Author's Notes: I started this story a little while ago and I seem to be just dropping in and out of it when I have a moment. As always a big thanks to my beta JenJenSon.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight, the characters and all that jazz and I make no money from this story.

Addicted

Wrong

Carlisle POV

It was around 2am I was supposed to be finishing my shift now but instead I was heading to A&E to treat the next load of patients through the doors.

"What's the situation down here?" I asked the nurse on the way towards the emergency room.

"Dr Lawrence is taking room one, room two is a woman early twenties with heavy blood loss." The nurse said, handing me the papers.

"Thanks." I replied, heading into the room. Nothing could have prepared me for what I saw. It was Bella. Even with the huge change in clothes and appearance, I would recognise her anywhere.

She was different now, she skirt and top were black and barely there at all, I could see several piercings on her body and her hair had been dyed. She was a different girl from the one we left behind.

I tried to remain objective and looked across her injuries. I could only find one obvious injury. Her wrist had been cut and a lot of blood had been lost. The strange thing was that the wound didn't seem big enough for the amount of blood she had lost but I could find no other wound.

If I didn't know better I'd say the blood had been sucked out of her, which would explain the unusual bruising around the wound; however there was no bite mark and no evidence of vemon being to turn her. So it was a mystery.

I replaced some of the blood she had lost and hooked up an IV before another quick check over and sent her to a room to recover.

10am same day...

I arrived back at the hospital early. I had deliberately arrived an hour earlier than I needed to be there so that I had time to check on Bella. I made it my first stop of the morning.

My heart lurched as I saw the pale girl in the bed. I had really feared for her life last night. If she had been brought in much later I would have had to abduct her and turn her or she would have died.

I went and sat on the chair by the bed for a moment just content to sit and wait. I glanced at her personal belongings on the side table. The fact that they were just sat on top of the table meant that she must have woken up at some point since I'd left last night. Relief ran through me, then I had the feeling I was being watched. I was.

"Bella you're awake." I smiled. "How do you feel?"

"Carlisle?" she asked, "Why are you here?"

"I was checking on you. I treated you last night, it was a close call." I replied.

"Is it really you? Are you really here?" she asked, sitting up in the bed.

"Of course." I replied.

"Come here." She whispered. I obeyed, leaning forward in the chair closer to the bed. She reached out and touched my shirt. She obvously still wasn't convinced I was really there. Not the I blamed her, I hadn't expected to see her either.

"Would you like to explain what happened last night?" I asked. Suddenly it was like shutters came down on her. She completely closed herself off and her face gave nothing away.

"Nothing, I cut myself by accident." She said evenly. I knew she was lying with every breath but didn't push the subject. She definately wasn't quite the same Bella we'd left back in Washington.

"I hope you feel better Bella." I smiled, standing and leaving her room.

Bella POV

I didn't know what to think about seeing Carlisle. At first I thought I was dreaming. The I was happy to see him, but then embarassed, upset and angry; just as much at myself as I was at him. I was in one hell of a state; not just by ending up at A&E. My whole life was a goddamned mess.

Not to mention Carlisle's presence would probably mean that the rest of them weren't far away. I had to get out of here. I didn't want to see any of them, didn't want to know them...not now.

I forced down the retched food that the nurse was adament that I have for breakfast and then got dressed and headed to the nurses station to get discharged. Actually they didn't want to discharge me so I had to sign a bunch of paperwork to discharge myself.

Just as I reached the last page the paper was pulled from the reception desk in front of me.

"I wasn't finished with that." I sighed, turning to face the blonde doctor I knew would be behind me.

"I am well aware of that." He replied easily. He reached out and touched my cheek. His hands were cool and comforting just as I remembered. I had forgotten how dazzling their golden eyes were. "Go back to bed Bella."

"I'm fine." I said calmly.

"You are most certainly not fine, you lost a lot of blood Bella go back to bed and we'll dicuss you going home this afternoon." He said.

As much as he meant well the way the compassionate doctor always had; I couldn't handle him telling me what to do. He had done that. He had taken my choices away from me, left me, not letting me decide for myself, and I wasn't going to let his "father" tell me what to do now.

