"If only sorrow could build a staircase

Or tears could show the way

I would climb my way to heaven and bring him back home again."

-Bring Me the Horizon "Suicide Season"

That day haunts you still

every waking moment

every night you dream.

You can't rid yourself of it.

No matter how far you run away

or how busy you make yourself

that, that picture is always right in your mind's eye

that smile is always flashing before you

(again and again and again.)

It's killing you slowly

and you can see how it eats them up.

George can't smile anymore.

All Mum does is cry.

Dad doesn't tinker with Muggle things.

And the rest have changed, too.

It's because he was the heart of the family

and now he's g-o-n-e.

x

You were the one who watched as

the sand r a n out in his hour glass

(that smile, that smile, that smile.)

It could've easily been you

and sometimes you wish it would've been

(it would have made everything better that way.)

As much as it pains you to acknowledge it

you know that all of them would have been happier

because, in all honesty, they don't need you

(and every single one of them needed him.)

He took their smiles with him

He stole their laughs, their jokes, their happiness

(nothing would've been lost with you)

and you would do anythingto get those things back

because it's the only way you can pay your debts

for everything you have done to them

(sleepless nights, awkward situations, leaving.)

In your world of logic and knowledge

you can't comprehend why he is gone

when all he ever did was make them smile

and all you ever did was cause them pain.

The lyrics above belong to the band Bring Me the Horizon's song "Suicide Season." I really love the song so you should all check it out.

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This was done for Written Sparks' very belated birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I've been meaning to write you something so I hope you like this.

:)

Fangz mew for betaing!