I'm lost in this world.
A misplaced person with no purpose.
My fate is empty.
I have no future.
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When I look at you.
I see life in your eyes.
You have purpose.
I envy your spirit.
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I loathe you.
I envy you.
I am jealous of you.
So I make you miserable.
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I tease and taunt you.
I bring you down.
I don't want you to have purpose.
I want you to lose hope.
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I see you upset.
I see you become cynical.
I am proud to see you so down.
I love seeing your pain.
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You didn't show up for school one day.
I asked where you were.
They said you were gone.
They said you were dead.
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What is this feeling?
I feel sad.
I feel angry at myself.
I feel guilty.
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You took your own life.
They said you were depressed.
I knew what they meant.
Your death was my fault.
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I hate myself.
I want to see the life in your eyes again.
I want to see your hope again.
I am going to see your spirit again.
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I take the knife.
I make the cut.
I feel pain but not for long.
I feel peace.
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I look around.
I feel content
I see your forgiving eyes.
You are true angel.
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I am sorry.
Forgive me please.
I will be evil no longer.
I am sorry for causing your pain.