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A/N:Because you won't be getting other updates for tonight and this story is basically done =) I wanted the MG area to have some love =P

It ignores that Haley died...

This has just been waiting ages to be posted!

Enjoy it!

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It was quite late, and she'd only gotten out of work. Life was beyond different now. Life was just how she hated it to be. She'd been in a new a state for nearly 7 months and was still as lonely as the day she arrived.

She still remembered the day she was shifted to Chicago, she felt it was torture, being sent to a place that was hometown to one of the team, but what else could she do but comply?

The law didn't care, the law didn't look at someone and judge them on whether or not they looked able to cope with jail or not.

Erin Strauss had used the old chestnut of inappropriate flirting with Derek Morgan and saw her take a transfer. It was that or jail. She hadn't even had the chance to allow Rossi to use his skills to get her to change her mind. All she managed was a quick pack up and a goodbye with Strauss following her.

She guessed it was the beginning of the BAU break up. Except it wasn't when Penelope checked in through the back door of her old computer system she noticed that they were all working together still, happy and with a new tech.

She wasn't needed. More like forgotten.

Just thinking of the team made her well up. Made her heart pump to a painful amount.
She looked out of the window and could've sworn her heart stopped beating.

There standing around an SUV and an alley taped up just down the road were the team. Her eyes went straight to Derek.

He stood in a blue shirt and a grey suit. He'd hardly changed at all, she knew he was a year older, they'd both ended up missing the others birthday. She turned and looked out from the diner and from what she could lip read he said he could do with a coffee. Her heart pounded as they all made their way towards the very diner she was sat in.

Hotch next to him in his usual black and white with a tie attire. Rossi sporting something similar. Reid wore his usual outdated, yet well suited clothes. JJ and Emily's work clothes seemed to bare more colour nowadays.

She cast her eyes down towards the table she was sat at. If she kept her head down she could be walked passed and then she could relax. She knew she was well out of the way here.

She heard them come in talking and laughing and her heart clenched. Here they were, happy and obviously moved on and here she was in the same state of mind that she left with.

She wasn't a charity case. She just couldn't fit in, in Chicago. It wasn't her home and even when she tried she got looked at weirdly. None of the techs had accepted her because she ended up doing more of the workload than they did. She knew it could only get better, but she didn't know how to transcend good vibes when no one wanted to know or give her the time of day.

As much as she wanted to jump up and talk to the team, she couldn't. She was terrified of her heart breaking all over again at seeing them and then losing them.

"She looks miserable." Reid commented as they took a seat on the other side of the diner. "I mean hardly goes with the motto of this place." They watched the woman get up and head to the toilet.

Derek fidgeted a little as they watched her. He knew her and from the way they all looked they knew her too.

When she came out they watched her on the phone. She had changed beyond anyone's belief.
They watched her disappear into her booth she was seated at, then all they saw was her slam her phone down and put her elbows on the table top and begin to massage her temples.

Penelope sat there, her food forgotten. She now wished she'd taken the jail route. Least she'd have it, somewhat, easier. No boss that found it fun to call her in around the clock. No work colleagues that made her feel inferior and no dreading the next day. There'd be the same loneliness and same isolation she had to contend with, but at least she wouldn't need to make much of a living.

JJ was first up and the others watched her slide into the booth. "Well..." She said and Penelope shot up and looked at her friend. JJ looked at Penelope, her eyes were bloodshot, her hair was in cropped red curls and her face was gaunt. "I think we've found you at last."

"You're not allowed to." Penelope said nonchalantly, Strauss' words still burnt her, she knew that any contact with the team would push her more towards a jail cell. "If I could have come back don't you think I would've at every opportunity?"

JJ looked at her friend, this wasn't Penelope anymore, this was a sad shell left behind. She felt so sympathetic as she grabbed her hands in hers. "We've been looking, but Strauss has you so well barricaded." She saw Penelope's brown eyes well up in an instance. "How's the Chicago life treating you?"

Penelope fully broke then, just having the close proximity of familiarity was hurting her in more ways than one. She didn't want JJ to leave, but she knew they had to.

"Oh Garcie." Penelope sobs choked then and she ran her hands over her face in frustration, she hadn't had anyone call her that for months and her heart pounded. The team watched JJ get up and shoot them a look as she went to Penelope's side and wrapped her arms around her friend. "It's all okay." She said and the team all came and sat down.

JJ could feel that Penelope had lost weight, that she clung on with desperation. When they pulled apart Penelope looked at them all, they hadn't really changed much. Hotch's protective streak seemed to have heightened, Rossi's deliberating thought seemed larger, Reid's childlike charm still shone, Emily's strong look seemed weakened by a shot of happiness, JJ's kindness still made Penelope feel like home was close and Derek stood on the end of the table looking at her, yet the look seemed icy and distant.

