NCIS: Sorry
Characters: J. Shepard, Leroy Jethro Gibbs
A/N: I love Jibbs. I have Judgement Day Denial Syndrome. But... I wanted to write a goodbye from Jen to Jethro, the only way I knew how. Let me know what you think. Reviews = Love
May 2008
Dear Jethro:
I am sorry for acting reckless.
I am sorry for spiting you.
I am sorry for acting
Like I didn't care.
Like you didn't matter.
I am sorry for my obsessions.
Sorry for my crimes.
I am sorry for
Messing up Tony's heart and
Treating it like a disposable object.
I am sorry for never telling you
That I am sick.
I'm sorry for not telling you
That I'm dying.
A brain tumor.
I am sorry for not trusting your gut.
I am sorry for becoming
One of the bureaucratic asses
We used to bemoan
Back in Europe, in Paris.
I am sorry for sacrificing
Everything that I held dear
For the sake of furthering my career.
I left you
And I'm sorry.
But…
There's always a but.
I am not sorry for smiling
On the day we first met.
I am not sorry for
Looking you in the eye and
Knowing that there was something.
I am not sorry for
What happened in
Paris, Marseilles.
It was just a natural progression
To an evolving relationship.
The one I would have liked to see last another
Forty or fifty years.
I do not often regret my actions.
I do not regret
Falling
Head over heels
In love with you.
I do not regret sacrificing myself
For the sake of my country
And for my sake as well.
I am sorry for not holding you
As close as possible.
I can be an articulate person
When I want to be.
But you?
You tangle up my senses
And make my tongue tied.
Your blue eyes
The windows to your soul
Show pain, and love.
They are my weakness.
They melt me.
You melt me.
I love you.
I always will.
And I'm sorry.
I am
And always
Will be
Yours.
Jen