Well, life sucks. At least for me, it does. So basically this is why. I have two guys in my life. And I'm in love with both of them. Or should I say I'm more in love with one more than the other, but still the love is there for both of them. Guy numero uno, Dimitri Belikov. He's a twenty four year old god, dhamphir turned strigoi turned back dhampir, makes me feel like dying for just looking at him and he USED to love me. He was my soulmate, but because he thinks I deserve better he decided, for the both of us without consulting me, that we were never meant to be. Even if I lost my virginity to him and I saved his life, but that's Dimitri. Guy numero dos, Adrian Ivashkov. He's a twenty one year old royal Moroi, who is in love with me, deals with my problems, super kind when I don't deserve it and still makes my heart beat fast. Oh, did I mention he was my boyfriend too? I admit I love him and maybe that's why I'm in his dorm room having a party, with about thirty other dhamphirs and Moroi as well.

"Rose, come on. Dance with us, please!" Lissa was getting on my last nerve. I didn't want to dance because whoever was in charge of the music sucks.

"This music sucks. And I'm surprised no novices have came barging in yet to tell us to put it down," I replied, I was not going to dance to rock. Period.

"Fine, then go put on your dance playlist! Then will you dance with us?" I replied with a grunt and went over to the speakers.

"Little Dhampir, why are you messing up the music?" I spun on my heel and nearly collided heads with the guy I was trying to find for the last hour. Our faces were so close, I'm pretty sure our noses touched. My heart started to beat fast just looking at those beautiful emerald eyes.

"Adrian. I'm not messing it up, I'm fixing it. This crap you call music, is awful. You can't dance to Gavin DeGraw." I pressed play on the iPod, gave him a quick peck on the cheek, grabbed his hand and we walked back to our friends.

"Ok guys let's dance!" When no one moved a muscle, I proceeded to put Adrian's arm around my waist, grab Eddie's hand (who was attached to Mia), grab Lissa's hand (who was attached to Christian) and drag everyone onto the Dancefloor. Then the familiar piano part of Love Like Woe started and I was off. My body started to jump up and down regardless of the 4 inch heels I had on.

Woe oh, oh, oh!
Woe oh, oh, oh!
I kinda feel like it don't make, like it don't make
Feel like it don't make sense

My hips started moving side to side and automatically my head cleared and all I could focus was dancing. And by the look of it, everyone was doing the same.
I'm thinking baby you and I are undeniable
But I'm finding now love's unreliable
I'm given all I got to make you stay
Or am I just a roadblock in your way?
I felt the grinding almost instantly, but I didn't mind. If anything I enjoyed that Adrian was dancing with me. I threw one of my famous man-eater smiles over my shoulder, heard his voice get caught in his throat and then focused on the grinding.
'Cause your a pretty little windstorm
Out on the boulevard
Something like a sunset
Oh, you're a shooting star
And I might drive myself insane
If those lips aren't speaking my name
I looked up at Lissa and noticed her laughing. She was having so much fun, Christian was making her laugh. I saw Mia with Eddie, but by the looks of it…best I not describe it.
'Cause I got some intuition
Or maybe I'm superstitious
But I think you're a pretty sweet pill that I'm swallowing down
To counter this addiction
You got me on a mission
Tell me darling can I get a break, some how
Can I say no?
I turned around putting my hand around Adrian's neck. He smiled and we kept on dancing as me, cutting the distance between us, was no big deal.
She's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
Girl's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
(Ba da da)
I kinda feel like it don't make sense
Because you're bringing me in
And now you're kicking me out again
Not looking at Adrian, I thought about how those words were very relatable….
Love so strong (Woe oh oh oh)
Then you moved on (Woe oh oh oh)
Now I'm hung up in suspense
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again
No wonder I bought the damn song in the first place. Catchy and it says my whole love life in three lines. HA! I cleared my mind, turned away from Adrian and focused on how the rhythm pulsed through my body.
It's like a hurricane
Speed train
She's a moving car
Go catch her in the fast lane
Oh I gotta know
Can I keep up with her pace?
Kick it into gear when I see that face
I looked at Lissa and started to shake my booty in her direction. She burst into giggles as Christian and I made a sandwich around her and then I joined the laugh when Adrian, Mia and Eddie joined this long line of grinders.
You can take up all my time 'cause you're the only one
That can make a storm cloud break
Pulling out the sun
And I can get caught in the rain
Can I get your lips to speak my name?
Just to tease him, I backed up into Adrian hard and yelled, "Adrian!" He laughed at me and kissed me real quick. My lips were still tingling and I noticed I had a smile over myself…guess I enjoyed that more than I thought.
'Cause I got some intuition
Or maybe I'm superstitious
But I think you're a pretty sweet pill that I'm swallowing down
To counter this addiction
You got me on a mission
Tell me darling can I get a break, some how
Can I say no?
Why do I feel like someone is watching me? I looked at Lissa, but she was too busy with Christian so she didn't notice my panicked face.
She's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
Girl's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
(Ba da da)
I kinda feel like it don't make sense
'Cause you're bringing me in
And now you're kicking me out again
I searched for the eyes that were boring into my skin, but failed miserably when people kept jumping up and down.
Love so strong (Woe oh oh oh)
Then you moved on (Woe oh oh oh)
Now I'm hung up in suspense
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again
And then I saw them. Dark brown and filled with hurt, discomfort, longing and so much more. I smirked at his face and with all my strength turned away from Dimitri and put all my mind on dancing with everyone.
Because we only have one life
The timing in the moment
All seem so right
So would you say you're mine? (We'll be just fine)
Would you say you're mine? (We'll be just fine)
I looked into Adrian's eyes and it looked like he was actually me the question. Am I his? "Yes…" I answered. And then the chorus started and the crowd started to jump.
She's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
Girl's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
(Ba da da)
I gotta feel like it don't make sense
'Cause you're bringing me in
And now you're kicking me out again
Clapping to the beat, I looked over if I could see the eyes that were still watching me. Nothing.
Love so strong (Woe oh oh oh)
Then you moved on (Woe oh oh oh)
Now I'm hung up in suspense
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again
Giving up, I just joined the crowd and jumped to the beat.
She's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
Girl's got a love like woe (Woe oh oh oh)
(Ba da da)
I kinda feel like it don't make sense
'Cause you're bringing me in
And now you're kicking me out again
And with a quick spin, Adrian dropped and kissed me. It was great, but there was something more and I just couldn't get enough of him.
Love so strong (Woe oh oh oh)
Then you moved on (Woe oh oh oh)
Now I'm hung up in suspense
Because you're bringing me in
And then you're kicking me out again.