Her heart began to pound, the beat noticeable in her throat. She'd realised she was in love with Derek about a month in. All the flirting, the touches, the nicknames that she thought made her relationship with him fun, wasn't just for fun. It was her heart speaking volumes that her voice couldn't say properly. She just wanted to feel him hold her like he used to, hear his voice.

"We're still working on getting you back. No tech is as good."

Penelope smiled a little at Hotch's words. "It won't work. Seems mine and Morgan's relationship got Strauss her way at splitting us. I can see she got rid of the weakest link first. It's good to see you all working together still."

"Penelope, we'll get you back." Hotch said confidently.

"It doesn't matter if you don't." Penelope told them, her tone melting with depression. "It's been too long. Point of no return."

"So you've given up?" Derek asked as he stood with his arms crossed, still darting her the glassy look. "That's it?"

"I can't go back. The only way I'll be going back, is to the jail." She wanted to chuck in a nickname but she didn't feel it right anymore. Penelope's phone went off and she looked at it before picking it up.

"Garcia." The team could hear the voice on the other side of the line near enough yell; Penelope ran a hand over her forehead. "I know, Sir." She complied politely. "I'll be right in." They continued to listen. "I'm near, yes." She told him. "Why aren't I in?" Penelope felt embarrassed. "The meeting ended about half an hour ago, I've not eaten since I got in this morning and..."Penelope felt the phone get taken out of her hand and Hotch took over. "I need some air." Penelope told them, she couldn't see Hotch yelling at her new boss being a good thing.

JJ got out of the booth and allowed Penelope to leave. The moment she got outside and out of their view she slipped to the floor and cried hard.

She didn't need to be told, she knew from the way that Emily was acting and the prim ring on her finger that she was well on her way to a happy ending with someone that truly loved her and Hotch wore the familiar gold ring on his finger, he'd finally remarried Haley, and she'd missed both. The romances she'd seen begin to blossom before her transfer had gathered the momentum they needed.

She had no idea what Henry looked like, her own Godson and she hadn't seen him in 7 months. A little boy she'd missed as much as anyone on the team. The little boy that made her believe in a family and a marriage and the fairytale ending.

There was a new air around Reid, telling her he'd found someone, and Rossi had another ring meaning he'd found wife number 4.

As for Derek, he kept his phone in his hand ready, he'd found a girl he really cared about.

Derek went outside; he didn't like Penelope outside on her own. Not when he knew they were working on a case that was just too close. He heard her cries and he went and found her. "Gonna get up?" He asked he and Penelope looked up at him, he didn't think she'd ever look so sad. "Garcia never just sat around and cried."

"I'm not that Garcia anymore." She told him and she hated that she felt she didn't know any of the group in the diner. "I don't quite know who I am anymore." Derek got on the floor when Penelope remained unmoved. "I don't get treated like I'm a part of a team; I don't have people talk to me like I'm important. I don't have a home here, however hard I try, it doesn't work." Penelope said and Derek put his arm around her shoulder. "I actually hate my job." She admitted to him and both never thought she'd ever say those words. "It's not rewarding anymore."

"Aw, Baby Girl..."

"Please, Derek, don't call me that again, because when you go and leave it'll just be the same as when I had to leave before." He felt her body jolt with more tears. "Who's the lucky girl then?" She sniffed as she tried to change the subject.

"Pardon?" He asked, Penelope's previous words were going round in his hand. He hated her so unhappy, he hated her like this and he hated her being so far away from their home but so close to his childhood.

"You've got your phone out, you're ready for a call and you're nervous."

Derek smiled. "You always did have a mini profiler in you." Penelope laughed a little at that, but it hiccupped. "Since you left I've not been me. I found a girl that likes the me like that. The reckless me."

"What about the old you?" Penelope said her heart slowly shattering.

"He left when his baby girl left." He looked at her and his smile was sad. "I had to move on."

"As do I obviously." Penelope said as a moment of realisation hit her and she got up and went back. She bid them all farewell and left for work.

She should've just taken Derek in all the years they had together and declared love but neither did and neither would now.

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A/N: This will be a THREEshot... So you'll have to hang in there and see what will happen!

It's quite angsty, quite unhappy but we'll see if there's a HEA in there at the end eh?

This is actually based on a screenshot of Morgan from an episode... I just cannot find it now... but he is standing by a crime scene, it's night and he's wearing the suit described, and looks as hot as ever =P

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