Dear Readers,

Now I don't want you to be startled. But by the time you would be reading this, I won't be HERE. And as you are reading this at the very moment, I am not saying I'm dead. Who knows? Maybe I'm just hiding at the other side of the world.

Now, don't get the idea of going to the other side of the globe. You will not find me there. Nobody will find me.

Sorry if I worrying you, it's just I WANT TO END ALL MY PROBLEMS. AND I THOUGHT THAT PROBLEM WAS MY LIFE. Life is hard.

Should I continue reading this? I know, it feels wrong. And yeah, sure Chad sent it to me, or one of his good pals did for me to read. But it's kind of personal.

Too personal.

I sound so selfish, saying that. I know all of our lives are hard. I do know that. But the smallest and nastiest things bring me closer to hell.

Bring him closer. Which means he's not in hell yet?

See, so now this letter is about a certain someone in school. A certain girl to be specific.

Blonde, curled and soft hair.

Green, almond-shaped eyes.

Coco Moco Coco lip gloss.

Yes, boys and girls. Tawni Hart.

Tawni? What happened between her and Chad? What did she DO with Chad? Oh no, I had a feeling this was connected to me. I wonder if it is.

No, Sonny. Not about you yet. But I did send this to you, right?

Yes, Chad. You are right.

You have to wait. So yeah, I'm confirming that you are in one of these letters, but not anytime soon. I'm sorry. Did I scare you? I didn't mean to.

I'm sure you did, Cooper.

Seriously, I didn't. I mean why else would I think.. Okay back on context.

It's like he heard me. I hope he does. Chad if you can hear me, I really, really, like really miss you. Oh well.

Tawni Hart didn't do anything bad. Not bad enough to make someone commit suicide. But like I told you. Small things, dear. Infact, she was one of the girls I used to like in Glendale High. Until September 8. 2007. Yes, the party I went to when I was a freshman. The ONLY party I went to.

Tawni and I weren't close. We talked to each other once in a while. Hung out at Coffee Bean, if I remember right twice. But that was it.

Nothing more. What, you think I liked her? Before. But now... No, yeah she was pretty but not my type. I don't know. There's someone else that struck my eye.

I know what you're saying right now Tawni. I can imagine 'What I did wasn't that bad; was it?'

Well, Tawni, we have different point of views. For you I was just some person you can rely on, close friends or not. Since I was head over heels for you back then, I didn't care.

He was? Tawni never told me that.

So now Tawni, on September 7 right after Science Class, you greeted me. "Hey, Chad! How it goes?"I simply replied with a grunt and a small smile, figuring out what you wanted from me. We were both freshmen back then.

"So, did you hear about the party tomorrow night? It's going to be so awesome." She acted all perky; "I guess." I shrug and head to my locker.

She followed me. SHE FOLLOWED ME. "Hey so I heard you have a car, can you give me a ride?" Um, you do know that I don't want to be there.

"I don't think I can go, I have homework for History I have to do with Sonny."

I remember that. We were supposed to do History homework together once at a public library.

"It's okay, you can do it on Saturday. Pretty, please?" She batted her eyes; I couldn't help it. I mean the girl is smokin'. I'm sorry for the rude comment.

I said okay and as all people left the building and got ready for a party. Not like I cared what I was going to wear, nope. I wasn't a pansy. Well I picked Tawni up at 7 just like she texted me, and we reached the venue of the party.

There were kegs, plastic cups, more alcohol and bras hanging around. This was not the place I was supposed to be in. I could've been with Sonny. At a quieter place.

'Chug, chug, chug' I could hear from behind me; I escorted Tawni to the cleanest room I can find. As soon as I brought her there, she took off. She was flirting with a bunch of guys. I saw Devon, and Skylar, Nico, Grady. Okay, so I was left alone. Where I did not want to be. ALONE.

I got so stoned, I walked around the parking lot, thinking of suicide. That was the first time I thought of it. The first time I thought about my own death. The first time, I thought that I could fix all the problems in my life.

I got even more bored, and decided to get home with or without Tawni. 'Wait, Cha-ad! Where are you going?' I heard from a few meters away. It was you, Tawni.

'Uh, I'm going home; there's pretty much nothing to do here.' You pulled me and told me to wait just for 2 seconds; you were going to grab your sweater. I waited.

So that was it? I was nothing more than a ride for you? I'm sorry but I thought we were friends. Yet you treat me like I'm some valet you can find around the corner. I couldn't deal with that.

Neither would I. I'm sorry but Team Tawni loses this round.

I brought you home, nothing else happened. Not even a thank you came out of your mouth. All that came out was 'I feel like shit.' But who seriously feels like shit, now? Me, duh. I was so stupid to let you use me. Well, that's just one.

Wait for the rest of the others.

I have a lot of ranting to do.

Especially with those stuck up snobs that think they're the center of Glendale High.

You know who it is.

That's all for now, I guess.

Gee, I have to work on my handwriting. I'm sorry if you can't understand.

XX,

CDC

Did you like it? Ha, I know this was short. I will try to make the next chapters a bit longer. THANKS FOR READING. Lmao.

To the reviewers, thanks! :-) Means alot.

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