Well, this was unplanned. Nevertheless, it was fun to do.


1. Suffocate - Cold

(This song, aside from sharing a title with the fic (which was actually coincidental) tells a story of a dysfunctional relationship, something that was twisted and tangled and basically one big web of lies. That's why it fits so well with this story. It's impossible to pick just one line from the song that fits the story, so I have a few I'd like to share. ''I could take every fucking game you play, blow it all away, but would you even care?'' That line symbolizes how Haley discovered the game Dean and Ruby were playing and confronted Ruby about it, effectively ending the game. Of course we all know Ruby had stopped caring about the game by then, her feelings for Haley running deeper than she ever thought they would. ''I could take all those lies you said to me; never go away, never disappear.'' That line tells the story of Dean and Haley's relationship. What she thought was real turned out to be a lie. Just part of his game. All that sweetness she thought he had inside of him was never real at all. And finally; ''Suffocate, you suffocate. That you lie (I don't lie), that you're fake (I'm not fake). Suffocate, you suffocate. You always take (I don't take), what you can (what I can).'' I think that pretty much sums up the entire story as a twisted and dark game of seduction and suffocation that started out innocently, got dangerous and then got all too real for one player who in the end, was not as strong as she appeared and just wanted it all to stop.)


2. Hysteria - Muse

(''It's bugging me, grating me and twisting me around.'' Growing increasingly confused about her sexual identity, Haley, a wife and mother and someone who is used to being the sweet, innocent little wallflower, is unexplainably drawn towards the dark and seductive and oh yeah, demonic Ruby. She doesn't know why, all she knows is that the Want and Need is powerful. '' 'Cause I want it now, I want it now; give me your heart and soul. And I'm breaking out, I'm breaking out; last chance to lose control.'')


3. Post Blue - Placebo

(It wasn't actually the admittedly fitting lyrics that drew me to this song as an inspiration for this story. It was the tune. Dark and edgy, like most Placebo songs (and trust me when I say it was difficult not to create a soundtrack consisting of ALL Placebo songs) something about this song screams raw, unadulterated sexual energy. Not to mention the lyrics fit not only Ruby and Haley, but Dean and Ruby's twisted and mutually abusive 'relationship.' ''Bite the hand that feeds. Tap the vein that bleeds. Down on my bended knees. I'd break the back of love for you, I'd break the back of love for you, I'd break the back of love for you, I'd break the back of love for you.'')


4. Catch and Release - Silversun Pickups

(First of all, let me say I will always regret not being able to go to see this band when I had the chance. But moving on. In my opinion, this song is about not only someone attempting to lure someone into their world, but that same someone wanting to live a different life so the person sings to them about how great it will be if they just let go. ''Come and see, how the wind in your hair will feel differently.'' Not only that, but it is a sexually charged song, from the lyrics to the melody and I think it fits perfectly with Haley and Ruby's evolving relationship both physically and emotionally. ''Follow me down the streams of sweat on your body. Can't believe, the lure was enough.'')


5. I Kissed A Girl - Katy Perry

(This song is about bisexual experimentation. There's no way to hide that. There's no way to sugarcoat it either. The song is about a girl who got drunk, kissed another girl and found she liked it. For that simple reason, it fits this story. No, Haley never got drunk and made out with Ruby, but when Ruby kissed her first, she kissed back and despite the confusion, she found she liked it. ''This was never the way I planned, not my intention.'' However, unlike the story, the girl in the song made it clear that it ''don't mean I'm in love tonight.'' But, c'mon. You write a story like this, you simply have to put this hit song on the soundtrack, right? It's just too amazingly fitting not to. ''I kissed a girl and I liked it. The taste of her cherry chapstick.'')


6. Front Row - Metric

(Much like Post Blue, what drew me to this song for this soundtrack was the tune. The beat, the melody. It just fit. The song is about the dangers of fame and the dangers of the music industry. It has a line in it about how ''he's not perfect, he's my hero, smashing the piano, spitting on the front row.'' And while the smashing the piano and spitting on the front row may describe Dean Winchester's villain role in this story, he is most definitely not a hero. But the frantic beat and the frenzied singing just seem to mesh with the speed of the story. And, like all songs, you can always find at least one line that sticks out and fits. ''I'm in the front row with a bottle; don't know what I can't decide.'')


