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Just when I think updates are going to be quicker my damned computer decided to break on me. Luckily I didn't lose any of my work but it did take a while to fix it, as I'm sure you noticed.

Anyway, enjoy. xx

Chapter 39

I was just finishing off some warm down stretches, with Sasha gushing about how well I'd done in this class, when the phone sounded from the reception area.

"Sorry Alice, do you mind?" Sasha asked.

I shrugged "Of course not, we're pretty much finished here anyway." I assured her stretching my arms over my head, my body moving more fluidly and with less complaint than when I'd first started.

Rolling my shoulders a little I went to go change, when I came back out I found Sasha in a panic.

What's wrong?" I asked in alarm.

"Louise just quit on me." she whimpered.

Right, that made sense!

"Who's Louise?" I asked gently as she paced back and forth.

"She was a student here, and she said she was going to help with my new beginners class, but now she's just quit" she flipped through the diary on the desk frantically "I am never going to be able to find someone to cover by Saturday, and with the amount of kids signed up I need another person to help supervise."

"I could do it." the words were out before I really thought, but poor Sasha looked close to tears and I couldn't just do nothing.

She looked up at me in shock and I shrugged nervously.

"Just for this Saturday, until you find someone else. I mean it's not like I'd actually have to teach them anything right?"

She continued to just stare at me for a few minutes before launching herself at me, nearly knocking me over.

"Thank you. Thank you. Thank you." she repeated over and over whilst squeezing all the air from my lungs.

"It's nothing, honestly." I gasped out, careful disentangling myself from her. "So when is this class?" I asked quickly before she could hug me again.

"Saturday morning at ten. If you can be here for half nine that would be brilliant. It's only an hour long, so I wont be taking up all your Saturday." she beamed over at me "Alice, I cannot thank you enough."

I shrugged again, the amount of people who had given me a helping hand over the past year, I was more than happy to give something back "I'll see you Saturday." I called making a quick exit before she could thank me again.

As I walked home I wondered if Jasper would be okay with me working a Saturday.

I giggled a little, of course he would be, he was always okay with everything.

Sighing happily I thought back over these past seven weeks since we'd been married. It really had been perfect.

My smile suddenly fell, wait seven weeks?

I stumbled to a stop, oh shit!

I stared down at the calendar before me as though hoping I was wrong.

I counted off the weeks again and couldn't deny it, my period was three weeks late.

That was not good.

That was very not good.

"Shit!" I whimpered.

This couldn't be happening, we were being careful.

I drew in a shaky breath and looked over to the three pregnancy tests I'd just brought. I couldn't be pregnant, I just couldn't be.

Pulling my knees up to my chest I just sat on the sofa waiting for Jasper, this was not something I could do on my own.

"Alice? Alice, baby what's wrong?"

I looked up into Jasper's concerned face, he quickly placed Ellie down in her playpen before coming to sit beside me and wrapping me up in his arms. I buried my face in his chest just wanting to hide.

"Alice, please talk to me." he begged.

"I'm late." I mumbled.

He pushed me back to look at me confused.

"My period Jasper, I'm three weeks late." I explained in a shaky voice pointing at the pregnancy tests to help explain.

His eyes widened in understanding, and I collapsed back against his chest.

"Are you sure?" he asked softly.

My hand waved vaguely towards the calendar on the table "Pretty sure."

"No, I mean have you taken the test yet?"

Ice slithered through my veins, I wasn't sure what to make of Jasper's reaction, but this didn't seem all that positive.

"Not yet." I mumbled my arms tightened around him. "I was waiting for you."

"Okay, well that's what you need to do then." his voice was incredibly calm and it was really starting to worry me.

"What would you do if I was pregnant?" I asked, keeping my face hidden in his chest.

He sighed and I felt my heart plummet.

So much for learning from your mistakes Alice!

"Honestly." he began slowly "I'd be." he let out a small laugh "Ecstatic, over the moon, just thrilled. What about you?" he asked and I felt his lips press to my head.

"Scared." I muttered in a small voice before somehow finding the courage to look up at him. "It's just way too much, way too soon." I admitted.

He nodded understandingly "Let's just find out if you are before we start worrying okay?"

"Okay." I murmured, finally letting him go.

Jasper got Ellie sorted for bed whilst I sat drinking as much water as I could without throwing up, trying to force myself to pee so I could take the stupid tests and find out if I was pregnant.

It was a relief to know Jasper would actually be okay if I was pregnant, the problem was I knew I wouldn't be.

I loved Jasper and one day I would love to have his babies, just not yet. Everything had happened so fast for us, this was just too much.

I stared at the tests and felt my breathing begin to pick up as panic set in.

"Alice?"

"I can't do this." I gasped out.

My traditional response to just turn and run away threatened to overwhelm me but Jasper moved to sit next to me, the reassuring weight of his hand on my arm grounding me.

