I'm sorry, Sasuke.

Maybe this line is getting old, but it's the truth.

Yes my foolish otouto, in this crazy illusion-filled reality of ours (or is it a reality-filled illusion?) I have finally found a small piece of truth.

Since I am sorry.

It is probably the biggest feeling I have. Regret. Guilt. The excessive need to make it up to you, paired with the horrible knowledge that nothing that I can do will be able to gain it back.

With 'it' I mean your love, your smiles, your future self- that will now never be, the innocent childhood you should have had. Your parents. Your brother. I'm sorry Sasuke, I lost them all.

I took them away from you, didn't I?

You were happy in Konoha, I could see that much. Please Sasuke, please go back. Go back as the hero that you are, instead of listening to what Madara will tell you. Cause I know that he will tell you everything once I die. But go back to them, your friends. Don't blame Konoha. Go back, proud of killing the evil, murderous missing nin Uchiha Itachi. I'm sorry for not being able to kill Madara, I'm sorry you had to find out the truth.

Please don't self-destruct any further.

That boy, Uzumaki Naruto, really cares about you. You care about him. He actually attacked me, trying to kill me, so that you could give up on revenge and go back to Konoha.

I'm sorry I didn't let him, but it was my one selfish request that you would be the one to kill me. Besides, I was afraid that since you weren't strong enough to kill Orochimaru yet, he'd take your body and ruin you.

You can't believe how much I regret not killing that filthy son of a bitch Orochimaru when I had the chance. (Yes Sasuke, even I curse sometimes)

For that, I am also sorry.

Sasuke, I love you. I always did. I didn't lie. I only lied when I said I lied. I wasn't pretending to be the older brother you wanted. If I'd be doing that, none of this would've happened. Then I would've stopped going on missions, and spent my time with you.

Sasuke, I'm so sorry you thought I hated you.

I'm sorry I couldn't give you the attention and care I gave Kisame later on. You noticed, didn't you? When you met him. I knew by the way you looked at him, eyes filled with anger and hidden jealousy. But you are my little brother, Sasuke, and I don't love anyone more than I love you. I'm sorry for that as well. It would've been better for you, and everyone, if I had been able to kill you as you were trapped in a sweet genjustu.

It would've been like a beautiful dream, and you would suffer no more.

But I couldn't Sasuke, I'm sorry.

Sasuke, I'm sorry I won't be able to do all those things I promised I'd do with you a different time. I'm sorry I broke every promise I ever made to you. I'm sorry I broke everything you had into tiny pieces with my own bloody hands. I'm sorry I made your reality a horrible illusion. I'm sorry I couldn't be a better brother, a better person. I'm sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm sorry I made you go through all this.

I'm sorry, Sasuke, but this is the last time.