7. Snow White Queen - Evanescence

(Actually, what really strikes me about this song, besides the haunting beat, is how it fits the battle Dean and Ruby had over Haley. They were both playing her and seducing her. She was essentially their Snow White Queen. ''You belong to me, my snow white queen. There's nowhere to run, so let's just get it over.'' Their little game worked out fine. Until Ruby got in too deep and actually developed feelings for Haley, losing control of her game in the process. ''Don't scream anymore, my love, 'cause all I want is you.'')


8. Kiss With A Fist - Florence + The Machine

(''You hit me once, I hit you back. You gave a kick, I gave a slap. You smashed a plate over my head then I set fire to our bed.'' Hmm, I wonder which couple that fits? That's right. This song is the Dean/Ruby anthem for this story. Their relationship is mutually abusive, self-destructive, terrifying, unhealthy and just plain fucked up beyond belief. And yet they do truly love each other. Or at least, she loves him. They have a hell of a lot of flaws in this story. Ruby is a self loathing masochist and Dean...well, Dean is just a fucked up jackass. They like to beat the shit out of each other, they like to scream and call each other names and yet, to them, it is probably the healthiest, not to mention longest, relationship either of them have ever been in. And isn't that just a little bit pathetic? I mean, I love them both in the show and in stories. But they are two very pathetic characters. ''A kick in the teeth is good for some. A kiss with a fist is better than none.'')


9. How Soon Is Now? - The Smiths

(Why, yes. Yes this is the Charmed theme song. Except this isn't the Love Spit Love cover. This is the original, baby. Aside from this being an all around awesome song (and one of the 500 Greatest Songs of All Time according to Rolling Stone magazine) the lyrics showcase what I hope the story showcased. ''I am human and I need to be loved, just like everybody else does.'' While Ruby technically wasn't human, all she really craved was love. She certainly didn't get it from Dean, but with Haley...with Haley it was something completely different. This song shows how beat down Ruby is in the relationship department and how along came Haley James and made her feel something that wasn't self destructive for a change. ''See, I've already waited too long. And all my hope is gone.'' In the end, of course, Ruby got her happy ending. And Dean just got his headlights bashed in.)


10. All the Things She Said - t.A.T.u

(If you know the story of t.A.T.u then you know that they were Russian teenagers who were blatantly portrayed as lesbians in a scheme their manager cooked up. This was their first single, a song that tells the story of a girl falling in love with another girl and wondering if the way she feels is wrong. The video involved a bunch of girls cavorting and kissing and when this song won the duo an award, they went up on stage and made out a little, thereby earning themselves the image of ''those Russian lesbians.'' The girls did eventually come out as straight, both playing the victim card and saying they had no idea they would have to pose as lesbians when they signed their contract. Despite the controversy, this song still remains wildly popular and was a major influence for this story. It tells not only of Haley's longing for Ruby, ''I keep closing my eyes but I can't block you out,'' but also Ruby's growing feelings for Haley, ''They say it's my fault but I want her so much.'' Fun fact: This story came this close to being titled ''All the Things She Said'' before I finally decided on ''Suffocate.'')


11. I Can't Stay Away - The Veronicas

(''I'm conflicted. I inhale; now I'm addicted.'' After that one kiss, Haley could no longer deny that the want she had for Ruby was deep and incredibly powerful. With this song, The Veronicas weave a story of a desperate affair that is wrong, addictive and like a drug. It fits Haley's feelings. After that one kiss, she couldn't let Ruby go even if she tried. Also, am I the only one who finds this line ''I was numb, for you I come'' entirely sexual?)


12. Closer - Burn Season

(To take a beloved character like Dean Winchester, who is portrayed as a hero and turn him into a crazed, sex addicted maniac, jerky villain dude was...just awesome. Revealed halfway through the story to be the dark mastermind behind The Vicious Game, Dean was a self assured, smug ass who basically thought he was God's gift to woman. He didn't feel bad for what he was doing, he didn't regret destroying lives, he didn't even care about Ruby, his so-called...whatever the fuck she was to him. What fits that more than ''You say there's something that's wrong in my head. So I like to bleed. You say I'm scaring you now but I'm tired from watching you sleep.'' I love Hero!Dean. But I think I'm beginning to love Evil!Dean even more. ''Don't say that it's over. I'd kill to be closer. I'd kill to be closer. You can't live without me.'')


