I'M SORRRRRYYYYYY! I know, I know I haven't been updating my stories. I actually am trying to get into a new program and to get into it I need to get at least 80. I only took the prerequisites for this class in night school and summer school because I hadn't planned on going into this field and well, I have no idea what I'm doing. Sigh. Anyways I have two tests and two assignments do every week. Plus extra things such as labs, extra assignments and let's not forget to include readings. I'm a huge party person and I've been staying home like a hermit looking at my papers and pulling out my hair because honestly I don't understand what how a sideways M means sum, or how to determine standard deviation from a dot pot. I haven't even taken math in 3 years. I'm an English poetry/ art major. You can put any painting in front of me and i can tell you the year, artist, what paints he used and what the painting means, but once you ask me to figure out the relative frequency of a histogram in context to the 'symmetrical' skewed right and left bars. Well… I've been trying to figure out what that means for like 20 min now.

So please take pity on me, I will update when I can.

Kaname leaned his head against the door. He couldn't believe the orange haired boy was with Zero again. 'What happened? Did Zero let that man touch him? I know I said no sex but he wouldn't be that upset by it to get it from that guy again would he? I just locked the door, he wouldn't just crawl into the arms of someone else, would he?'

Anger flared through Kaname's body. He needed answers and he expected them now. He threw open the door and knocked loudly on Zero's. After a few moments of no reply he was sure that Zero had passed out after a long night of passion and knocked again louder than before. 'I'm going to wake that undead creature up if it's the last thing that I do. I'm going to give him a piece of my mind and—…but what would I say? Zero's not in a relationship with me… we have no devotion to each other. In fact, I told him no more sex. He could have taken that to mean I didn't want a relationship of any sort.' He heard a shuffle from inside the room. 'Zero has no reason to stay as just my mate. I can't say anything to him.'

He began to back away from the door and into his own room when the latch swung open and Zero's face poked out.

'He looks awful, what the hell happened to him. Did that guy beat him up?' Kaname forgot all his anger and concern graced his face, "Are you alright?"

The silver haired teen opened the door wider, leaning his head against the edge to make the dizziness stop. "Yeah, I'm fine."

His words contradicted the look of his body. His normally pale skin was littered in bruises and cuts. Kaname could smell the think scent of blood coming from his head, "Did that guy you were fucking beat you up? Should I take you to the hospital?" His words were almost spat as anger and concern mixed to become one.

Zero just raised an eyebrow at him, "Guy I'm fucking?"

"I saw him leave here… do I have to take you to the hospital Zero? Yes or no?"

"I don't have any money for the hospital. I told you I'm fine, and you should really get your facts straight. Kain was already in my house when I got home; he put me to bed. I tried your place but your door was locked. What do you want me to do about that? You were the one who locked me out." He moved away from the door angrily and prepared to slam it in the pompous pureblood's face but a foot stopped it and a moment later Zero felt himself hit the wall on the far side of the room. Lips were pressed to his and a strong hand wrapped around his neck, keeping their mouths connected.

Kaname pulled away, his eyes holding a darker crimson tinge. "I don't want to see him around here ever again… you are mine."

Zero took a long gulp, the darkness in Kaname's eyes was frightening, the eyes of a killer. He couldn't swallow his words though; he was never one to show fear or acceptance of anything, "You can't tell me what to do. I can be with whoever I want. "

Zero looked straight into the churning crimson eyes. Then with a growl he found himself bouncing on his bed, the lumps in the mattress only aggravating his wounds. Kaname was over him pinning his arms above his head. "Tell me the truth, who is he to you?"

"He's whoever I fucking want him to be," Zero forced his head up and glared into menacing eyes.

Kaname responded by pounding his restricted hands into the mattress and roaring, "Who IS he to you? Give me a straight answer and I swear I will leave you alone."

Zero gulped his head was still off due to the drugs as well as his fall; he was trapped and fighting with a pureblood. His gun wasn't even on this side of the room. There was no better option than to give in. 'If I push too many buttons I don't know what he could do.' Zero exhaled and tilted his head down so he wouldn't have to look into those eyes as he spoke. "He's a friend; he brings me drugs sometimes for sexual favors. I don't have any feeling for him other than finding him to be a good friend and useful for when I'm bored. He's a good companion."

