Misunderstandings

Chapter 1: Secret Yearnings

He had been dating the tall blond beauty for a month and although it was nice, it was nothing compared to what he had expected. Zack Martin stood in the elevator on his way up to the 23rd floor of the Tipton hotel where his family lived.

He had just finished talking to Maddie downstairs about what they were going to do on their next date, and was surprised when he didn't feel…well anything, when he kissed her. He had been shocked the first time, happy, even thrilled but he didn't feel the spark he imagined. Now a month had passed and still nothing, not to say it wasn't nice, just not what he had expected it to be.

He walked off the elevator and into his suite, still thinking about his girlfriend.

"Zack are you okay?" Cody asked concerned. When he didn't receive an answer for the third time he walked over and sat down next to his brother on the couch. "Earth to Zack, come in Zack?"

"Codes, can I ask you something?"

The younger twin looked into his brother's eyes and as he gazed back, he could almost see the wheels turning in his mind, and knew that something was up.

"Sure Zack, anything, you know that."

When you were dating Barbara, when you kissed her, did you feel anything?" he asked timidly.

"What do you mean?" Cody replied.

"It's hard to explain but when I started seeing Maddie, I was in heaven walking on a cloud. She had finally given me a chance. And our first date was amazing, almost perfect. And so when I took her home and she let me kiss her, I was thrilled…until we locked lips. It was okay, I mean, it wasn't bad, but…there was something missing, I didn't feel what I should have felt, in fact I didn't feel anything."

"Wow," the younger boy replied. "I don't know what to say."

"Its crazy right, I must be crazy, I mean she's gorgeous, something must be wrong with me?" Zack waited as Cody thought about what he had just told him.

"Maybe your feelings for Maddie overshadowed your expectations; therefore they never could quite live up to the reality of real life," he explained. "I'm not saying you don't have strong feelings for her, but love is blind and maybe a bit misguided also."

The older boy sat silently for a minute and thought about what Cody had just told him. "Were you in love with Barbara?"

Cody slightly smiled, "At the time I thought I was, but looking back, I don't think that's true. We seemed to always be in competition with one another, although I did care about her, and in many ways still do, I can honestly say, no, I wasn't in love with her."

Zack smiled and looked into his brothers eyes. A strand of his bangs played across his forehead, and unconsciously he brushed it back into place causing a sharp intake of breath from his younger sibling. They gazed at one another for a few minutes more until Cody shifted in his seat and turned his eyes away.

"Please don't look at me like that?" he said making his brother frown. "You know why we can't do this, we've been over this."

"I know, I'm sorry." Zack quietly got up. "I'm tired; I'm going to take a nap before dinner," he added as he prepared to walk into the room they shared.

"Zack?" Cody called from the couch as he was about to shut the door behind him.

"Yes?"

"Never mind, have a nice nap," Cody smiled.

Closing the door, he stood for a moment trying to erase the thought of Cody from his mind. They had always shared secret feelings, hidden desires, and forbidden longings too dangerous to reveal to others. The simple conclusion was not to act on them.

He decided he would be more comfortable in his pajamas, and seeing how it was almost seven he didn't see how it would make a difference since in a few short hours he'd be going to bed anyway, but as he was removing all his clothing and discarding them into the hamper the door slowly slid open.

"Zack…?" Cody began but froze as he gazed at the beauty that was his brother.

Cody was in awe, as his eyes roamed over his twin's body, taking in the sensuous curb of his hips and the slight muscle movement of his pecks. The atmosphere in the room warmed as his thoughts turned carnal. 'God he's magnificent,' the younger boy thought. All his desire came bubbling to the surface and he forced himself to look away. He muttered a low "I'm sorry" and began to exit the small space until he felt a hand grab a hold of his wrist tenderly.

"Cody," Zack whispered as he turned his brother to him until they were a mere inches apart. The younger boy could feel the warmth of his breath against his cheek and the gentle caress of his hand.

He then kissed his forehead as he slipped an arm around his waist and pulled him closer to him until Cody could feel his heartbeat through the fingertips he had pressed up against his chest.

Ever so slightly Zack brushed his lips against his twin's and Cody sighed into the touch that awakened every part of his senses. Wrapping his arms around his neck Cody pulled him in until they were both forced up against the door behind him and he was pinned up against the wooden surface.

A deep ache began to form at the pit of his stomach as his brother's thigh dug into his center, and he found himself moaning and clasping his butt cheeks in order to force him harder against him, needing the friction that the movement would create. The kiss lasted several minutes as they each explored every crevice of the others mouth.