"Bite me." I said, walking away. He caught my good arm and stopped me. He was standing very close behind me now, I could feel his cold hard body against my back and I could smell that sweet scent that they all had. I didn't want to think about who it was having this affect on me. Stupid vampires and all their stupid lures.

"Minutes later and I would have had to." He breathed in my ear. I felt a slight twinge of guilt at the sadness in his voice, but my anger won out.

"Better luck next time then." I said, pulling away from him and walking towards the exit. I didn't look back, I didn't want to look back. I didn't want to see any of them again.

….

That night I dreamt of Carlisle Cullen; but what started as a pleasant dream didn't end up that way. He and I were sat together, talking and laughing but then I saw him. Edward.

He attacked Carlisle and then Carlisle vanished. I was left in the woods with Edward just like that day. I was helpless to do anything as I watched history repeat itself and Edward left me alone in the woods. I shouted after him and ran and ran into the darkness until I woke up screaming.

After Edward left me, he had left me in my dreams every night for nearly the next year. They had stopped eventually but only because other nightmares took their place. Things that would haunt me forever.

I crawled out of bed and up off of the mattress and looked around me. It wasn't much but it was home. I lived in an old hotel which was now several bedsit rooms that were rented out. Everyone in the block kept to themselves and I only knew one of the other people in the whole block. Kitty was a few years younger than me but had had it even worse than I had. Where as I had drawn lines for what I would and wouldn't do for money, Kitty hadn't. She was the most worldly nineteen year old I had ever met.

Carlisle POV

What had happened to her? What had turned Bella into this...almost stranger? I had to know. I felt partially responsible. I had never gone back to Forks, never checked to see what damage had been done by our sudden departure.

I would need help to get inside Bella's head and Bella certainly wasn't going to be telling me anything in the immediate future. So I called the only other person I thought might be able to help me.

"Carlisle." Came the voice on the other end.

"I need your help with something Alice." I told her.

"I know. I'm on my way." She replied and hung up.

Four hours later...

I heard the doorbell and went to answer it. Sure enough there stood Alice. She greeted me with a hug as she always had and always would.

"How is everyone?" I asked.

"Same as always. Emmett and Rose will be joining Jazz and I next month for a while." She replied.

"And them?" I asked, knowing she would know.

"She's happy Carlisle." Alice replied, knowing that was all I needed to hear. "Now tell me about this help you wanted."

"It's Bella." I told her.

"I know, I saw you go to visit her in hospital, what happened?" she asked.

"That's the part I don't know." I replied. "I was wondering if you could help me with that."

"So you ask someone who sees the future to find out what happened in the past...Carlisle I thought you were smarter than this." She grinned.

"She's a different person Alice. Something has happened to her that she isn't telling me and it's niggling at me." I said.

"Well, considering that she hasn't seen you for four years I'm not surprised she isn't filling you in on her lifestory so far." Alice smirked.

"But Alice this is something unusual. She arrved in A&E last night with what appeared to be a knife wound on her wrist and she'd lost a severe amount of blood...but the cut wasn't big enough to cause the blood loss she had. Something isn't adding up." I sighed, running my hand through my hair. "Sometimes people's pasts affect their decisions for their future so I was hoping you could keep an eye on her future and see if you can find anything helpful."

"I'll do my best." She replied. "Do you want to hear something strange?"

"Go on, surprise me." I smiled.

"My vision of Bella being one of us...it never went away when we left." She said, hovering in the doorway. "I just thought it was strange."

"Have you heard anything from him? Seen anything?" I blurted out, unable to stop myself asking. She just shook her head sadly.

"I'll ring you if I find anything." She said. "Goodbye Carlisle."

I watched her leave. I couldn't help but feel a sadness thinking about my family. The amount of pain our leaving Forks had caused was something none of us had thought possible; not just Bella, though she undoubtedly did suffer. Our family had been torn apart after we left. No more than six months after we had left Washington we had all separated and gone our own ways. No one had been able to agree on what was the best thing to do; the way it was handled, things that should have been said and done differently, things that couldn't be changed.

Author's Notes: Hope you're not too bored but it's important to try and fit in all the facts and build up. xx