Okay so it's been like FOEVER since I updated this last and that's because it's taken me FOREVER to write this damn chapter. Well that and I had it halfway done some months ago and accidentally deleted the whole fic and lost everything I did. That just pissed me of causing me to say forget it and almost decide to delete the damn thing permanently. But we all know that's not me because I'd feel guilty leaving you all hanging like that. It may take me forever to update but eventually I'll get back around to it.

Also I've decided to break this chapter into two chapters and hope to have the second half up within the next week or so. So be a little patient with me I'm trying to get there it's just I flippin HATE writing lemons they're soooooo boring!

Ah well hope you enjoy; much love for you all. Keva

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Sesshoumaru wrapped his arms around Naraku's neck while their tongues swirled against one another within his mouth. He missed him so much he couldn't stand it he needed to feel him as close as possible. Actually during his vacation he decided that when he was back with Naraku they were going to take their relationship up to the next step.

He pulled back from him and stared into his midnight eyes. "I love you." He whispered.

Naraku smiled and hugged him tightly to his chest. "I love you too." He pulled his shirt loose and slipped his hands underneath. "Tonight you will be mine in every way." He whispered as he stared into glowing ambers.

Sesshoumaru slowly nodded his head. "I'm ready." He leaned in and pressed his lips to Naraku's as he reached down and began pulling his shirt up.

He released his hold upon him so he could pull his shirt over his head then went to work on the buttons of Sesshoumaru's shirt. "Are you sure?" He questioned as he stared deep into his burning ambers as he pushed his shirt off his shoulders.

"More than ever." He nodded as his shirt slid off his arms and fell to the floor around his feet. "I wish we did it before your dad took you away."

"Yea." Naraku agreed as he went to work on getting Sesshoumaru out of his pants. "But I kinda think waiting till now might make it better." He kneeled down, tapped his foot to lift it, and removed his shoe and sock.

"Yea." Sesshoumaru nodded and placed his hand on Naraku's shoulder as he lifted his other foot.

Once Naraku had him completely naked he went to work on stripping himself. It didn't take long for him to strip off his remaining clothing so he too was naked and staring at the love of his life.

Sesshoumaru reached out, wrapped his arms around his neck pulling him flush against him, and pressed their lips together. He was nervous, he was excited, he couldn't wait to become one with the one person he loved more than his own life. The worst part of all this waiting was the last few hours waiting for his father and Izayoi to go to bed and fall asleep.

Naraku headed them both to the bed causing them to fall down upon it resulting in them hitting their heads together.

"Ow." Sesshoumaru pulled back, rubbed his head, and moaned.

"Sorry." He scowled as he rubbed his own head then pushed Sesshoumaru's hand from his head and kissed the sore spot better.

He smiled up at him when they locked stares. "It's okay."

"I know how to make it really better." He smiled as his eyes sparkled. He pressed his face into his neck nipping and kissing upon his pulse point while slowly working his way downward.

The feel of Naraku's lips trailing down over his chest made him tremble, his breath hitch, and his stomach flutter. He didn't like these feelings they made him feel like he couldn't control his body but at the same time he loved them because Naraku was causing him to feel this way.

"I won't hurt you." Naraku whispered looked up his body at him. "If you want to stop we can."

"No." He gave a small shake of his head and ran his fingers through his wavy hair. "I want to be with you more than anything right now. I love you."

Naraku smiled up at him. "I love you too." He whispered and gave another kiss to his stomach then trailed his lips further down. He pressed his cheek against his hard length and nuzzled it lovingly. "I love this part of you," he looked up at him. "it's perfect just like the rest of you." He smiled then slipped his hands under his legs, over his thighs, and gripped his hips. Once he had him securely pressed down he laid his tongue to the tip licking up the small drop of moisture before taking him fully into his mouth.

Sesshoumaru arched his back sharply as Naraku worked him over stroking and caressing him with his hot tongue. He could do nothing but lay there and moan out Naraku's name as he gently rocked his hips against him. "Naraku I'm... We need to… before I…" He panted when Naraku pressed the tip of his tongue against his slit.