"Baby we need to know." he said softly.

"I know. I just…I can't do this, I can't be pregnant Jasper, I can't be." I screamed hysterically.

"You might not be." he said loudly.

I ignored him "There is still so much I want to do with my life, and I can barely cope with Ellie."

"Alice." Jasper yelled loudly finally gaining my attention "Just shut up for two seconds okay." he waited for me to nod "Okay, take the test." he pushed them towards me "Lets just find out if you're pregnant before we start panicking."

To be on the safe side I took all three tests.

Three minutes had never felt longer as we sat waiting.

"You know you don't need to worry about anything don't you?" Jasper murmured keeping his arms tight around me as we counted down the seconds.

"How can I not worry?" I asked a little sharply. Then sighed knowing I was probably hurting him by the way I was acting "It's not that I don't want more kids Jasper, I want to have your kids, I do. I just need some time first you know, time to find my place." I shook my head "Maybe I'm being selfish, but I at least want to try having my own life first."

"I can understand that, this isn't exactly the best timing. But you have me now baby, you don't have to do this all on your own anymore I'll help you. If you wanted I'd quite my job and be a househusband, it's not like I need to work."

I looked up at him in shock "You'd do that?" I asked.

"Baby just because you're the one who'll have to carry the baby for nine months and give birth doesn't mean you have to do everything on your own." he kissed me softly "Not this time."

Closing my eyes for a second I leant into his support, maybe this wouldn't be quite the big disaster I was picturing, not now I had Jasper.

Looking up I smiled at him he gave me a small smile in return "I've told you a hundred times Alice, my family means a hell of a lot more to me than my job. I've had a pretty exciting life, so I'd happily sit back now and take care of my family, which includes letting you have the chance to live your dreams."

I smiled a little, he really was perfect, but it also kind of made me feel like a bitch, like I was putting myself before my family. That's not what I wanted, I just needed a couple more years.

I loved my job, but I didn't want to wait tables for the rest of my life, I needed to find myself before I could focus on raising a family.

I leapt out of my skin as the alarm went off signalling my three minutes were up.

Jasper was looking at me, but I was being a coward as usual "I can't." I whimpered turning to bury my face in his chest again.

With a sigh I felt him lean forward and held my breath.

His lips pressed to my head "They're all negative baby." he murmured.

I whipped around to double check and let out a sigh of relief, I wasn't pregnant. For once my prayers had been answered.

Turing back to Jasper I felt a little guilty at how relieved I felt.

"Are you disappointed?" I asked softly.

He shook his head "No, not really. One day I defiantly want you to have my babies." he grinned at me "But for now I'm fine just practising."

I giggled, feeling light with relief "One day I will have as many babies as you want." I promised stretching up to kiss him.

"For now, I think you're right, we have more than enough with Ellie." Jasper sighed as she started crying, breaking our moment.

As much as I knew Jasper understood me, better than anyone, and he was okay with how things had worked out, I still felt bad for how I had reacted.

Everything had just happened so fast, we had only technically been together for a year, we were married and about to move into our first proper home together. Adding a baby to the mix was just too much right now.

In all the stress I forgot to tell Jasper about Saturday until Friday night when Sasha rang to confirm it was still okay.

As suspected Jasper was total fine.

"Me and Ellie can have some bonding time." he joked, not that they needed it, Ellie adored Jasper. If I wasn't so happy about that I'd probably have been a little jealous.

As Saturday dawned I was feeling really nervous, I liked to think I was good with kids, but how would I actually cope having to help look after a large group of them?

"You'll do fine baby." Jasper assured as he made me breakfast.

"I guess it's only for one day." I said.

I arrived at the studio just after half nine to find Sasha a lot more relaxed than she'd been the other day.

"Hey Alice, you ready?" she asked with a smile.

I couldn't help but smile back "Not really." I laughed "What exactly am I meant to do?"

Sasha rolled her eyes at me "Just make sure they don't hurt each other, and help if they need it." she smiled reassuringly "Alice you'll be fine. They're only little."

I laughed nervously "Yeah but so am I." I pointed out.

I changed into my ballet clothes and went to wait with Sasha in the reception. All too soon the place started filling with people.

"This is going to be fun." Sasha commented sarcastically before one snobby looking women descended on her to start demanding only the best for her 'little angel'.

I turned away rolling my eyes as the little 'darling' in question stormed over to start complaining about something.

And I was worried Ellie would grow up spoilt!

"Don't worry, they're usually the first to quite." Sasha whispered with a wink as we made our way into the studio.

The lesson was actually really fun, I ended up with two little shadows as a couple of girls seemed to take to me and followed me everywhere.

It was actually really cute, and looking after them helped get rid of my nerves.

"Point your toes." I reminded Emily, one of my shadows, as Sasha showed them some basic positions.

