Author's Notes: OK let's try this again. Here's the final chapter guys! Although I can't promise I won't write a sequel at some point down the line after I've had a small break from Bella/Jasper to do Bella/someone else lol.

The song used in this chapter is; Keith Urban – Making Memories of Us

Disclaimer: I don't own twilight, the characters, the film or books and make no money from this story. I also don't the songs used, mentioned in the author's notes.

Scars

Chapter 22

Bella POV

I lay on my back just staring up at the ceiling. I could be starting to change into a vampire as we speak...either that or it could be just a reaction to Jasper's venom or even worse I could be dying.

"Bella, darlin' it's your choice." Jasper murmured in my ear, "It's always been your choice."

"Can you do it?" I asked him softly.

"I think so, I have managed to pull away from your blood before..." he replied. "And those occasions may have left you with trace amounts of venom that have gradually done this to you."

"I didn't think of that." I sighed. "If I asked you to change me...how much time do we have?" I wasn't sure if I wanted to ask this, I felt embarrassed just thinking it.

"I'm not sure...it's not happening quickly but obviously the sooner the better." He said. "But don't feel like this is your only option, Carlisle might find another way."

"It's not being a vampire I'm deciding, I already know I want to be with you forever now is as good a time as any I was just deciding on the how." I said, and then took a deep breath. "You know how you always want to bite me when we're...together...I want you to."

"Bella, that has to be the least safe way of doing this I have ever heard." Jasper sighed.

"I want you to do it, I want to...enjoy every last human moment I can before I change and I...want you to bite me." I blushed. He obviously felt the truth of my statement because he nodded his head and kissed me.

I'm gonna be here for you baby
And I'll be a man of my word
Speak the language in a voice that you have never heard

His kiss was deep and demanding, setting my body on fire before we had even begun. As he pulled away he smiled, his eyes darkened and filled with a heat that caused a meltdown deep inside me. I heard him murmuring to me but it was either too quiet for my human ears to understand or I just couldn't concentrate on words through the desire that was taking over me. His voice was little more than a stroke of sound that almost caressed against my ear. He stopped to kiss me with a kiss that was both ferocious and passionate.

"I love you." he said, voice so husky, so damn sexy, chills ran across my skin and then he slid into me, claiming every last inch of my body he could.

"I love you." I managed to whisper back before he began to rock against me and all chance of thought was lost. It felt so good, so right; I couldn't help the moan that slipped from my lips before his lips covered mine again. It wasn't long before the ripples of pleasure running through my body became waves that caused his tempo to increase as I gripped his shoulders, digging in my nails though I doubt he felt it. Now he was thrusting deeper, harder and the whole room seemed to spin around us for a moment before his lips left mine and the last thing I saw was his heat filled gaze before his lips found my neck and my eyes closed. As he bit down on my neck my orgasm hit taking my breath away so I couldn't scream even if I had felt the pain. Instead what I felt was sheer overwhelming pleasure for a moment as if time itself had stopped and for moments we both stilled in the afterglow before Jasper pulled away from me to lie beside me.

It didn't take long for the pleasure to fade and the burning to take over. Then I heard screaming and realised it was me. It didn't sound like me. It sounded crazed, possessed and desperate. If I wasn't already wincing and writhing from the pain of the burning I would be from the sound of my own screams. I could hear someone talking to me but I just couldn't focus on it. I hate to admit it but part of me agreed with Edward and Rosalie right now...I would rather die than feel this but I knew it was too late. The venom was already rushing through my system and I could only take comfort in the fact that it would be worth it. Maybe not right away but once I came to my senses and got over my newborn stage it would be worth it.

Occasionally I felt something cold pressing against my skin and then I could hear Jasper's voice. I tried to focus on it, to talk back and let him know I was still in here somewhere but I didn't dare open my mouth for fear screams would be the only thing that came out. It continued like that and I have no idea how long for. I would scream and scream, then I would feel calmer and hear Jasper trying to comfort me and then the screaming would take over again.

Jasper POV

She was in agony. I knew she would be, but feeling it for myself made me feel worse...I did this to her. I caused this. No matter how many times I tried to tell myself that this is what she wanted I couldn't shake the waves of pain and torment that wracked through her body.

"You did it then?" Carlisle's voice asked, as he entered the room. I just nodded in response. "How long ago?"

"Not long after the phone call. A few hours I guess." I replied.

"I'm proud of you. You showed great control Jasper." he told me. But I wasn't proud. I felt sick at the thought that I caused this pain, I forced her into the decision.