Kaname's voice softened as he looked down at Zero ashamed face, "And who am I to you?"

The silver haired teen stayed silent, and Kaname felt his deep rage begin to burn once more, but he calmed himself as he looked at Zero's composed posture. He had the teen's hands pinned roughly above his head the fingertips turning pink from loss of circulation so he loosened his hold slightly. The side of the younger's neck with the strange tattoo was exposed by his downturned head leaving Zero vulnerable to attack, the pureblood began nibbling on the exposed neck before licking the curve of the ex-hunter's ear and whispering, "Tell me Zero, who am I to you?"

Zero let out a low moan; the drugs making him more interactive and truthful then he wished he was. He stuttered out his words, happy for the soft touches and not wanting Kaname to stop, "You are important to me, I get a strange feeling around you and I never want it to stop."

Kaname pulled away and looked into the pools of amethyst to check for truthfulness. The teen just groaned as his attempt to keep Kaname continuing with the kisses failed. The pureblood halted because of the words he had used instead of abiding to his silent wish.

"Why do you do drugs Zero? You're better than that."

Zero was frustrated that the kisses had stopped, his head was pounding and Kaname was plaguing him with questions, "I'm an addict, that's why. Now are you going to fuck me or let me go to bed? Because I'm good either way."

Kaname got off the bed leaving the silver haired teen disappointed that the pureblood was refusing his offer of intercourse. But Kaname surprised him once again by lifting him off the bed bridal style and walking towards the door.

"Hey! Where are we going? What are you doing? Put me down!" He struggled in the elders arms, but the brunette just tightened his grip and refused to let go.

"I thought you wanted my bed eh? I'm taking us to my place. And I can't let you go to sleep, you might have a concussion. Haven't you ever heard that if you fall asleep with a concussion you run the risk of death?" Kaname spoke casually as he walked slowly so the struggling boy wouldn't slip from his grasp and hit the floor; truthfully, he wanted Zero close to him. He wanted to feel his heartbeat and warmth, but the bed disgusted him and left him with thoughts of Kain holding his favored pet. That was unacceptable. Zero was his and he was going to let Zero know it. However tonight may not be the best of nights to do so, his injuries were still fresh, the smell of his blood was thick in the air. 'I don't know how or why I am so attached to Zero, all I know is that I can't let him go.'

"I doubt I would die if I feel asleep, I'm a vampire. And why do you have to pick me up and take me to your room? I can walk!"

Kaname ignored the last part of what Zero said, already outside the room and kicking his own door open. "Why risk death, it's just one night."

Kaname took him to the bathroom and sat him down on the sink as he began to fill the bathtub. Steam misted the room and Zero chuckled, leaning his head against the mirror drunkenly. The steam and quick movements triggered his high removing his sleepiness and pulling him back into a world of dreams.

The pureblood, who was on his knees checking the temperature of the water, stood up to look at the odd boy in front of him. He raised his eyebrow as he cautiously spoke, "What's so funny?"

Zero looked at him cockishly, his cranium still against the mirror, "Are you gonna help me stay awake? You've got to keep me entertained, I fall asleep pretty easily."

The brunette gave a low chuckle in reply and began removing his clothing as amethyst eyes widened and became mesmerized with the pale body in place in front of him. "Entertain ehh? I think I can manage that."

Kaname's clothing dropped to the floor until only his boxers remained and he gave his lover a bruising kiss as he began to remove the remaining piece of the teen's clothing. He took his time removing the boxers, running the tips of his finger along the hem and listening to his 'friend' moan. Then, in one fluid motion, he had Zero submerged in water and was laughing at the soaking wet, surprised teen.

"Hey!" Zero shouted before his head was once again submerged.

"Shhh, Zero, I'm trying to keep you entertained."

"BY DROWNING ME?" Zero screamed when he finally had the chance to breathe. He glared at the laughing man in front of him, before softening his gaze, "Aren't you even going to come in here with me?"

Kaname smile mitigated, "No, I already took a bath today."