Naraku pulled back, moved up to hover over him, and pressed their lips together. "Okay." He smiled down at him. "Do you want to?"

Sesshoumaru shook his head. "You know I don't like to unless you finish while in my mouth."

He always found that to be rather odd but accepted it none the less. Sesshoumaru had his ways about him and it was fine with him because that's just what made Sesshoumaru, Sesshoumaru. "Are you ready then?"

Sesshoumaru nodded and took a deep breath. "Do you know what to do?"

Naraku nodded and got off the bed after giving him a quick kiss. "We need oil or lotion." He pulled Sesshoumaru's sock drawer open and found the small bottle of baby oil he kept there to use on his feet. "My cousin said it would make it a lot easier and less painful if we used oil though." He got back into bed and straddled Sesshoumaru's hips. "So?" He questioned as he stared at him while holding the bottle up for him to see. "Which way?"

"I want you to do it." He nodded.

He drew his dark brows. "Are you sure?"

Sesshoumaru nodded his head. "Yea, it just feels like you doing it is the right way."

"Alright." He nodded and flipped the cap on the bottle open. "But if you change your mind tell me and we'll switch; okay?"

"Okay." He agreed and watched as he poured the oil into his hand, wrap his fingers around himself, and stroke himself several times from base to tip.

He started to close the bottle then widened his eyes. "Oh I almost forgot." He smiled down at him and poured some on to his fingers coating them thoroughly. He closed the bottle with his free hand and set it by his leg. "Bend your knees."

Sesshoumaru did as he was told and kept his eyes locked with Naraku's as he felt his oiled fingers rub against his little ring of muscles. He couldn't help but clench against the strange sensation of being touched there.

"Does it hurt?" Naraku questioned and stopped moving his fingers around.

"No." He gave a small shake of his head. "It feels good but weird."

He nodded and began massaging him again before gently pressing one of his fingers inside. "What about that?"

Sesshoumaru squirmed a little and drew his brows deeply as he clenched his muscles around Naraku's digit. "It doesn't hurt and kind of feels good."

"Well Kagura said that you do one finger then two," he pumped his finger in and out a few times then began to press in his second finger. "to get you used to it." He watched his face closely and held still when he flinched. "Okay?"

"Okay, it hurt just a little but not too bad." He nodded and tangled his fingers into his bed sheets when Naraku scissored his fingers apart. "That kind of hurt too but not real bad." He explained when Naraku stopped moving his fingers again.

"Alright," he smiled at him. "now I'm going to put in another finger."

He took a deep breath and kept himself relaxed knowing that Naraku would stop if it hurt. "Ready." He gave a curt nod as he stared into his dark eyes. He flinched when the third finger entered him and shifted his hips against the strange full feeling.

"Does it hurt?" He held still and stared concernedly at him.

"I… I don't know." He drew his brows thoughtfully. "I mean it kind of does but kind of doesn't."

"Well what about this?" He questioned the tried spreading his finger apart.

Sesshoumaru gasped and fisted his fingers tightly into the sheets. "That hurt a little more but hold your fingers like that."

Naraku did as he was told and watched as the slight pain faded from Sesshoumaru's eyes. "Better?" He questioned though kept his fingers spread as far apart as he could.

"Yes." He nodded.

"Okay one more finger." He said to prepare him when he pressed his last digit against him.

Sesshoumaru took a deep breath, relaxed from head to toe, and nodded. "Ready."

Naraku nodded back and slowly began to press in his last finger and stopped when Sesshoumaru again gasped and flinched.

He took a few deep breaths feeling the sharp pain slowly subside then nodded again at him. "I'm okay."

"You sure?" Naraku questioned suspiciously at the flushed face he was making and at how tight he was gripping the bed sheets.

"Yes." He smiled comfortingly at him. "Just go slow so I can get used to it."

"Alright." He agreed and pushed a little deeper into him then stopped when he stiffened. He watched him take several long deep breaths and continued when he again nodded at him.

Sesshoumaru shifted lightly and flinched against all the strange feelings coursing through his body. He felt full, stretched, in pain, but good and he wasn't sure which feeling to focus on the most.

