Ch. 2

I walk into the lab a little after midnight I had driven there after telling Booth of what I had wanted to tell him for so long on the drive to my house. I had told him just as Mika had said to do and I cried, I had cried. I had also felt just as Mika had said about the lecture and the universe, he was correct it had spoke to me. So I let my feelings out looking Booth in the eye I told him how I felt. I looked him in the eye, no regrets and opened up.

I finally broke down when the rejection came all the things he had said in front of the hoover building kept running through my head. Plus, the case and victim Laura, her lonely life. All at once everything had opened my eyes and so I had opened my heart 'laying it on the line' as Angela would have said. I had finally said it out loud in my own way I told him I loved him, only to be rejected.

I should have known better anyway I don't get to love and be loved like everyone else. I know it's my own fault I had rejected him and missed my chance, but he had said he knew and now I'm confused and heart crushed. Actually, I believe I understand how a heart can break-it can stop functioning properly and while I know my heart was still functioning properly. I wasn't sure if metaphorically it was working properly as I said my world had turned upside down, Booth wasn't mine and I wasn't his like we had been before. He had said that aloud. Being with Booth had opened my eyes and heart and now, now it was too late.

"We all have our own sad story." Mika said as I ran into him and then he left to make his rounds. Oddly enough as I walk into my office I felt a feeling of...actually I'm not quite sure what it was that came over me. Though, Mika was correct in his statement we all do have some kind of sad story and at least now Booth knew how I felt. That was good I guess yes, yes it was.

At least he knew now and maybe there is hope? Hell if I had believed someone was speaking to me from beyond the grave, I could believe in hope. I wondered for a split second if I had lost my mind and "gone nuts" as Mika had said. So many things ran through my head as I stood in my office. Booth, lost chances, a twist of fate though I was too late, things I wanted so much-gone. It wasn't enough all of it, but it was what it was just as life.

Had I crossed a line? No, no I just wanted what everyone else had though all I had ended up with was hope. Yes, hope is what I have to hold onto now and only hope. While Mika was correct in stating we all have our own sad story he had forgot to remember if that makes sense, that all of our stories are not finished and the pages still beg entry. I smile to myself. "Three days for the world to turn right side up." Maybe there is hope.

Review? Just saw the episode where Brennan tells Booth she regretted turning him down (thx Hulu I have still yet to see a new ep. on t.v) and decided I should do a Ch.2...loved Mika's character. Oh and "Maybe there is hope." is Mulder's last line in the X/F...I use to watch it in high school...wow hs ha that was forever ago. Review? Oh I posted ch. 12 for "A Silent Night". Vegas how I miss you! Reality how you suck ha!