Zero looked down at the water, nodding and relaxed into the warm bubbles. The pureblood began to walk towards the door thinking it was time for Zero to have his privacy when he heard his name being called softly. He turned around wondering what his silver haired friend could want, "Ye-"

Splash.

Water was thrown towards his face, drenching him. As the tips of his hair began dripping, he growled and looked at the cause of his soaked state.

"I figured I would return the favor and keep you 'entertained' too." Zero said smiling proudly at his work as he shrugged, dismissing the pureblood. "Bye Kaname!"

He settled himself once more in the tub relaxing his body, when another body began pressing against him. He felt a hard erection against his own and his body instantly reacted, making his member spring to life.

"Is this what you wanted?" Came the harsh growl from on top of him, but he didn't answer, he just let out a long moan of approval and thrusted his hips up to allow Kaname to continue with his ministrations. His eyes slowly rolled into the back of his head as he relaxed to the movements of his lover's body and waiting impatiently for what he knew would come next.

"Answer," The angry growl commanded and Zero couldn't refuse, his mind forcing an answer from his lips, telling him to do what he was told so the sensations could continue.

"Yes," his voice was hushed and his eyes shut tightly simply feeling the ambiance as the soft water sloshed around their forms in the small bathtub. Zero felt himself move quickly out of the water as he was placed on Kaname's hips, he shivered at the feeling of the cool breeze on his body and looked to Kaname for an explanation.

"What do you want exactly?" Kaname teasingly questioned, chuckling at the cold boy as he grinded his hips up towards his pet, his hardened dick just below the bottom it was aching to enter. Zero could feel the soft skin that was not his own, its pulsing warmth heating up his butt cheeks.

The silver haired teen raised his eyebrow, unashamed of what he was going to say next, he lowered his voice sexily and leaned closer to Kaname's face, his lips just above the others. As he spoke his words sent heated tingles to the brunette's spine, "I want you inside of me, to cum over and over again, filling me up."

"Then you are going to have to work to get what you want." He felt the brunette's hand curve around his penis tightening its grip so he wouldn't be able to cum. Kaname chuckled as he spoke, raising his head towards the shocked vampire who was sitting on him, "You get me off and then MAYBE I'll let you cum, it's only fair after you wet me in my own home, especially after I was being so hospitable to you."

"You took me out of my place—" Zero began but the grip on his penis tightened and he shot down an aggravated look. Rising on his knees he wiggled back slightly so he would be over Kaname's penis, he pushed down gently feeling the hard member intrude, and gasped at its thickness as his slow movements continued to stretch him.

A rude random thrust from below shoved Kaname all the way inside and Zero gasped throwing his head back at the quick forceful push. He looked down, growling at the pureblood below, "What was that for? I thought it was my job to get you off? What do you think you are doing?"

"My apologies, I was starting to get un-'entertained'," Kaname teased reaching up to play with the wet tussles of silver hair, while still keeping a strong grip on the other's penis.

Zero growled darkly at the response and quickly brought himself back up and down, bouncing on the cock and causing the pureblood to let out a deep moan. The brunette moved his hand from Zero hair to his silver haired pet's hips feeling the prominent bone move under his finger tips with each move Zero made. The younger teen watched Kaname's passion filled face, and felt his own heat up as a soft blush began forming when he thought about how sexy the man looked under him. However, the pureblood soon gave in to his game and started pounding back with bruising force.

Once that happened Zero couldn't see anything but stars. He was pushed into a world of darkness where only he and Kaname existed. Not even the sound of the water was heard as their pounding continued, but Zero was sure it would be all over the floor by now. As he moved up and down quickly with Kaname's help, he gave off long moans which were forced to become hiccups of strangled breath when Kaname got out of their rhythm and made a faster thrust than the silver haired teen was prepared for. Zero leaned down, lightly clutching onto Kaname's arms when his body was too weak to hold himself up, the pleasure melting him.

He felt Kaname's hand move from his waist to the small of his back and then lower. The finger gently probed the area in which their inmate parts met and he was fearful Kaname would try to shove his finger in as well. His body felt as if it was stretched to the limit and although he was no virgin he had a good feeling he couldn't take anymore then what Kaname had to offer. But the finger disappeared and Zero forced his eyes to open and gaze into crimson ones.