The song ended and still the kiss was happening. Adrian was the first to break away, but from the surprised look on my face, he kissed me quick and then held my hand. After dancing or should I say grinding from what I've been doing with Adrian, I grabbed Lissa's hand and went to the bathroom. After fixing my makeup, I took one last look at my outfit. The gold/black bandeau top with a vest on top and matching black pants and boots definitely looked good on me. (All pictures and URLS are on my profile) With a quick fix on Lissa's outfit (profile), her shirt kept riding up and we wanted it to go down, we walked back to see that someone had set up KAROKE. Ugh. Through the bond I could feel Lissa's excitement to which I replied, "If you do it, I'll do it." And with that, she went to go sing "Get Outta My Way" by Kylie Minogue (On Profile). The song was completely cute. She was so calling out Christian. The fool was blushing until I was pretty sure his cheeks were going to go up in flames. Adrian and I were just laughing and clapping with Lissa. Then the dreaded time came. It was my turn. I chose "Push Push" by Kat Deluna (profile) just to see how the boys would react to my words. With a little smile and last shot down my throat I stood in front of the crowd.

I see you dancin' with every girl
Lookin' for someone to rock your world
I'm checkin' your body, it's lookin' right
Boy I can tell that you go all night
I winked at Adrian and did a body roll that earned a good few whistles and hollers from around the room.
Sweet boy, I just wanna be your fantasy, boy
If you want it boy you gotta push push baby
Don't stop for a minute
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh oh

As I looked into the crowd I saw about every guy's mouth hitting the floor. Wow…testerone never fails. I looked over at Adrian, who looked like he had died and gone to heaven. His eyes were never leaving me. I started dancing which drove into some more hollering and then grabbed Lissa and Mia and dragged them up on the stage.
I said push push baby
Take it to the limit
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh oh
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh [4x]
Mia and Lissa decided to sandwich me and with that I kept up the singing. And I swear every boy there was mesmerized.
Push it baby just the way I like (you know I want it)
Pick me up and take me for a ride (you know I want it)
Sexy body don't you wanna turn me out (you know I want it)
When I hop into it, take me to the crowd
Oh oh oh ohh
I dropped my body, making sexy movements and the entire time I was staring at Adrian. With every move I made it's like I could see the hunger in his eyes go stronger. Little did I know, that the eyes I once saw…were still watching me.
Sweet boy, I just wanna be your fantasy, boy
If you want it boy you gotta push push baby
Don't stop for a minute
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh oh
I said push push baby
Take it to the limit
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh [4x]
With one pull, I dragged Eddie on the stage and handed him the mike. He knew the words like the back of his mind. I had almost forgotten that this song had a male part in it. My bad.
[Akon]
I like the one lottery which I'm 'bout to go get my claim on
Dam, you look like a perfect picture 'bout to go get my frame on
Lookin' like the type I've been searchin' for to put my last name on
Come on closer with yo umbrella cause you're 'bout to get rained on
Clap it up baby keep on clapping
Back it up by the way you're stacking
Kat Deluna is now the captain and Akon wanna know what's cracking