"Jasper you need to stop that, you're projecting and it won't help her." Esme's voice said softly, as she too entered the room. I let her pull me into a hug before she moved to Bella's side.

"Well, either you did a really good job and I mean, incredible or our theory was correct and she was already turning. If I had to guess I'd say she was already at least a day in when we know she isn't." Carlisle said.

"A couple of times when we've...gotten carried away my teeth have managed to cut her tongue or lips do you think that would've caused it?" I asked Carlisle, as I slid down the wall to sit on the ground.

"Probably; we'll never know but unfortunately the reality is that if vampires and humans mix this is always a risk regardless of how it happens." He replied. "At least we can take comfort in the fact that this was what she wanted."

"It really was." I nodded. I glanced over at Bella writhing in pain and knew that she was about to start screaming again, I tried to send her waves of calm but it did nothing so I tried love instead. This time I did feel a change...I felt her hope. Whether it was hope that it was all over soon or something I would never be sure but hope was better than blinding pain without any hope.

"Alice wanted to be here but she had a vision of her own future so she decided to follow it." Esme told me softly, sitting down next to me. "I'm pretty sure everything will work out just fine."

"What should I do? Stay here with her where there's is less risk for a newborn or head back to the Denali's where there will be more of us to deal with a newborn?" I asked Carlisle. I already knew what I wanted to do but his opinion was important if Bella and I were going to join the whole family once her newborn stage ends.

"It's too soon to say...I would say you're the best person to assess that when she wakes up and we see how she reacts." Carlisle replied.

"I don't like the thought of leaving you alone with a newborn, Jasper, she could be very dangerous." Esme gasped.

"I think he's had more than enough experience with newborns to judge whether he can handle her or not dear." Carlisle murmured, pulling his wife to her feet and into his arms. "For now all we can do it wait."

"Oh Carlisle, look at her...she's going to be very beautiful isn't she?" Esme smiled, turning in his arms to face Bella who was now lying perfectly still. I could still sense the pain in her but under it I felt hope, love and acceptance. Maybe if I could keep projecting positive feelings towards her rather than just trying to calm her she would have something other than pain to focus on. I smiled slightly to myself as I felt the love and pride from my adoptive parents towards Bella. I took that and projected it towards Bella also.

"Very beautiful." Carlisle agreed.

I moved to stand next to Bella and stroked my hand across her now cold skin. Of course it wasn't cold to me but I was so used to her being hot that it almost felt wrong for her to feel the same temperature as me.

By the next morning I must have lost focus or the pain must have gotten worse because suddenly pain was all I could feel from Bella as screams tore from her throat and her body arched off of the bed in an unnatural way before she practically rolled off of it. Carlisle and I dashed to catch her and I gathered her up as best I could in my arms as she fought against me.

"I think it's nearly over." Carlisle told me. "Listen." As I listened I could hear her heart struggling. He was right it sounded like it was nearly over but...it was unnerving that it had happened this fast it made me worry that I could still lose her. I clutched her tightly against me and listened to her hearts last struggling beats.

I wanna sleep with you forever
And I wanna die in your arms
In a cabin by a meadow where the wild beasts warm

Silence. For one moment we all stayed silent when Bella's heart was no longer beating. For a moment I couldn't feel anything from her either.

"She'll wake up any moment, let's get her on the bed just in case she lashes out." Carlisle said. I didn't argue, as much as I didn't want to let Bella out of my arms; I knew he was right. I knew firsthand exactly how unpredictable, fast, strong and dangerous newborns could be.

Briefly I started to worry about how she would react. Would she still be in love with me? Would I have to wait until her newborn phase had passed before I could kiss her and touch her again? Would she see my scars through her new vampire eyes and run? Then I felt it; Bella was awake. At first it was just a little bit of confusion and then as Bella's eyes opened her emotions came crashing around me.

"Bella? Do you know who I am? Do you know where you are?" Carlisle asked, in his soothing Doctor's voice. Bella just nodded in response but I couldn't help but crack a small smile at her super fast nod. She wasn't used to her new body yet.

"Bella darlin'? How do you feel?" I asked her, stepping closer to the bed.

"I feel...strange." she replied. Then her hand flew to her mouth in surprise. "What's wrong with my voice?"