Kaname raised the top half of his body from the bathtub floor and pulled Zero's face close, kissing the moaning lips and licking the slight residue of tears from his face, the loud moans now being snuffled due to their heated kiss. The pureblood pulled away slightly, looking into Zero's faintly red tinged face as the silver soaked hair was flipped back with each thrust he continued to inflict on the teen. He made sure his hand was tightly holding his pet's penis; he would keep steady to that part of their deal, besides he wanted to hear Zero beg. His face softened as they continued to gaze at each other and he presided to make his thrusts out of order so he could hear Zero's strangled cries and huffs of pleasure bounce of the walls. Kaname's voice was low and husky as he spoke, "I wish you could see yourself right now."

Even through Zero's obvious pleasure and inability to fully moan never mind speak the silver haired teen forced his words to form, "Don't s-say.. mhmph, stupid t-t-things like… that."

Kaname chuckled at the younger's out of breath state as Zero tried to keep from stuttering, he himself was struggling to keep his voice straight but he would never let the silver haired teen know. He knew Zero would find it humiliating that only he was totally out of breath, and Kaname relished in the pride of his own actions as well as his secret revenge for Kain's appearance today. Zero buried his face in Kaname's shoulder and the pureblood held his teen tight keeping him weighted to this world.

He caught a glimpse of their reflection in the mirror and gave a dark smile, flipping the silver haired teen on his back and submerging him in water as he gave a few deep thrusts before pulling out entirely and letting his mate breathe.

As Zero gasped for air and coughed slightly he watch the pureblood leave the bathtub and angrily got up himself, "What was that for and why did you stop? What could I have possibly done now?"

Zero felt himself falling towards the edge of the bathtub but then warm arms awaited him instead of the cold ceramic. Another moment and he was removed from the water, a firm hand was once again clutching his penis and he was bent over the sink. The already wiped down mirror was showing a replica of himself and his surprised features.

"Now you CAN see yourself. I'm quite the problem solver aren't I?"A dark, deep voice whispered in his ear followed by a low chuckle.

Zero gulped and struggled, embarrassed by his position, he had never allowed this to happen before. He didn't want to see himself in the heat of pleasure. Then again he had never been with someone as strong as Kaname before, "L-let me go! I don't want to do this."

"You don't want to do what? Have sex with me? You wanted to a moment ago. As I recall, you recently asked why I stopped. Or do you mean you don't want to see yourself like this. With me over you, pounding into you, you were so confident when we began, whatever happened to all the -'I want you inside of me, to cum over and over again, filling me up' stuff?" The pureblood grabbed Zero's arms and pinned them in front of his head and on the mirror above both their faces so the silver haired teen would be able to see them both clearly.

Zero cringed as Kaname repeated his words to him. He refused to let that overconfident bastard be right. The ex-hunter looked straight at his image and up towards Kaname's own above him as the pureblood smirked darkly waiting for his answer. He huffed, refusing to let Kaname think he was nervous about this, "Well what are you waiting for, do it already."

He watched as the image of Kaname's smile grew and he felt the large penis prod at his entrance once gently before the pureblood was totally inside. He gave a surprised scream at the brutality and his hands stretched out, clawing at the mirror to give him some leverage against the attack to his prostate. His eyes were slammed shut due to the pain. But Kaname didn't allow that as he forced Zero to take the thrusts full force, each push shoving him into the hard ceramic of the sink.

"Watch your reflection." Said Kaname's voice behind him and he could tell even the pureblood was out of breath. He gazed into his own amethyst eyes watching himself as his hair would fall in front of his face covering it just to be thrown back once again by one of the pureblood's thrusts. His mouth was parted and his voice was coming out in strangled cries of need that didn't sound as if they were his own, if he weren't seeing himself emit such noises he would have passed it off as some stranger next door. Kaname continued to pound into him with the irregular tempo, forcing his breaths to come out more like hiccups of lust. He pushed his ass back meeting each hard thrust and watched as Kaname's mouth parted as well. The silver haired teen smiled, making his own pushes back at his own irregular pace and watching as the pureblood's determination to tease became mild moans of his own need. The soft brown hair framed his face as he leaned forward stretching his stomach along Zero's back and letting his head fall in the crevice of the silver haired teen's neck.