Giving sexy moves here and there, then finally I headed over with Mia and Lissa and started to dance around Eddie, who had turned as red as a tomato. And almost every guy was looking so envious as him. When he finished he jumped off stage with Mia and Lissa in hand.
Push push baby
Don't stop for a minute
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh
I said push push baby
Take it to the limit
Ooh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh
I finished by dancing with the rest of my friends and with Adrian. Dimitri didn't enter my mind at all, for which I was grateful, but I didn't know that he was watching me from across the room.
Push push baby
Don't stop for a minute
Oh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh
I said push push baby
Take it to the limit
Ooh oh, oh oh, ooh oh oh, oh oh
Oh oh oh oh, oh oh oh oh [4x]

I gave a bow and went over to Lissa. "Rose! You were great! Oh, and nice song choice." Her voice was sarcastic, but I knew from her face that she was feigning it.

"Haha! You loved it! And so did Eddie." Our entire group looked over at him and when he noticed he immediately blushed and mumbled, "Sure, I guess. I'm going to go change the song." And he nearly ran towards the speakers.

Lissa laughed and said, "Hey Adrian, don't you love this song? I'm pretty sure it's your favorite." We heard Shots from LMFAO playing and then Adrian laughed.

"Very funny, Lissa." He replied, but his eyes never left me and my stomach did that flippy thing. As I was about to ask him to dance, the music abruptly stopped and we looked over at about ten novices, who were in their pajamas still. I snapped my head down. I didn't want to scan the cluster of guardians and accidentally see Dimitri.

"Alrite! Party is over! We've heard over twenty complains from this dorm house about loud music, so everyone out!" As everyone filed out, I pulled Lissa and Eddie aside and told them to help clean up.

"Rose, come on! I wanna get some sleep!" Eddie nearly whined.

"Oh now you're sleepy." With one long hard stare, Eddie complied and so did the rest of our gang. As the novices all left, I noticed that one stood at the doorway watching. Without looking, I dropped all the cups into the nearest trash bag then went to the bedroom to take care of the damage there. After picking up about eighty condom wrappers and about twenty liquor bottles, I noticed there was another person in the room.
"Are you going to help or just stand there?" My voice shook and I was honestly praying that it wasn't Dimitri.

"Hmm, little dhamphir if I had known cleaning up would get you temperamental I wouldn't have let you in the first place." Adrian. Thank. God. I let go of my breathe and immediately relaxed. He walked over slowly and wound his arms around me. He tilted my chin up with one finger and kissed me. It was short and sweet, but it felt like he was teasing me.

"Better? Here Rose why don't you go home. You cleaned up enough already. I'll see you tomorrow." And then he turned around and started to pick up more trash. I watched him for ten seconds and before I knew it I was right behind him. I took his hands, spun him around, pinned him to the wall and kissed him. Slowly, I felt all the hunger and lust I'd seen during karaoke. My hands were in his shirt already and gripping him hard. His hands were traveling my body and pulling me to his body. His hands were everywhere and suddenly, they were gone. I opened my eyes and saw him smiling at me.

"What?" I nearly screamed, I was enjoying it and I needed him to touch me.

"Rose, it's late. Plus you're sort of drunk. Just a little. I think we'll continue this conversation when you're sober." He said touching my face, tracing it slowly.

"Is that it? Or do you just don't…you don't want me?" The question even surprised myself. I didn't even know it came it out of his mouth until his eyes turned to very still. He looked into my eyes and might have liked what he saw because next thing you know we were back to kissing.

"Little Dhamphir, that isn't fair. I want you, but sober. And you are making that very hard for me, especially looking at me all innocently and everything." I smiled at him and then grabbed my stuff.

"Alrighty then. See you tomorrow. Here. And don't invite anyone." With a last kiss and man eater smile, I ducked out of the room. It looked as if Lissa and Eddie went home because everyone was gone. Maybe that's why Adrian came to help me. I was the last one. Ha. I walked into the cold night, walking over to my dorm. After taking a shower and putting on my…pajamas…if you can call it that (profile). I ducked into the covers and was just about to close my eyes when there was a knock on my door.