"Nothing darlin'." I replied. "It's just a little different." Then I saw her eyes widen in shock as she looked at me. I knew that she was now able to see my scars with better eyes. The scars that through vampire eyes could be seen from a distance, the worst two were on my chest and on my thigh but there were more than enough between those places that although weren't as bad were still clearly visible. I feared slightly that she would see my imperfections like Alice had, no matter how much she had loved me they were still ugly to her.

Instead I felt a shiver of desire. I glanced at Bella's face, was that me or her? Then she pounced. I ducked around her arms away from her, it was more of a natural reaction to a newborn pouncing at me than through actual fear she would hurt me. I felt a spike of rejection from her and looked up. She wanted me? Now?

"Bella, I think we should take you hunting." I told her.

"Can't I at least say hello to you first?" she asked. "It feels like forever since I've been able to kiss you."

"Aren't you thirsty?" I asked, standing my ground and letting her come to me. She touched her throat as if suddenly remembering it and then I felt the hunger from her.

"I hadn't noticed that until you mentioned it." She replied. "I guess I am kind of thirsty."

I looked over to Carlisle for help but he just shrugged. Bella now stood in front of me pouting slightly; I reached one arm around her back and pulled her a little closer. It felt weird to me, being so close to a newborn when all of my training told me not to. She tilted her head up and kissed me softly, or rather that's how it started but before long I felt myself being crushed into the wall behind us before I had to duck and move away from her again. I glanced again to Carlisle and Esme in embarrassment but I knew it wasn't Bella's fault. She didn't have very much control on her emotions.

And I'm gonna make you this promise
If there's life after this
I'm gonna be there to meet you with a warm, wet kiss
Yes I am

"We need to go hunting now darlin'." I told Bella, calmly. "We've got all the time in the world now to be together but right now I really think you need to hunt."

"What's wrong?" she asked.

"Nothing is wrong Bella." A voice piped up from the window as a small dark figure walked in. Alice. "Jasper's just worrying over nothing."

"I thought you were busy?" I asked her curiously.

"We couldn't miss this." Alice grinned. I was about to question the "we" but moments later Edward entered the room behind her.

"She needs to go hunting." I said firmly. "Can your impromptu visit wait a few hours?" I glanced to Edward who was frowning at Bella. When he saw me looking he looked a little sheepish before a grin slipped onto his face.

"Just checking." He said. "She's still as silent as ever."

"I'm right here you know." Bella's voice called. She sounded rather annoyed but I didn't felt much anger coming from her.

"Ready?" I asked Bella.

"Wait!" Alice protested. "I brought a present!" We all sighed and focused on the little pixie who just grinned broadly at us. "Actually I brought two! One for now and one for after you've been hunting."

After some arguments and negotiations Edward, Carlisle and I left the girls while they quickly dressed Bella. Bella wasn't very impressed about not being allowed to change by herself but I refused to leave her alone until she had hunted; besides I doubted she had the control to change her clothes without ripping them yet.

Moments later Esme opened the door and there stood Bella in tight black jeans, knee high boots and a dark blue blouse. She was beautiful, I was grateful I didn't need to breathe because she was breathtaking. I thanked God for granting me this beautiful, amazing woman.

"Now are you ready to hunt?" I asked her. She nodded, her hand again reached to her throat.

"It hurts, like the venom is still burning me." She said softly.

"That's normal darlin'." I told her, taking her hand and guiding her towards the large open doors. "I'm amazed that you're coping this well. You're doing wonderfully."

She hesitated near the doorway where the light still poured into the room. I stepped into the light first letting it reflect off of me as I led her out of the doors. She followed cautiously, her new senses taking over.

"It's a good job we're in the middle of nowhere. This place is perfect. There's a few animals to hunt to the far side of the island but we'll need to go further afield in the long term." I explained to her as we ran towards the thickest part of the trees.

We'll follow the rainbow
Wherever the four winds blow
And there'll be a new day
Comin' your way

Bella POV

It was strange hunting with Jasper. I wanted to be disgusted with myself but it felt too good, too natural. I was almost like an adrenaline rush. Watching Jasper hunt with me was almost as incredible, he was so much more graceful...at least I now had centuries to practise.

It was hard to believe that this was it now, I was a vampire...

I had wanted it, spent years wanting and wishing my life had been different and now I was actually here. I was part of the world that Edward had fought so hard to keep me out of. I looked at Jasper as he finished feeding and dropped the dead carcass. Although I could now see the scars as I couldn't before they still weren't as horrible as I thought they would be from how he had described them. In some places they were silver crescents covering his skin and in others they were a more angry red that showed exactly what he had gone through. My shock wasn't so much horror at the sight as horror at the thought of the pain he must have gone through. If I thought about it I had to admit to myself that some of them were pretty ugly and I felt a little ashamed at how shallow I felt but they didn't change that fact that Jasper was beautiful. He was still incredibly sexy and he was still my Jasper, no way were some scars going to get in the way of our forever. After all I had been mentally scarred and Jasper hadn't given up on me.