Zero's member pulsed with the need for release, as his lover maintained the constant rough hits to his prostate. He knew Kaname hadn't cum yet, and he knew it would be a hit to his pride but he could no longer take the constant pounding- he needed release. He slumped his body and nudged the crimson eyed man to bring Kaname's focus back to the present and out of pleasure. The pureblood looked confused for a moment but then he stared at Zero through the mirror with a questioning look on his face as his pounding got more ruthless and quicker in pace.

"I want t-to cum." Zero demanded forcing the words to come out as straight as possible, his eyes glared and he struggled to free his hands. Kaname just gave off a soft laugh in return and continued with his pace focusing his attention on the sliver haired teen's neck as he gave soft laps to the markings of the tattoo.

Zero's anger surged, but he knew he was defeated, he hoped Kaname would let him cum when the brunette himself was at least done, 'There has to be something I can do.' Zero swallowed his pride as the pleasure induced part of his brain forced him to say the words his logical side would never allow,

"P-please Kanameeee."He let out a low moan with begging eyes and watched as the pureblood looked at him, clearly surprised. He watched as the reflection of the brunette smiled and he felt the grip on his penis weaken ever so slightly.

"I'm sorry, what was that you wanted Zero?" The pureblood's voice teased, letting his warm breath caress the younger's ear and causing more waves of pleasure to enter his lower region, making his erection become even more painful.

'He wants more! He's trying to humiliate me! But I want to … no I need to cum, I can't take this anymore and I have a feeling he will make sure this abuse will go on forever unless I stop it.' "Please l-let … *huff* me c—um Kaname, please."

The grip got a little weaker but it still wasn't enough for his need to release as Zero got more aggravated and embarrassed by all the effort he had already put into getting the pureblood to allow him his much needed release. To make matters worse the pureblood's pace seemed to have sped up even more, if that were possible, and Zero growled in defeat. He would do anything for the freedom he desperately needed.

"I'm sorry Zero, I couldn't hear you clearly. You sounded out of breath, would you mind saying that again?" Kaname's voice was slightly shaky from being out of breath himself and he was almost at the end of his own rope but he hoped that Zero was too lost in lust to notice, he needed this win, needed to hear Zero beg for him, that Zero needed him. The pureblood chuckled loving every one of Zero's moans of desperation as the poor teen coughed up the words once more.

"p-p-please, I cc-c-an't take it a-anymore. S-s-top. L-et m-me… P-please." His head was laying on the countertop his hair sprawled out around him and his nails still trying to grab at the mirror in order to ground himself, but he was defeated, no longer struggling but still desperate for release.

Kaname took pity on his pet kissing the corner of his lips softly as he let go of the tight grip he had on the large penis instead running his hand up and down the shaft stimulating it further in time with each thrust. He made sure to give hard thrusts to the prostate as Zero came almost immediately and they road his waves of pleasure together as Kaname released inside the teen soon after.

The brunette let go of his arms and they fell uncaringly to the counter, Zero simply let out a long breath of relaxation. Kaname chuckled slowly, pulling out of the abused hole as he brushed a few strands from Zero's face. "You alright?"

Zero simply nodded his uneven breathing still making it tough for him to speak. Soft lips came against his own and he felt himself being lifted from the counter, this time he allowed it. As soft sheets hit his bruised body he relaxed, taking in much needed deep breathes. He watched as Kaname pulled on his boxers and sighed at the fact that his lover would not be naked with him any longer than necessary. As Kaname slipped in beside him he let out an irritated moan thinking of what happened in the washroom, "That wasn't very nice, you know."

"I know." Came the reply followed by soft laughter as Kaname began to pull him close. He struggled but knowing the result would be fruitless, he easily gave in as the pureblood wrapped his warm arms around him and buried his face in his hair. Kaname's voice was muffled and sleepy as he spoke, "Goodnight."

