A/N: Yay! A JR fanfiction! Woot! You'll find these chapters shorter than usual, though ^^; mainly because I wanted to do it as a sort of scene-by-scene process, each chapter being a scene that brings them closer to D-Day (declaration day XDD)!
People find the passing of time to be a very ominous thing. As time goes by, people get older. As time goes by, you are that much closer to dying. As time goes by... I feel further and further away from you.
Usagi-san and I are lovers. I've accepted that. We sleep together, make love to each other, eat our meals together, I no longer argue with him about how he insists on driving me to university and... ultimately... we're in love. Yes, it's easy for me to tell him this now. I can freely admit it and yet there's still something... just one thing that I can't quite place that stands as a barrier between us.
We're closer than ever and yet we couldn't be farther apart. I wish I could ask Nii-chan, but—
That's it, isn't it? It's the fact that the only family I have, my beloved elder brother, doesn't know that I'm in a homosexual relationship with his high school buddy...
... Dare I try and mend that issue?
"Um... U-Usagi-san?" I murmured at the dinner table, poking at the steamed asparagus on my plate before spearing it and holding it up to my mouth so I could nibble on it.
"Neh?" he asked as he ate heartily, building up energy for his next big assignment from Aikawa-san, "Something the matter? Are you having trouble with your schoolwork?"
"Well... yeah, but that's not what I want to talk to you about. I-I mean, I do, but not right now. I've got something else on my mind."
"... You're not going to ask to be seme, are you?"
"W-What? No! Why the hell would I—"
"Good, because you remember what happened the last time you tried to be the seme? It was a complete disaster."
"That was your entire fault! If you hadn't suggested that position, I never would have gotten Suzuki-san dirty like that! Who keeps a teddy bear that size in their bed when they're doing it, anyway?"
"Many people do. "
"Yeah? Like who?"
"The Akihiko in my latest BL novel."
"THAT DOESN'T COUNT!"
"Anyway, what's on your mind?" he asked, smirking, apparently very satisfied that he'd gotten such a rise out of me. He would never let me live down my first and last seme experience.
I sighed, sitting back down and munching on my asparagus again. "I... want to tell Nii-chan about our... situation."
"Situation?"
"Don't play dumb with me!"
"I'm not. I just want to hear you say what our situation is again."
I let out a long-suffering sigh and grumbled, "I want to tell Nii-chan that we're still living together because we're lovers."
He grinned. "We've finally reached that stage in our relationship, eh? Wonderful. I look forward to what I'm sure will be a very rewarding experience for you."
"You will be there, too."
"..."
I chuckled.
"Remember what happened the last time you took control, Misaki?"
"Oh, lord in Heaven, I am sure you will understand why I am about to kill my lover and that you will think of it not as murder, but as a favour to all of humanity!"
"Poor Suzuki-san's fur was sticky for weeks!"
"I WILL DESTROY YOU!"
A/N: I added the Misaki-seme scenario for the lulz... couldn't help it... the thought is just far too amusing...
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