"Now I'm going to spread my fingers again; ready?" He questioned against the flexing of Sesshoumaru's tight muscles.

"Hold on." Sesshoumaru stared at him again shifting trying to sort out the pain from pleasure. He slowly relaxed deciding to just let all the feelings go where they will. "I'm ready." He nodded up at him.

Naraku eyed him for a moment then nodded back and began spreading his fingers out fighting against his reflexive need to clench against him. "Relax." He ordered feeling Sesshoumaru's muscles getting tighter against his fingers. "If we don't do this and if you don't relax we won't be able to do it without it hurting you a lot."

Sesshoumaru did his level best to keep his muscles loose and lax but it was hard. All he really felt like doing was clenching tight to increase the small tingly sensations he was feeling down there. "I'm trying but it feels too good." He squirmed then gasped when he caused Naraku's fingers to bury themselves a little deeper into him.

"See that's why you have to hold still." Naraku gently scolded. "I don't want this to hurt you but if you keep moving like that it's going to hurt a lot." He pulled his fingers closer together waiting for Sesshoumaru to relax. "I'm going to spread them wide again." He said when he felt his muscles soften against his digits. "Say stop if it hurts too much."

Sesshoumaru nodded up at him and drew his brows deeply against all the sensations as Naraku's fingers began to spread wide within him. "Stop." He ordered when a searing pain shot up his spine. "Just hold still for a second."

"Does it hurt a lot?" He questioned concernedly.

Silver brows drew deeply. "It did for a second but it's getting better." He took a few deep breaths. "Okay go slow." He ordered with a nod at him.

Naraku did as he was told and began spreading his fingers apart slowly then stopped when Sesshoumaru clenched his jaw tightly. He used his free hand to gently massage his belly thinking that that might help him relax. "Good?"

"Again." He nodded when the pain subsided and the tingly sensations began to return. "Just go all the way at once." He ordered.

"Are you sure?" He drew his dark brows deeply. "I don't want to hurt you."

"I'll be okay." He reassured. "Just do it."

"If you're sure." He conceded. "Let me know when you're ready."

Sesshoumaru took a long deep breath, relaxed the best he could, and nodded. "Do it."

Naraku nodded back and did as he was told spreading his fingers as wide as he possibly could.

A hiss passed his lips as his fingers fisted tightly into the sheets. He fought to keep himself from jerking away and curled his toes tightly against the searing pain rolling up his spine.

"Maybe we shouldn't do this." Naraku whispered as he watched the pain spread across Sesshoumaru's face and his body tighten all over.

"No." Sesshoumaru growled as he fought to relax. "It's slowly going away."

Naraku was struggling to keep still but on the other hand wanting to stop this because it was hurting him. Truthfully this wasn't fun for him anymore and all his excitement had nearly completely dissipated. Seeing Sesshoumaru suffer like he was was making it painful for him as well.

Sesshoumaru just laid there taking slow deep breaths relaxing from head to toe again as the pain began to subside. He didn't realize that there was so much work involved in making love to someone. Yet this was for him and Naraku and he would do whatever it took for them to be together. With one more deep breath he stared up at Naraku and smiled at him. "I'm okay really." He reassured against the concerned look on his face.

"But you look like you're in a lot of pain and I don't think we should." He nodded.

"I was but I'm not now." He nodded back, reached down, grabbed the hand on his stomach, and laced their fingers together. "We're okay," he reassured. "like you said we'll just go slow and we'll stop if it's too bad. Yes it's hurt a couple of times but not bad enough to want to stop."

Naraku pressed his lips together tightly not really sure if he was in fact okay. Sesshoumaru always acted like things were okay for his benefit when in fact they weren't okay. He slowly retracted his fingers watching his face closely and when he half moaned half gasped he drew his brows. "Was that bad or good?"

"Good." He smiled at him. "It feels strange now without your fingers in me but good." He grabbed him, pulled him up so he was hovering over him, and trailed his fingers through his hair. "I want you in me." He whispered with a slight flush at his own words as he moved a hand down between them and grasped Naraku's half hard length. "We're going to do this at least once and see."