Zero waited until the breathing became deeper and less frequent, showing Kaname was deeper in his stages of sleep, before he fully relaxed himself in the brunette's warmness and whispered his own, "Goodnight."

It was morning and Kain went through his usual morning routine, wake up, shave, shower, brush teeth, get dressed. Same repetitive things, same things he was forced to do every day. He could never skip doing one step or his parents would question him 'Kain, is everything all right?' 'Kain, why didn't you shave? Are you upset about something?' 'Kain, why haven't you showered today? You worry your mother when you act out of context. You have to be proper.' In his own home he was caged. He hated every bit of it and Zero was his only escape. Zero was the complete opposite of his life, the freedom he desperately wished for. 'God I wish we had sex last night. I hate living in the shadows, having to have secrets I could never admit too. Truth be told, I have a feeling that even if my parents knew about my other life they would probably deny it and tell me not to admit to such lies.'

His blue dress shirt stood out against his black jacket. Straightening out his tie he took a deep breath and opened the door, being ready to act like someone he was not. He walked down the hall, his back straight his head held high as the servants rushed around doing some last minute cleaning before the guests arrived. Ruka. She would be here for breakfast and he was glad to see her, he missed her smile and voice when she wasn't around, but it was hell being around her. Having something you want only steps away and knowing it would never be yours was disheartening.

He watched as she walked through the door and gave her jacket to the maid, but he just turned and continued to the dining room. 'No point in wishing, might as well just get through this and go see Zero, I'm going to need some major fucking after this.'

He sat beside his mother and his father at the other side of the long table and waiting patiently for the guest's arrival. The finest cloth they owned was draped along the length of the table with platters of food prepared and ready for consumption. The maids stood to the side, ready with the wine if anyone needed assistance. It was like this every Saturday when Ruka's family came, ever since he was a child.

He lowered his head and waited until he heard the creaking of chairs and his mother's chatter before he began to eat. His father was a silent man, so nobody ever questioned why he had stopped talking at the table so suddenly when he was older. They figured he would grow to be like his old man, never knowing the truth of his disowned marriage proposal and the awkwardness it left between them. At least he hoped that no one knew of his ruined marriage proposal. It was silent for a long while and he looked up to meet the stares of the two strong women in front of him, taking a long sip of wine as he became nervous about their serious state. 'They seem like they know something…. like they want to talk to me about it. I wonder which of my secrets have been found out.'

"Kain, you are quite the handsome young man. Have you found any woman that you fancy?" Ruka's mother, a bristled silver haired woman, questioned and gave a soft smile.

His orange hair shuffled as he choked on his drink, "No madam, I have not yet found love in any young lady."

"Ahh my dear you only are young once. You should marry before your youth withers, we do need grandchildren." His mother raised her eyebrow and both women looked at each other knowingly while the men just looked at their food.

"You know my daughter still has not been mated." Madam Souen spoke casually sipping on her wine before getting quickly to the point, "You two were very close as children, have you considered her as a wife?"

Kain took a long gulp and turned his gaze towards Ruka. She seemed to be looking everywhere but him, 'She defiantly didn't tell her parents about my proposal…'

He looked back towards the mothers, "Your daughter is very beautiful but are you sure she does not wish to be wedded to another?"

"Ahh, she is still young, she knows not what she wants and she is plagued by her fantasies." Ruka's mother was quick to dismiss the statement, 'that must mean she has discussed this with her daughter and knows she like's someone else. So why would her mother not want her to be wedded to the other man?.. Unless the other man is currently unattainable.' He smirked softly to himself at the thought, a little bit of joy fluttering through his chest, but lowered his head so nobody would notice.

"Listen my son, you two shall spend some time together and see if she suits your tastes. You have not spent time together since you were in your young teens." His mother's voice cut through his thoughts. He must have taken too long to answer because both older women seem a little aggravated.

"Yes," the other mother cut in, "She is a figure of beauty now but her body will age. She does not have forever to wait and you are a very suitable mate who will provide us with worthy children."