Jasper made his way over to me when he noticed me stood still for a while.

"Full already?" he grinned, I nodded.

"I'd like to go back to the others...sort of meet them all I guess." I replied.

"Of course." He smiled wrapping his arms around me possessively and placing a chaste kiss on my lips. "We have forever to be alone now, I don't mind sharing you for just today."

And I'm gonna love you like nobody loves you
And I'll earn your trust making memories of us

"How very generous of you." I smirked, as he started back towards the house.

As soon as I spotted the small group of people outside the house I sped up and left Jasper behind.

An instant later Emmett found himself on the floor as I practically threw him to the ground.

"Whoa! Bells! Looking good! Did you do something to your hair?" He chuckled as we both got to our feet. Everyone laughed as I leapt into a huge bear hug, only for the first time it wasn't me being crushed. "Ouch!"

"Sorry." I said sheepishly as I stepped away from him. "I forgot."

"No you didn't vampires don't forget." Edward put in with a smirk on his face.

"You're right I didn't but it was only a joke." I said to Emmett as he narrowed his eyes at me. "Emmett No!" I yelled as he dived for me trying to duck out of the way. I was stronger and faster but a lot less experienced.

"You're gonna get it!" Emmett grinned.

"Would you mind putting my wife down now?" Jasper's drawl broke into everyone's laughter. Emmett quickly dropped me but thankfully my new fast reflex's allowed me to land on my feet.

I glanced at my new family. Carlisle stood behind Esme his arms draped over her shoulders and a relaxed smile on his face, Esme looked happier than I'd ever seen her... Then I glanced at Alice and Edward, standing very close to each other; and even though they weren't touching or looking at each other there seemed to be a connection...they just looked comfortable being that close. My gaze met Alice's and she grinned and winked. I couldn't keep the grin from my face as I glanced at Edward. He looked like a deer caught in headlights, a look I had never seen on him before but he almost instantly composed himself. The rest of the family hadn't missed it though and I felt Jasper reaching out with his powers...that was odd; I'd never been able to feel him using it when it wasn't on me before.

"One big happy family again?" Jasper asked, looking pointedly at Edward.

"Funny how things work out isn't it?" he replied.

"Fate perhaps?" Carlisle smiled.

"Or just weird!" Rosalie laughed.

"I think it's wonderful news!" Esme said proudly.

"Me too!" I agreed.

"What the hell did I miss?" Emmett asked, looking from person to person. "What are you going on about?" Rosalie rolled her eyes and whacked him over the back of the head. Jasper took pity on his confused brother and patted him on the shoulder before pointing to Alice and Edward. "What?"

"Just look at them Emmett." Jasper told him. "Both of them."

"As in together? Ew Bro that's your sister!" he exclaimed.

"Not technically." Carlisle reminded him.

"So we're a family again? No more sulking and brooding?" Emmett asked. Alice smiled and nodded, leaning against Edward's side casually.

"Who better to keep up with someone who can see the future than someone who can see it with her?" I pointed out.

"And you're all ok with this?" Emmett asked, still catching up with the conversation.

"I'll always love Bella, just not that way." Edward said softly.

"And Bella is always going to be my sister." Alice said chirpily, leaving Edward's side to bounce to mine.

"And I'll always love Alice, as a sister." Jasper agreed.

"Well that's all lovely and mushy, are we done now?" Rosalie asked.

"I guess...it's just weird it doesn't seem so long ago that Edward was moping about leaving Bella and we were all upset and Jasper couldn't handle us being miserable and we were all split up." Emmett shrugged. "But now everyone's happy."

"That's the funny thing about scars." I smiled, leaning back into Jasper's arms and looking at my family surrounding me. "They may always be there but they no longer hurt and they always heal."

I'm gonna be here for you from now on
This you know somehow
You've been stretched to the limits but it's alright now

Author's Notes: I'd like to thank JenJenSon for being my beta the whole way through this she's been an angel! I'd also like to thank every single one of you who has reviewed and I hope that you will consider reading my other Twilight fanfics.

Thank you everyone

Astarte-Lydianna xxx