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Hope you like Chapter 2!

When Castle woke up, he found himself in the back of Beckett's car, lying down, with Ryan looking at him.

"Ah, he's awake. Beckett was worried," he winked at Castle before continuing, "So whose they elf? A friend? Santa's helper? Did he just drop from the North Pole?" Castle tried to sit up, but Ryan gently pushed him back down. "Woah there, don't want to collapse again now, don't we. So who's the guy?"

"He's- he was my—oh god is he really dead?" Castle looked at Ryan, pleading for him to say no.

"Castle, I can't confirm anything until you tell me who he is." Ryan looked at Castle, sympathy shining in his eyes.

"He and I went to college together. We were frat brothers. We enlisted in the army together when we were 21. Please tell me he's not dead." Castle looked at Ryan, but Ryan was too busy looking at Castle, a huge look of shock in his face.

"You were in the army?"

"Yes, I did an 18 month tour with Casey."

"So the vic's name is Casey?"

"Yes, Casey Remblem. May I see the body? And where's Beckett?"

"Beckett's with Lainie, going over the COD and the approximate TOD. I have strict orders to not make you-"

"Castle?" Beckett came striding over to him. "Are you okay? Do you know the victim? What can you tell us about him? How do you know the victim? Are-"

"Beckett, slow down there girl, the guy just fainted, give him a break." Lainie looked over at Castle, but she too had a questioning glance towards him.

"He-he-he-" Castle then looked at Beckett, tears trickling down his face. I wasn't taught to cry, I was taught to be strong he thought before continuing. "He and I went to college together. Then after, we enlisted in the army together. His name is Casey Remblem, at least I think."

"You think? How do you not know?" Beckett shot Castle a glare, not sure if he would start laughing saying it's a joke. It wasn't.

"No," Castle continued, "after the tour was over, I went into writing again and he became a CIA agent or an FBI agent. I can't remember which one anymore. He went deep undercover about ten years ago. Alexis was devastated. Her favorite "uncle" would no longer come to visit. I- oh man, how will I explain this to Alexis?"

"Beckett looked at Ryan and then shot a glance at Castle. "Come on Castle, let's get back to the precinct. Lainie started to head back already. Now Castle, are you SURE you can handle this?"

"Handle this? I need to take this dirt bag who killed my best friend down. Of course I can handle this." Castle wiped the tears hastily from his eyes and strode towards the passenger seat of the car, the snow creating a small dusting on his head.

The ride back to the precinct was awkwardly quiet. Beckett kept sneaking glances at Castle, who was staring at the snow falling slowly outside.

"So," Beckett said, trying to desperately make a conversation, "you were in the army? It wasn't in your personal section of the Richard Castle website."

"No," he said quietly, "I keep that part of my life in the back of my head. I choose not to relive those memories. I was born to write those scenes, not witness them. Case, well Case was opposite of me. He loved the thought of becoming a soldier. He never would stray from his country. He wouldn't hurt anyone who was born on American soil. Why did this happen to him, WHY!" Castle's voice rose into hysterics.

"Castle, shh, we'll find the person who did this to him."

"He-he had a wife, Julie. I don't even know if they got divorced, hell I don't know if she even became a cop like she wanted to. "Castle sighed and stared out the window again, a tear making its way down his cheek.

"Do you know how to contact-"

"DO I KNOW HOW TO CONTACT HIS WIFE? Is that what you're going to ask me, Beckett? I told you, I haven't spoken to them in 10 years. I don't know his cell phone number, I don't know if he's still married, I don't remember if he and Julie were expecting a baby because I've not talked to them since 2000! Do you think I know his phone number?" Becket shrunk back a bit from his verbal abuse. She never thought he could yell like that. She has never seen him upset. She's never seen him raise his voice beyond a normal level. RING! RING! Her cell phone started ringing. She looked over at Castle and she saw him give a look of defeat.

"Beckett."

"Girl, you have to come to the morgue immediately!" Lainie sounded excited, "NOW."

"Lainie, I'm in traffic. It's December, give me a bit of slack. But I'll be over in about ten minutes."

Castle looked at Beckett and asked, "What did Lainie have to say?"

"I'm not sure, but by the sound of her voice, she found something useful."

"Alright, let's go."