She did as she was told beaming up at me as I gave her encouragement.

As much as I didn't want Ellie to grow up, part of me couldn't wait until she was this age and we'd have a little more interaction.

"So that wasn't so bad was it." Sasha grinned at me as the class ended and I let out a sigh of relief that I'd survived.

"Bye Miss Alice." Emily called waving at me as her mum led her out "See you next week."

My smile fell a little, I'd forgotten I had only been doing Sasha a favour this week. I glanced over to see her smiling at me.

"You did well today." she said "And I do need a helper if you're up for it."

"But I'm not trained." I pointed out.

Sasha shrugged "You don't have to be. I'm the teacher after all. If you don't want to that's fine, I can get someone else for next Saturday, but the jobs yours if you want it."

I gaped for a few moments "Can I let you know." I finally asked.

She nodded "Of course, but no later than Monday, incase I do need to find someone."

I walked home in a kind of daze, I wasn't sure how to feel.

Sure I'd rather enjoyed today, but did I really want it to be a regular thing?

"Bye Miss Alice. See you next week."

Emily's beaming face swam in my head and I really didn't want to let her down by not being there.

The second I got home I forgot about my worries for a moment as I caught Jasper rolling around on the floor like an idiot with Ellie.

I giggled loudly bringing his attention to me.

"Hey." he jumped up immediately with Ellie in his arms "I didn't expect you back this soon."

"Yeah I can tell." I said still laughing.

Jasper shrugged "She wanted to play." he said not quite looking at me.

I smiled as Ellie gazed up at Jasper with adoration, she was completely besotted with him.

"Have you been having fun?" I asked them both.

Ellie nodded with a giggle, Jasper shrugged again.

I bit my lip then pressed on "How would you feel if this became a regular thing?"

Frowning Jasper placed Ellie down on the floor with her toys before moving to sit on the sofa, I followed sitting beside him.

"What became a regular thing?" he asked.

"Me working at the dance studio on a Saturday morning." I clarified, watching his face to try and judge his response.

He seemed surprised, but not in a bad way.

"Sasha just offered it to me, if I wanted it."

"Do you want it?" he asked.

I shrugged "I don't know, I mean I enjoyed today." I looked up at him "Would you mind if I worked Saturdays?"

He smiled reassuringly "Baby it's not like it's the whole day, and it will give me and Ellie some father daughter bonding time."

I rolled my eyes "Like you need that."

He just shrugged again "Is this something you want to do?" he asked me.

I thought about that for a few moments "Yeah." I finally answered.

"Then for a couple of hours a week I'm sure me and Ellie can entertain ourselves." he said with a smile wrapping an arm around my shoulder and pulling me to him so my head rested on his chest.

"I'm sure she'll love it." I sighed as Ellie cried out demanding Jasper's attention again.

Watching the two of them playing made me feel like a spare part and I couldn't stay in the same room, I needed to do something.

Shaking my head I stood up and went to start cleaning the bathroom at a pointless attempt to keep busy.

I was being stupid and I knew it and I needed to get over it.

"You okay?" Jasper asked from the doorway.

I nodded, not looking at him.

"Have I done something?" he asked hesitantly.

"No." I cut him off quickly and turned to face him stretching up so I could kiss him "Never." I promised.

His hands rubbed up and down my arms soothingly and I decided to just tell him the truth. It was stupid, but this was Jasper, he'd understand.

"I just feel a little left out at times. I mean it's always you she wants now and I'm just the person who's no fun and makes her eat vegetables." I mumbled, feeling bad admitting that, because I wanted Ellie and Jasper to be close like this.

Jasper chuckled softly and kissed me "Baby you will always be her mum, I am never going to replace you. I'm just the shiny new toy that does whatever she wants and lets her eat ice cream, because I just don't know how to say no to her."

I glared up at him "Please tell me you don't give her ice cream." I growled out.

Jasper laughed "No I don't, I was just trying to explain. Trust me when she gets older I'll be the one who's no fun because I wont let her go out, and will point blank refuse to let her have a boyfriend until she's thirty."

I giggled a little feeling much better as he held me.

"I'm sorry I still get so insecure over the stupidest things." I sighed, our court date was fast approaching and I felt bad bringing this up incase he thought I didn't want him to adopt her now or something.

As usual though I needn't have worried, he got me.

"We're still figuring everything out Alice, it's all still new to us, but everything is going to be fine. We're in this together as a family and we'll be fine."

Jasper knew exactly what to say to make everything okay, as long as I had him I knew I'd be fine, we'd be fine.

We were a family, and that's really all that mattered.

I had a couple of reviewers wanting baby Jasper's so I added the pregnancy scare to explain why I wont be doing that in the actual story.

Anyway, I apologise again for the wait.

Let me know what you think. xx