13. The Wreckoning - Boomkat

(''I came, I saw, I kicked some ass; the pain I cause, it makes me laugh. 'Cause the way I do my thing is strange. I just inject myself into your veins.'' Despite gaining somewhat of a redemption in the end, Ruby did start off playing Haley. She was a heartless bitch. She'll always have an acid tongue and sharp claws no matter who she falls in love with. ''The sun will rise and it's about time for the wreckoning. Time, time for this girl to sing.'')


14. Monster - Meg and Dia

(Again, a Dean song. While Dean may not have gone as far as what I think this song is implying, he at least bruised Haley's ego a little. He tricked her into believing he was this righteous man who only wanted to protect her. Who could have loved her. And then it was all torn down when his true identity was revealed. ''That night he caged her. Bruised and broke her. He struggled closer. Then he stole her.'')


15. Miss Murder - AFI

(''With just a look they shook and heavens bowed before him. Simply a look can break your heart.'' While it was never really touched upon in the story, Dean and Ruby have done this many times and too many other girls. Possibly maybe even some guys. They both knew their sexual appeal and they both knew what they could make people do. They could make people do anything they wanted too and they knew it. They used it to their advantage. It was almost morbidly fascinating, the tales they would spin to get people into bed. Hmm, do I smell a prequel in the air? ''Hey, Miss Murder, can I? Hey, Miss Murder, can I? Make beauty stay if I take my life?'')


16. Circus - Britney Spears

(Yes, Ruby's tough and kick ass and can't be tamed. ''Well, baby, I'm a put-on-a-show kind of girl.'' Yes, she can play the game very well. ''I'm like a ring leader. I call the shots.'' But I think Haley proved that she is not just a wallflower and she can, in fact, kick some serious ass on occasion. I mean, hell, that girl bashed in the Impala's headlights because Dean did her wrong. Despite the fact that she was forced to shoot her own sister in the head ''Spotlight on me and I'm ready to break'' that girl is tough with a capital T. ''All eyes on me in the center of the ring. Just like a circus. When I crack that whip, everybody gonna trip. Just like a circus.'')


17. Suddenly I See - KT Tunstall

(To me, this song is about a girl crush. ''Her face is a map of the world. Is a map of the world. You can see she's a beautiful girl. She's a beautiful girl.'' It also tells a story of a girl everyone loves. While everyone may not have loved Ruby, something about her drew Haley in. ''She holds you captivated in her palm.'' There's a line in the story about how Haley so badly wants to know everything about Ruby. Wants to be a part of her world. And this song is the perfect kind of song for that. Whether it's friendship, admiration or lust, this song is about one girl to another. ''Suddenly I see. This is what I wanna be. Suddenly I see. Why the hell it means so much to me.''


18. Use Somebody - Laura Jansen

(Originally sung by Kings of Leon, this song is covered by Dutch singer-songwriter Laura Jansen and the upbeat yet emotional song is turned into a slow piano ballad about desperately searching for something. ''I've been roaming around, always looking down at all I see. Painted faces fill the places I can't reach. You know that I could use somebody.'' After the death of her mother and the murders of her sisters, Haley had everything stripped away from her from her son to her friends. She went on the road with the Winchesters and despite her calm appearance, she was broken inside. And then Ruby came. ''Someone like you and all you know and how you speak.'' She was emotionless and strong and yet Haley instantly forged a connection with the demoness, eventually falling into somewhat of a relationship with her. ''I hope it's gonna make you notice. I hope it's gonna make you notice...Someone like me.'' Not to mention the lyrics at the end ''I'm ready, I'm ready, I'm ready now'' fit perfectly with Haley and Ruby's confrontation at the end.)


19. Quicksand - Everly

(Sung by Bethany Joy herself, this song is a perfect addition to the story, a welcome love song in the midst of all these...well, not love songs. This is the end song. After leaving Dean in the dust, Haley misses Ruby more than she'll ever admit, ''I'm not the same. I can't sleep nights and now I'm callin' your name when I do'' and she eventually goes to Bobby's in search of the blonde that had wormed her way into her head and her heart. Ruby shows up in the middle of the night and Haley's still pretty darn fragile, but at least her ending has somewhat of a hopeful message. ''You're holding my hand and holding my heart, but I just want to feel your breath inside me so I can breathe. Somewhere in the distance I catch a spark of grace; I hope it's something that makes me feel like I'm alive.'' Haley James and Ruby are an odd couple. There's no denying that. But I think I've fallen in love with them. They could definitely have something going on there. One thing is for sure; I can totally see more Haley/Ruby stories in my future.