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Introduction

Depression- an act of depressing or a state of being depressed: as a : a pressing down : lowering : a state of feeling sad : dejection : a psychoneurotic or psychotic disorder marked especially by sadness, inactivity, difficulty in thinking and concentration, a significant increase or decrease in appetite and time spent sleeping, feelings of dejection and hopelessness, and sometimes suicidal tendencies : a reduction in activity, amount, quality, or force : a lowering of vitality or functional activity.

I have depression, or so my doctors say. That's what they blamed my suicide attempt on.

Not more than a week ago, my parents found my body in the upstairs bathroom of my house with my wrists slit and the water running pink down the drain.

After rushing me to the hospital, I was saved, in their opinion of the word saved.

Save- To rescue from harm, danger, or loss. To set free from the consequences of sin; redeem. To keep in a safe condition; safeguard. To prevent the waste or loss of; conserve

They may have saved me from their sense of the word, but I in no way feel unharmed, free from sin, or kept safe.

They may have saved me from losing my life, but I had a reason.

All my life I have been bullied and pushed around. No one was ever there to save me before, why was it so important now to save me. I feel so safe… yea right… in their dreams I do.

But now, all because I couldn't live another day standing the kind of abuse I receive, I have depression. It never mattered before until now. They never once considered that there maybe more behind my suicide. My parents never wondered, they never asked why. After the doctor said I had depression, though it still caused problems for my parents, they figured there was nothing that contributed to it. Show how smart my parents are. My mother is a workaholic and my father is too busy caring about sports and training my brother, they never thought there could be any reason, they all thought my life was perfect and happy.

This all started when my parents thought it was best to send my brother to an all boy's school and me to an all girl's school. (By the way, my brother and I are twins and were inseparable) My brother flourished well in a new school system, but I was the complete opposite. I was ignored, bullied, and pushed around. Then one day I finally gained a real friend.

Then everyone began to bully her, too. She could only hand the abuse for so long till she left me, too and I was all-alone since then.

Now that I'm out of the hospital, I told my parents I would never go back. I stopped talking to people, and refused anyone who was a female besides my mom.

I never trusted any women ever again.

After refusing to go back school, my mother decided to change school, but finding a new school I was going to go to was a lot harder then either of my parents thought.

I refused to go to any all girls' school, so my parents thought a Co-ed School would be good for me. I still refused to go. After that they tried to hire a tutor, still no luck seeing as only available ones were females. My parents tried to teach me themselves, but mom was to busy and dad wasn't that smart.

They had no options left in their minds.

Finally, my brother came back from school for vacation, and heard all that happened while he was gone.

He felt so guilty about very thing, and never left my side as long as he was home. On the day before he had to go back to school he suggested, "Why don't you go to my school?"

Of course I said yes, but my parents were still unsure of the idea, but seeing as I was too young to quit school, they emailed the school, filled out the papers, and made arrangements so that my brother and I would dorm together.

The next day I packed my bags and left home. The only thing was I wasn't Naomi anymore, I was Naoki.