Hope of forever

As Shuichi walked on the afternoon sun lit streets of tokyo the only thing he could think about was yuki.

"why does he have to be so mean?"

Shuichi finally crumpled and tears began to fall from behind his lashes but he continued to walk slowly in the direction of Hiro's house. Hiro was his best friend and band mate and they had known each other since middle school. Shuichi knew that Hiro had always had a small crush on him and thats the only thing that was keeping shuichi hopeful at this point. Shuichi knew it was wrong using hiro as a comfort zone but it was all he had left and he knew it was his only hope.

Ryuichi Sighed and sunk more into the chair in Tohma Seguchi's office. Ryuichi felt dirty and wrong being here but he knew when he needed help tohma would be there. Miko well.. she would not have really cared. Ryuichi loved his band mates as much as he loved Mr. Bear but there were certain things about the two that had split up Nittle Grasper in the first place and Ryuichi knew that they would happen again even if they did get back together.

" Tohma... how can you and shuichi love that basterd?"

Tohma looked up from his desk and looked at a falling ryuichi. He smiled that wicked and evil smile that sent chills down ryuichi's back everytime.

"Because Ryuichi we both love him dearly and he is the most important thing to us."

Tears were coming again and Ryuichi could feel it and he had to hold them back tohma could not see him this way.

" How can you love someone that cold!" Ryuichi got up from his place going to walk out.

" Ryuichi until you feel love you will not understand what i sacrifice for him."

Ryuichi had finally lost it and the anger was spilling out all over the floor.

"Thats the problem! Its not you who is sacrificing everything! Its SHUICHI!"

At that last word Ryuichi ran out the doors of his band mates office. He knew it was a mistake coming here. Ryuichi hated seguchis evil ways. He harmed people he was a master trickster and wanted everything no, he just wanted yuki. Thats all he has ever wanted. Ryuichis thoughts raced as he ran on the streets of japan to the cherry blossom park where he used to get his inspiration. It was the same with Miko. All she ever wanted was sex. Ryuichi never gave it to her and all she ever did was torture and beg him. Ryuichi finally stopped and leaned over the small railing in the small park. No one ever came here anymore. Ryuichi was Thank full he really did not need another mob of fan girls and guys chasing him at this point. He leaned down and watched the small neighborhood street that mazed into condos and small apartments.

"Shuichis house is"nt that far from here. I guess thats why i truly came here."

Ryuichi had been coming more and more frequently to the park it was a close location to shuichi and ryuichi swore sometimes he felt like he could feel shuichi.

" i wonder if he ever came here." Ryuichi looked down at the street again and noticed a small strawberry dot walking slowly down the street.

" Shuichi?"

Shuichis eyes had dried out to this point but he didn't care he was close to hiros and thats all that mattered. As he approached the Entrance to hiros place he felt like he was being watched. A shiver went down his spine and he kept walking. This was his hope and hopefully his home.