Pains of Love:

-Big Time Rush Mansion, Los Angeles, California-

Logan is the first one to wake up, well, really he never went to sleep. As of late he has a lot on his mind, just a few years ago he was just a normal teenager living in Minnesota going to a normal high school and had a normalish family life. His parents never got along they would fight day and night, his father was a drunk and into drugs. His mother was a workaholic and his older half brother tried his best to protect him from the beatings his father would give him but he couldn't always be there. Then he met Kendall, James and Carlos the three of them met while trying out for the Hockey team and quickly became friends. He grew closer to Carlos then he did with Kendall and James. He spend almost all of his free time with Carlos. They were either come up with new moves for the team or studying, well, more so Logan was teaching Carlos or they would just hanging out watching TV, listening to music or playing video games. Logan discovered his feelings for Carlos two days before they came out to Los Angeles and it was then that he thought it best to keep it to himself, the only other person who knows that he is gay is Camille only because he could tell she liked him and he told her so she wouldn't get hurt. At first Camille was thrown off by it but then she told herself that she must mean a lot to him if he would tell her something so private about himself that he hasn't even told his best friends. Logan had just walked into the kitchen when both Kendall and James walked in all sweaty and panting heavily, "How was the run guys?" Kendall took a deep breath of air, "Great." he gasped before he went on, "Course James couldn't keep up." James pushed Kendall, "That's not true man I twisted my ankle." "Yeah okay." Kendall smiled, "So what's up? Is Carlos up?" "No, just me." Logan said. "Well, listen man I'm gonna hit the shower cause I stink and covered in sweat." James said. "Yeah man same here." Kendall stated. As the two of them walked up the stairs Carlos entered with his helmet on, Logan smiled, "Carlos, man why do you still wear that thing?" "Cause I feel safe with it on." Carlos said. Logan then thought back to the first time he ever saw him in that helmet, they were ten years old when they went on a bike ride and they well, had an accident and Carlos busted his head wide open and blood was ever where; the ground, his shirt, his hands, on his pants and he needed at least 20 stitches. So the next time they went bike riding Logan brought helmets for them and he stills wears it to this day. He also remembers that the helmet he gave him is the exact same one he wears now cause he had Carlos' name engraved on it. "Carlos you're in your own house why would you need a helmet on?" Carlos shrugged his shoulders, "Don't know but I'm not taking it off and you can't make me." He then stuck his tongue out at Logan. "Not gonna make you." Logan smiled. Carlos sat there looking at Logan, "What?" "Nothing I just find it funny that you still wear the helmet I gave you when we were ten." "Of course, bro, you gave it to me and I will always keep it." Carlos smiled. "Well, listen tell Kendall and James that I had to the studio Kelly asked me to come in and do a small recording before I head back to Minnesota." Logan said. "Oh yeah that's right I forgot you're going to Minnesota for your grandmother's birthday." Carlos said, "And I'll tell James and Kendall where you went."

Logan exited the Mansion as he closed the door he sighed. As he walked towards his car his feelings for Carlos lashed their way through his brain and into his heart. How do you tell your best friend that you're in love with them, knowing that they don't see you in the same light nor are they gay. Once in his car he banged his head against the steering wheel cursing himself and telling himself that he could never have Carlos, that if he knew how he truly felt that he would turn his back on him and their life long friendship would come to an end. Just as he started his car the song 'User Friendly' by Marilyn Manson went off which is the ring tone for this guy he meet a months back. (You can guess what kind of friend he is). He flipped the phone open, "Hello? Yeah, hey Mark, what's up? No man I can't meet you right now. No, no, I'm not going to see someone else. No, I'm going into the studio. Yeah, I guess I can meet you tonight. Alright, bye." He hang up his phone and threw it in the passenger seat once fully backed out of the drive way he turned on the radio and the song playing was 'I'm in Love With You' by Cassie. As the song played all Logan could do was think about everything that Carlos did to make him fall in love with him, there was his smile he loved the fact that he could see his canines it made him look like a vampire. Then there are his chocolate brown eyes. His brown skin and he really loved the way water danced on his skin and the way the rays of the sun let him up. He also loved how free spirited he is but it also means a lot to him that Carlos was the one who got him out of his parents house and talked him into coming to L.A with them. As Logan pulled into the parking spot in front of the Studio, he shook his head trying to erase his feelings for Carlos so he could sing his parts in the songs that Gustavo had written for them. Normally he would be recording the songs with the guys but he is going back to Minnesota in a few days and he is going to be there for a week. So instead of the guys waiting for to come back to record the songs he is gonna record his parts now then they will do theirs and the rest will be history. "Morning Logan." Kelly flashed him a smile. "Morning." Logan hung his head low, "Logan are you okay?" Kelly looked a him with quizful eyes. "Yeah I'm fine I just didn't get much sleep that's all." Logan lied to her. "Okay, well, Gustavo should be here in a little he is handling a call so you can just relax and wait for him." Kelly said. "Okay." Logan said he sat in a chair outside to recording studio as Kelly started to text someone on her phone.