Hopeless Chapter 3: You Stay with Me, an inuyasha fanfic

You Stay With Me

By: Dark Kitten Saki

Disclaimers: I do not own the characters or the song. The song is done by Faith Hill.

Summary: Sesshoumaru is starting to look back on the last few years were Kagome started taking care of him and almost lost everything. He isn't really sure he was worth all of what she did while he emotionally checked out. (This is in half drabble form. There are exactly 50 words between each lyric grouping.)

**XOXOXOXOXOX**

TV flashes down the hall
Painting pictures on the wall
And you're still sleeping on my knees
And in the glow of silver light
I trace the lines above your eyes
Just another wrinkle that you can blame on me

I watched her sleeping on my lap. She had more lines in her face than I remember. They are deeper. I don't mind them. But in some ways they hurt. I gave them to her. The only one I really wanted to protect. The only precious one I have left.

But I can hear the current of the freeway in the distance
If I keep listening
And I wonder if you ever thought of streaming off
Somewhere with it
Am I not what you thought
Will you get tired of what you got

I wouldn't have blamed her if she took off and left me. I'd have deserved it for all of the crap I put her through. She deserved so much more. My doctor took the money she had been saving for school. She still smiled at me every morning. Always happy….

[Chorus:]
If I can't give you anymore
Than weathered ships and distant shores
Would you still be my compass yeah
'cause you keep loving me the same
I don't know how but you still stay with me, baby
You stay with me, baby

Deep inside I knew she wouldn't leave me. I needed her as much as she needed me. But I still remembered the look she gave me when I called her "Butterfly" and when I told her "I love you" after I got better. Guilt didn't begin to describe that feeling.

Another day, another week
We'll slip back in old routines
'til nights like these come in between
Simple moments in the dark
Ones that life can't tear apart
They come along just when we need

I thought she was catching on to my guilt. I was right. We danced around that topic trying desperately not to upset the other. I didn't want her to cry again… ever. She… she didn't want to lose me again. How that hurt! Nothing describes knowing I left her alone.

And I still hear the current of the freeway in the distance
But I stop listening
'cause I know you'll stay even though the waves are always shifting

It took a long time for me to realize our time wasn't going to end because she was going to leave. She still held me at night as embarrassing as it was to admit. But I had never felt as much peace as I did listening to her heart beating.

We're fighting our way through
I guess I always knew

"I won't leave you alone again, Butterfly," I told her quietly over dinner one night. I could see she was startled. I could see tears welling and felt horrible all over again.

"It… it would be a killing frost if you left me again."

"I know, Butterfly," I held her.

"Kagome?" I asked quietly as we lied on her bed. I never really used my room anymore. We never did anything but being here with her was enough… for now.

"I'm sorry." I cuddled her closer to me.

"I know, Anata." She stroked my hair. "…I missed you."

"I know."

'cause you keep loving me the same
I don't know how but you still stay with me, baby
You stay with me, baby

I had a long way to go to make that time up to her family and friends. I didn't deserve it and never could. Just like I didn't deserve her and her forgiveness. I wanted to make it right. I went to her shrine, only on my own this time.

TV flashes down the hall
Painting pictures on the wall

"Butterfly?" I called when I got home again. She didn't answer; she was asleep on the couch. Once I woke her, she was flustered. "You'll never get to sleep if you nap now."

"Oops," she said on a yawn.

"Butterfly?" She looked at me. "Will you marry me?"

"Of course!"

**XOXOXOXOXOX**

Well that's the end. I hope you enjoyed this little group of song fics. Please let me know if you see any mistakes!

Thank you for reading. Have a joyous week.

Saki