Newborn

Chapter 5: Bella

EPOV:

I was damned, it was beyond redemption now. I had done one of the most blasphemous things anyone could do to their angels. Bella Swan had been my temptation, my redemption and my soul all wrapped in one perfect gift. I still remembered how her long curly brown hair would sway in the wind, how her scent, so tantalizing would sweep over my senses. How her milk chocolate eyes would widen in surprise, or glow with happiness when she saw me or one of my family members. She was so full of life, so innocent, so pure. How god could want me to have such a precious gift was beyond me, and finally it was made clear to me that I was never meant to possess her. Isabella Marie Swan was meant for a normal human life, she surely wasn't supposed to live out her life with a never changing monster. She could never do thing with me as she should and I had to leave.

At first I could blame Jasper, he should have hunted before her party. Then as my crazed mind cleared I realized I could only blame myself for bringing her into this family. I knew when I met her that she was human, fragile and filled with blood – she wasn't safe around us, James' coven should have proven this. She should have run away screaming, she should have left with her mother in Phoenix after the whole situation with James yet she never did. I had stayed away from her for months now, no contact, simply trying to survive with the support of my family. Rosalie could care less, against all our thoughts she had liked Bella and thought I was making the worst mistake of my existence. True she didn't want Bella to have the life we led, but she wanted me to be happy.

Alice was horrified with me, sad that she had to leave her sister, her best friend. She didn't talk to me for two months. It wasn't until January I relented and let her look into Bella's future. What she saw horrified her, she collapsed onto the ground, I followed her. I remembered it, the blurry images. I couldn't see much, they were so out of tune but she was in Seattle, her eyes were not the beautiful brown I knew, but a demonic red. A red I remember having as a newborn, in my rebellious days. My Bella, my angel, she was a vampire. The family had been shocked, how could we not have known? Carlisle had research done, we found out that Isabella Swan had went missing, seemingly runaway in late October. Hardly a month after I left. It had broken me down to know that I could have prevented my angel from being turned into this, and to know she was alone. Alice couldn't see much of her, only flashes and usually she was running or in Seattle. Her eyes were always red, everyone assumed this meant she hunted humans.

Part of me knew this had to be true, but I couldn't help but pray this was not the case. The first year her eyes would remain red no matter her diet, I couldn't see my darling Bella harming another human life. She was to generous, to kind, and passionate. She had always reminded me of what I knew my mother to be, Bella would have made a wonderful mother. I sobbed slightly at the lost of my Bella's humanity, of the life I had wanted for her. I had always known she would make a beautiful mother, I had at times pictured her with a glow, a rounded belly and latter a little toddler that would look just like her. At times I'd be with her, my arms around her, smiling with her, at others the toddler would have my green eyes or my bronze hair. I knew it could never happen and would always shake my head with sadness. I had lost the right to children when I lost my humanity.

The last night I had spent with my Bella, the night before her birthday, well technically it was her birthday as it was past midnight. She had finally brought down my shields, my boundaries. The passion we had experienced together had been wonderful, mind blowing, yet the bruises I had left had terrified me. Jasper attacking her was the last straw for me, I had to leave, had to keep her safe. Even if it meant surrendering her to someone else. I hated myself for ignoring her, for being so cold before I left, after what we had shared together, but it had to be done. My mother, both Esme and Elizabeth would have hung me by my toes for leaving a girl after taking her to my bed – or her bed as it may be – and I had scolded myself relentlessly after. It would have been better if it had never happened but part of me couldn't wish to take it back. In a way she had something to remember me by, and I her. It this counted of course, I shook my head as I ghosted my hands over the pearl keys of my piano.

We had returned to Forks in January after we heard of Bella's 'death', I would visit her tombstone, which with the empty casket underground and sit on her grave. Telling her gravestone I was sorry, that I loved her, and that I would find her. She'd not be alone, never be alone. Now it was nearly nine months after we left and still we had not found Bella, but the rumors, the killings in Seattle. Jasper figured it was more then one newborn, but he also figured Bella was apart of this newborn party. I didn't want to believe it but what else did I have to believe?

"Edward, are you going to play or just sit there?" Rosalie asked as she stood at the doorway. I twisted around, looking at her with lidded eyes and shrugged.

"Whatever, the others want us to come to the living room. Alice had another vision of Bella," she said, rolling her eyes at me. I got up instantly and followed Rosalie into the living room where my family all sat around on the couches, and chairs. Rosalie went over to the chair Emmett sat in and sat on the arm of it, her arms still crossed. Out of all of us Rose was the most upset about having to leave another home to come back to a old one, but I knew she was also worried about Bella. She was good at hiding her thoughts but she wasn't that good.