'If only they knew what I really was, an addict, a fake, would they still wish for me to have their daughter's hand? NO WAY! If I accept her as my wife she will have to marry me. We will make children and she will hate me for my choice for the rest of her life. Is that what I want? But on the other hand she would be unable to marry that other man; she could grow to love me. She will forever be my wife and I can wait forever for that love to come to her… but what of Zero? ' He looked back towards Ruka and matched her questioning gaze. He hadn't really looked at her since the day of her rejection. Sure he had scrutinized her form. She was just as exquisite as ever, not a single flaw, her hair drifted down her back in thick silver locks, her lips full and luscious, with long eyelashes and sparkling eyes. The mothers were waiting for a confirmation and he refused to take his eyes off her as he spoke, "Yes, I would be honored to do as you ask."

'Morning,' Zero looked over at the blinking clock, 'Well not exactly morning.'

The large numbers showed that 2:30 was right around the corner and Zero sighed remembering the work he would have to do today, 'If I even can do it. Rido told me not to take any drugs but I don't know how he thinks this is going to finish this job without any.'

Zero yawned and tried to move his body, but he was constricted. For a moment his eyes shot wide open, his half asleep state was demolished, and his body was filled with panic but the soft breathing beside him calmed him down. 'Kaname… it's just Kaname.' He looked at the thick arms holding him close and ran his fingers along the muscles, feeling the warmth.

His gaze drew, once again, to the blinking numbers and he sighed wiggling slightly to get more room so he could slip out of Kaname's grasp. He sat up on the bed and put his head in his hands, today was going to be rough. His soft hair tickled his fingers and he sighed, lost in his own self pity. He didn't feel the bed move until a soft, saddened voice spoke in his ear, "You going to get more drugs?"

Zero grimaced and looked at the owner of the voice, "You know about that?"

"You told me last night… you don't remember?" Kaname sighed frustratedly, 'What else doesn't he remember.'

"I was a bit off last night…sorry." Zero shakily got off the bed, his thoughts anywhere but the room they were standing in.

"I can tell…" Kaname's voice sounded so disappointed and hurt. Zero looked at his new lover, not wanting the disheartened look to stay on his face any longer, 'I might be on a self destructive path, but I shouldn't bring him along with me. If can't leave him alone because I can't help being selfish and wanting him. Then the least I can do is make him happy.'

"I remember everything else," Zero spoke gently, forcing a smile as he chuckled softly crawling onto the bed and giving Kaname a soft kiss that the brunette accepted but didn't try to deepen like he usually would.

"So that's what you're going to get, isn't it?" The pureblood insisted on his answer keeping the angry, saddened look on his face.

Zero had a feeling he wouldn't quit until he got a proper answer, 'Maybe I should just tell him I am going to get drugs. He can't change me and I can't tell him what I'm really off to do. He definitely wouldn't want to be with me if he found out what kind of person I really am. If just tell him I'm going out for a drug run, sure he will be disappointed in me but I'm going to end up going for a drug run eventually so he will be just as let down then.'

Zero sighed, "Does it really matter?" he began pulling on his boxers before he noticed Kaname in front of him. He jumped back started by the fast pureblood, "Do you really have to move so fast?"

A small clear package was placed right in front of his face. White dust with small crystals he was used to seeing was held inside.

He glared at Kaname grabbing the baggy, "Where did you get this from? Do you do drugs?" 'Great, I'm already making him like me; this is Yuki all over again.'

Kaname leaned back, "Don't be silly, I didn't even know what it was at first. Rido gave it to me and said you would have sex with anyone for this package."

Zero's glare darkened but the pureblood ignored it and continued, "So now you don't have to leave, come on, take it so we can stay in bed all day."

"Kaname don't make this harder than it already is. You wouldn't like me when I'm really high on drugs."

The pureblood nodded, agreeing. "Probably not, but you're going to do them anyway. I would rather you do it in front of me than in your house. At least here I can make sure you're okay."

Zero threw the bag on the bed and walked out of the door, ignoring the pureblood, who called after him confused. Moments later Kaname followed Zero into his room, where said teen continued to get dressed in new clothing the pureblood had never seen before.

