'm fallin'