This is my first DPS fanfic ^.^

Kinda based on The Mess I made by Parachute. Amazing song .

I don't own Dead Poets Society or The Mess I made.

Should of kissed you there, should of held your face.

I had so many chances. So many wasted chances. All those times I was too oblivious to realize how you felt. I was too oblivious to do exactly what I wanted to. I was too much of a coward. Too much of an idiot, to just kiss you. So many wasted chances.

I should have told my father how I felt about acting. I should have told him how much I needed to stay at Welton. How much I needed my friends. How much I needed you. I should of waited until I was free, until I was old enough to have control over myself. I should have done so many other things. I should of been stronger.

I watch as you cry, even though it breaks my already broken heart. I don't deserve to look away. I don't deserve you. My heart aches know I did this to you. Knowing I'm the reason you're like this. Lifeless and broken. The remains of Todd. The leftovers of a broken soul. A broken heart. I hate myself for doing that to you. For taking your heart. I hate myself for being so stupid.

I long to touch you, to comfort you. To kiss you and hold you and apologize and tell you that everythings alright, that I'm not worth it.

I can't belive the mess I've made. I can't stand this. I can't stand seeing you like this. I'm stupid and selfish. I'm sorry.

I wish you could hear me.

Ah. suckishness.

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