"Rose said you had another vision?" I asked. Alice nodded, her lips drawn into a tight frown. It seemed she never smiled anymore, not since we left Bella. Though really, none of us smiled much anymore.

"Yes, it was just as blurry, but it was definitely her. She wasn't alone though." I blinked, what did she mean not alone? Was her creator with her? A human? I flinched, I didn't want to think of her being with a human because at her current age and state it could only mean one end for the human.

"What do you mean Alice?" Carlisle asked.

"She was in a cave, underground...I don't know why. She had two others with her, a female and a male. The female was young, a newborn as well. She looked a little like what I imagine Bella did at 14 or 15, long brown hair. The man was possibly a year older then Bella herself, black hair possibly of Mexican decent," Alice answered. My mind was reeling, a girl who resembled Bella and a boy.

"Was the boy a newborn as well?" Jasper asked, his eyes hard.

'Could we be dealing with a newborn army?' I snapped my head up at his thoughts and blinked. If they were part of this army did that mean my Bella was as well?

"Yes, he had darker red eyes then Bella or the girl but he was still definitely a newborn." Carlisle sighed, running a hand through his hair and Esme gasped.

"Those poor dears, you said the girl was young?" she asked.

"No older then 15, there was no way she was older. I also got the feeling Bella was protective of the girl – I don't get audio in my visions but I can read lips. The girl called Bella mom," Alice replied. Esme smiled slightly.

'I am glad the girl has someone to care for her.' I smiled at Esme's thoughts. I was also happy this mysterious girl had someone, they must have known each other a while if she was referring to Bella as her mother. It was possible they were changed by the same person at the same time? Maybe.

"Anything else? Maybe where she was?" Rose asked. Alice shook her head, then frowned, biting the inside of her cheek softly.

"Well...there is one more thing," Alice began. I waited but she stayed silent just seconds to long for my patients.

"What Alice?" I snapped. Jasper scowled at me but Alice simply sighed a placed a hand on Jasper's arm.

"Usually in my visions I can tell she has a jacket or long sleeved shirt. She didn't in this one, her arms where bare, she has some scars, bite marks, it looked like her wrist and arm had been torn off a few times," Alice choked out. I stared at her blankly, no that wasn't possible. I gritted my teeth, clinched my fist and growled. I wanted to know who had hurt my Bella, was it those two vampires? Her creator, someone else? I growled, whoever had hurt my Bella, scared her for eternity would die slowly, painfully.

"My god!" Esme cried, hand over her mouth as she sobbed. Carlisle had a unreadable look on his face though from his eyes I could tell he was just as upset. Jasper was growling softly and Emmett was just starring ahead shocked. Rosalie was just as shocked as her husband, her thoughts showed both her concern and her shallow self centered personality clearly.

"What the hell is going on!" Emmett finally boomed. I agreed, what was going on here?

"I think, I think we may have more problems to deal with then finding Bella." I heard Jasper speak. His mind was whirling with accusation and suspicions. I didn't want any of them to be true but they didn't look to be wrong either.

"What's on your mind son?" Carlisle asked.

"The newborns, the deaths in Seattle, Victoria, Bella. I think they are all connected." Jasper sighed, running a hand through his blond hair, and interlocking his hands behind his back. We all looked at him, unsure of what he was saying.

"I think Victoria is responsible for the newborns in Seattle and that maybe, she is the one who turned Bella. If that's true then either Bella is part of the army or she is running from it," Jasper explained. I sighed, it was so simple, and possible. I didn't want it to be, I wanted Bella here with me, human, but I couldn't change the past.

"Does that mean Bella...is...angry at us?" Rosalie asked, her head down. I could tell, we all could tell, that she was trying to chose her words carefully. Everyone didn't know what to say to this, was she angry with us, was she working with Victoria? The thought of it crushed me to no end.

"It's a possibility, but she may also be running as Jasper said. We will not know unless Alice see's something about the situation. I have also talked to the werewolves," Carlisle began. Every tensed at the mention of the mutts. One in particular pissed me off to no end, Jacob Black was Bella's friend and he liked to taunt me with his memory, or Sam's memory of finding Bella after I left her. I was such a idiot that day, I should have known she would follow me, that she would be in danger.

"What did they say?" Esme asked. We had asked them for help after we had found out about Victoria, in February around the time Black had become a wolf as well.

"They have agreed to help. I had to tell them that we had our suspicions that Victoria may have been responsible for Bella's change – yes, that meant that I had to tell them Bella was now one of us. Jacob Black was not very happy about that, he destroyed quit a few trees in rage," Carlisle said, chuckling at the memory of Black phasing and destroying five or seven trees in his rage.

"I guess that means we should train," I said, looking down at the floor as I closed my eyes and thought of my beautiful angel's face. I love you Bella.