"So you're going to take the drugs everyone else offers to you but not what I want to give you?" Kaname questioned agitatedly, he only wanted clear answers but it always seemed like Zero was batting around the questions and trying to make the answers as vague as possible.

"You don't WANT to give it to me, and I can't do that shit anyway, I have a job I promised Rido I would do." Zero began rushing around the room gathering everything he would need. The hunter was already late for his job, it took awhile to bus to the train station from where he was now and he had to figure out which seat she was in before he bought his own so he could sit beside her. Rido had prepared a list of escape routes which he shoved into the bag, so at least that was one less thing he had to bother with, 'Clean clothes, gun, deodorant—"

"A job? What kind of job?" Kaname closed the door and leaned against it crossing his arms as a way to show Zero he wouldn't be leaving until all of his questions were answered properly.

"I have to kill someone. I'm a killer and a druggy, okay? If you don't like it then just walk out of here." Zero was frustrated by the questions and Kaname's prying, along with his own fears about what he was going to have to do. Glaring harshly at the pureblood, he blew up before going back to his mental checklist and preparing the rest of his tools.

"You don't seem like much of a killer." The pureblood raised an eyebrow at Zero's nervous attitude and prone-to-anger actions.

"Well I am." Zero said darkly, when Kaname forcefully grabbed him and forced him to stay still.

"Stop moving Zero, let's talk about this. I might not know you very well but I can already tell you don't want to do this. Tell me what's going on."

Zero shook Kaname off and pulled his hair back, stringing his hands through his silver locks. "Usually I model, but that doesn't make enough for the… the shit I like. Well, I'm smart so he used to put me on drug runs; never got caught once but after time, people begin to notice you and remember you, and even though you're smart they know what you're up to. So I got 'promoted' to the last job here. The reaper. I kill until I'm killed. End of story."

"Can't you just do more modeling jobs? You seem too nervous about making this kill, have you ever even done one before? …Will that happen to me?" Kaname questioned cautiously, unsure he really wanted to know the answers. If Zero had never killed before and was doing a really risky kill he could easily die because he was too nervous to think properly.

"No. You're new here, eventually you might be doing the same, but until then enjoy the easy jobs you got. Like I said, I don't make enough modeling to support my habit, look at this place Kaname there's no food anywhere, and yeah I've killed before. I'm a hunter I kill vampires all the time and without regret… just not human's… never human's." His voice lowered to an almost fearful tremble as he said the last two words and he looked towards the ground.

"Is that who you are going to have to kill today? A human? Is that why you are so upset? You don't have to do it. I'll talk to Rido for you—" Kaname's voice and crimson eyes held guarantee that his uncle would reconsider if he just asked, but Zero knew better.

"It's too late, he won't be able to get anyone else. Besides I'm a hunter, I'm already going to go to hell Kaname, I deserve what's coming to me. Stopping now and not killing this girl isn't going to change anything. At least now Rido will give me some time to pull myself together and I'll get a ton of money for this job." Zero's voice was uncaring and almost casual but his hands shook with fear, knowing that after he pulled the trigger today he would never be the same. He knew this was the end of him. 'I should just let Kaname go now so he doesn't have to see the 'dead' me walking home. Empty inside. I'll be crazy after this, plagued with regret; he doesn't deserve to take care of me. If I let him go now he will be free of me. That is even if I come home at all. I could just kill myself and rid myself of this regret. I could destroy myself and let this girl have another chance at life. Let Kaname live his own life without me to bring him down. That sounds like the better option. That way I don't become what I loathe, a killer without a higher purpose. Vampires kill others killing them for some cash makes some sense, but this poor girl, she doesn't deserve this—'

Warm arms wrapped around the smaller frame and the warm voice whispered in Zero's ear, "You come right over after you do this; no excuses, just come back to me. I'll be waiting and you will be safe."

Zero reached his shaky arms around his new lover, and took a deep breath in. 'I can't kill myself. Kaname will be waiting. I have to do this. If I off myself he'll be alone. I can't hurt him like that. He deserves to be remembered too.'

For those of you who haven't seen it the explanation of why this chapter is up so late it is at the top so feel free to look if you want to know. I wanna give a special sorry to:

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