"I wasted time, and now doth time waste me."

Richard II Act V, Scene V

It's hard to believe that Andy's gone, and I can't believe how much time I wasted. It seems that it was just yesterday that we were sitting in the garden having tea parties. Everything has changed now. She left with that mudblood and somehow I know that it is my fault. Maybe if I had paid more attention to her behavior towards others when I was still at Hogwarts I would have noticed she took a liking to that filth. Cissy thinks it's all her fault and it isn't, if it's anyone's its mine. I still remember those words she spoke to me before she left with him at the train station.

"I'll prove to you Bella that you're wrong; that muggle-borns aren't as bad as you think." She made it sound as if I was the bad guy; the person who had done wrong, but in truth I was just being a good girl; I was making the family proud. Maybe if I hadn't joined the Dark Lord she would have stayed. When I showed her my mark last summer she freaked out and told me I was a fool.

"He's a mad man Bella, what have you done?" She ran off crying and I rolled my eyes and asked myself why she always was so overdramatic. It's now that I realize she was worrying about her mudblood boyfriend. It's hard to believe that the girl I grew up with and once loved is now off in bed with a piece of filth. I have nightmares where I see her walking down the aisle to him and then I see a glimpse of their wedding night. There's always her in her wedding dress and him in boxers. I wake up as soon as he pulls the zipper down the back of her dress. It's one of the scariest dreams I've ever experience.

Mum and dad won't speak about what happened they just go around the house doing their everyday chores. Cissy is distressed and the only way she calms down is if the Malfoy boy comes over. There is still the aura of wrong floating around the house though. It's as if someone has died and they're still here. Today is the only day I find an actual recognition that something bad has happened.

I walk into my father's study to ask him a question about the dark arts only to find him crying. My father and the words crying do not go together. I can't believe that he is actually showing emotions it's something that he's never done before. I walk to him and hug him and he hugs me back.

"Bellatrix I love you, you know that right." I nod and he looks away from me.

"What that blood traitor did to us is not acceptable and therefore to ensure the family name is not tarnished again you will be marrying Rodolphus Lestrange later this summer." I nod and can't help but smile. I want to marry Rodolphus we've been dating for years and it's about time we tied the knot. "I know you won't let me down Bellatrix." He motions for me to leave and as I walk out of the room I don't think of my upcoming wedding, but of father crying. He knows as well as I do that we wasted time with Andy. Now we have to beat time, but I know I won't be able to. I will always live knowing that my sister is off with a mudblood somewhere. That burn mark on the tapestry not only burned the family name, but my heart. That mark will always be there and time will not remove it.