*Awakens from hibernation* I'm back! Yes it's been forever I know but this story has kind of lost its luster for me :/ so this will probably be the last chap. Don't hate me! Anyway here it is. Also I refuse to acknowledge Echo's death just saying. oh! and captainkale recommended a taylor swift song and canadiancloneluver also said this would be a good one so... thank them :)

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

Ahsoka rolled over in her bunk, she was past sleep now, her ship the Warrior was docking with the Resolute to refuel and re-supply. Being back on the old ship, it made her think too much about her captain, not Fives not her second in command. It made her think of her captain.

She couldn't take it anymore. Ahsoka rolled out of her bunk and headed off in the direction of the mess hall. Maybe if she was lucky she could find a maintenance clone or two, pulling the graveyard shift there that she could talk to.

You've been good, busier than ever

Small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

There were no maintenance clones in the mess. However Ahsoka could see an all to familiar blond head sitting in a corner with his back to her. She gulped.

Now or never. Ahsoka hurried over to the table were Rex was pocking his food back and forth across the tray.

Taking the seat across from him, Ahsoka was startled by his disheveled appearance.

Rex looked like dar'yam. Big black bags hung under his eyes and his cheeks were caved in as if he hadn't eaten in weeks. His hair had begun to grow out and it was clear he hadn't shaved in a wile. Rex glanced up at her and she could easily see the hostility in his gaze.

"Hay." Ahsoka tried to smile, the captain looked back at his uneaten food, as if it were suddenly the most interesting thing in the universe. Ahsoka tried again. "So how's the fight been?"

"Fine." He spat, jabbed his fork violently into the gray mush on his platter, Ahsoka to wince.

"And the men?" she smiled. "I haven't seen them in age's" another angry jab of the fork.

"There fine." He hissed.

"And you?" Ahsoka tried to smile. The fork was jammed so violently into Rex's food the plastic ends snapped off.

"Peachy." He growled.

Ahsoka knew he was lying, anyone who looked at the captain these days could tell he was lying.

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

"Rex…" Ahsoka reached over to him. "Rex I know what's wrong-" The captain stood without a word. Leaving his tray of completely untouched food on the table, he left the mess. Ahsoka sighed heavily, a lost sort of look on her face. "Rex I'm sorry." She whispered.

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

Ahsoka could still remember the night all of this had gone wrong.

Lux was a jerk. She could say that with absolution. This was all his fault the kriffin separatist.

"So what is it with you and that clone fellow?" Lux asked nonchalantly. Ahsoka gave Lux a hard look.

"I love him." She replied firmly. Lux snorted. And leaned in closer.

"You could do so much better…" he whispered. Before Ahsoka realized what he was doing Lux pressed his lips to hers.

It took Ahsoka a moment to recover from the shock of Luxs kiss. She pushed him back angrily slamming her boot down on his toe while simultaneously smacking him in the face.

"Chakaar!" Ahsoka swore using a term she had picked up from the clones. Ahsoka turned to storm away but something flashed in the corner of her eye.

Ahsoka spun around so fast she may have given herself wipe lash if she wasn't a Jedi.

There lying on the coble stone walk was a bouquet of 6 roses 2 white, 3 blue, one red, her favorites. And the kind only Rex would know to get her.

Maybe out of sentiment or out of sorrow she still kept the petals from that single red rose that had been mixed into the bouguet.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

Rex wanted so much to hate her. He wanted so much to blame her and get on with his… no quite a life. But he couldn't bring himself to it. She was… he loved her. Broken hearted or not he still loved her.

Why Ahsoka? Why would you make me do this?

"Shut up, I couldn't sleep." He turned on his heals but as he walked away he could here Echo calling after him.

"Neither can commander Tano!"

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

Captain Fives and Lieutenant Echo ran into the captain as he stormed out of the mess hall. The two soldiers exchanged looks. Weren't they the only ones up?

"Sir?" Echo reached out his arm and stopped the captain mid stride. He turned to them.

"What are you two doin up?" Rex's voice was blunt and to the point, as if he were barking out an order.

"We could ask you the same thing." Fives cracked a smile at his now fellow captain. Rex scowled deeply at them.

13 standard years, 13 kriffin standard years and this was what he had to show? Last Rex checked 13 year old weren't supposed to get their hearts ripped out of their chests. Then again 13 year olds also weren't supposed to watch their brothers die on a daily basis. 13 year old weren't supposed to fall in love, 13 year olds weren't supposed to suffer like this.

Rex had done a lot in his time that 13 year olds weren't supposed to do.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side

Realized I loved you in the fall

The moon shone above them surrounded by a see of stars. Ahsoka laughingly pointed out the constellations she knew, wile Rex lay beside her. A smile on his face and a hand around her shoulders. Every now and again he would kiss her cheeks or lekues, causing the troguta to laugh. Ahsoka turned her attention away from the stars and looked at him.

"I love you." She smiled and kissed his lips softly. Rex was dumb struck. When he finally spoke he spoke not what first came to his mind. But what first came to his heart.

"I love you to cyar'ika."

If only all of his memories of there times together were so sweet.

And then the cold came,

The dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

She shouldn't have even gone into the garden with him. She had known that shabuir's intentions. What had she been thinking? Ahsoka hated herself so much for her mistake she wished she could go back and turn the clocks around change everything but she couldn't

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

So many regrets. But it was to late now. How could she say sorry if he wouldn't even talk to her?

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

A part of him wanted to listen to her. Rex shook his head slowly. He was back in his room, lying in an all to familiar position on his bed. One foot dangling off of the bunk, his head resting against the wall.

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night,

The first time you ever saw me cry

They were all dead.

Ahsoka sat on the wing of her starfighter head in her hands. She had lost here entire fighter squadron today. Kickback, Axe, Slammer, Tucker, Swoop… all of them… gone. She wanted to cry.

Rex walked up to her fighter and hoped up onto the wing next to her. No one was around to here them. They could speak freely.

"Hay cyar'ika." He whispered putting an arm around her shoulders.

With that simple gesture Ahsoka lost all the composure she had been holding. She placed her head on his shoulder, and let herself go.

Rex held her calmly as the let out her tears. He knew how much she was hurting. On more than on occasion he's wished he could just sit down and cry for the bothers he lost. He knew the guilt of loosing me under your command, men who had died because of your decisions.

He just held her, rubbing small circles on her back, and let her cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

Ahsoka stood knee's shaking in front of Rex door. It was now or never. She reached up with a quivering hand to nock on the door.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

"Rex I know you're in there pleases open up." there was no answer and Ahsoka knocked again. "Rex please, I-I'm sorry…" she whispered. Still no answer. "I know that sometimes apologizing can't fix everything but I'm not a god I can't turn back time to change It." she lowered her voice. "No mater how much I wish I could." She wiped away the tears that had begun to form in her eyes. "Rex please… I need you."

But this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December

Rex stood on the other side of his door, listening intensely to every word she said. She was sorry. He could tell by her voice. He was sorry to. Sorry he hadn't stopped to listen to her before.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

The door opened with a near silent woosh and Ahsoka looked up at the smiling face of her captain, her captain.

Ya so I'm ending this now *gets pelted with garbage* I'm sorry ok! I need to focus on some of my other stories especially considering a couple of new plot bunnies are surfacing. :/ Anyway all song requests will be saved and possibly used in the future if I ever clear my plat enough to start a new song fic series. As always review!