"Zack," Cody whispered.

"Mmm Codes, there's the feeling I was talking about."

"We can't do this, it would be so wrong."

"Then why does it feel so right?" Zack sighed through hushed breaths.

Cody brushed his nose against his twin's lovingly and caressed his cheek, making the other boy smile reminding him of the feathered Indian kisses they used to give to one another when they were small.

A single tear fell down Cody's face and he wanted nothing more than to show his brother how much he loved him. To finally free all those deeply hidden emotions and feelings that he could not deny. But he also knew in the back of his mind that they would never be able to live a normal life as lovers.

"I'm in love with you; I always have been, but…" Cody sighed.

Zack surprised him when he again pressed his lips to his and he felt himself melt into that touch. The kiss was slow and lingering and he moaned and heard him do the same. Cody played with the hair at the base of his brother's neck and was instantly lifted into his waiting arms, as he wrapped his legs around his midsection and was carried to his bed.

Zack placed Cody on the bed and laid down over him, gently pressing him into the mattress, while never breaking the kiss, Cody was in heaven. As he played with the muscles on his twins back and felt a hand roam up underneath his shirt, he realized he wanted this more than anything in the world, but they needed to talk first.

So regretfully he slightly pushed his brother off of him. "Zack please we need to talk about this?" Cody squealed when he felt a hand across his nipple and pair of lips suck on his neck. "Or maybe it can wait."

"Sorry, I just can't resist, why do you have to be so damn adorable?" Zack smirked in between nibbles. "You're too irresistible for your own good, you know that?"

"Mmmm…" was the only response.

Zack sat up on an elbow and gazed at his twin, his eyes glazed over with desire told him all he needed to know. But Cody was right, they needed to talk, and as badly as he wanted to continue, he also knew he couldn't rush things.

"Zack, why did you stop?"

"I thought you wanted to talk about this?"

"Yes I do, but not right this second," Cody gazed up at his brother with hungry eyes and slowly raked them over his brother's body until they rested on his manhood. "No I don't think this is the right time at all," he added licking his lips seductively.

Cody placed a hand behind Zack's head and brought him down for a deep demanding kiss, turning them over so that he was now on top. He then pushed him deep into the mattress as he grabbed his hips and began to grind into him. He heard his brother gasp as the friction began to take shape and he attacked his neck with his lips.

"I want you and need you, don't you know how hard it is for me, too know you are so damn close, and yet so off limits," Cody practically screeched as the pressure began to build and his brother began to whimper underneath him. "I want you so much it hurts."

Adding to the torture Cody slipped his hand in between their joined bodies and took a hold of his lover's balls, which he now fondled, making the older boy cry out his name. The pleasure intensified as the boys began to reach their climax. With one earth shattering release and a cry of pleasure, they emptied their seed and their bodies melted together as Cody collapsed onto his lover in a deep embrace.

The room fell silent as the two trembling bodies held onto one another for support. Cody kissed his brother tenderly as he pulled a blanket over them and kissed the sheen of sweat that gathered across his lover's forehead.

A few minutes later the boys lay in one another's arms content and comfortable. Cody lay on top playing with the small hairs on Zack's chest as in turn his lover played with his hair entangling the locks in between his fingers.

"Zack, I've been thinking about what you said about Maddie. And the question you asked me about Barbara."

"Yeah?"

"I think the reason I couldn't give my heart away to Barbara is because it was never mine to give, it always belonged to you." Cody blushed and buried his face in his lover's stomach. "So maybe the reason you don't feel a connection with Maddie is because of the same reason."

"Codes, are you asking me if I love you?"

"I suppose I am," the younger boy replied as he sat up to look down at him.

Zack looked into his eyes and they were filled with deep pools of emotion as well as worry. "You are my world, and I love you more than life itself," Zack replied taking one of his lover's hands and softly kissing the palm. "I thought that would be obvious to you."

"I guess I just wanted to hear you say it," Cody smiled. "It sounds so good when you do, I guess with you dating Maddie, I thought…"

"Correction…was dating Maddie, I can't go on pretending with her, when I have something so real and true here," Zack stated sincerely. "My heart belongs to you, and that will never change. I love you."

"I love you too Zack," Cody returned with a cheesy smile, making the older twin chuckle.

Glancing over at the clock on the dresser Cody sighed, "I guess I better get up and make dinner; Mom should be home in a couple of hours."

Zack pulled his brother down for a kiss and the next hour was spent in bed. The world didn't exist as they continued and were filled with overpowering emotions. Desires came bubbling up to the surface once again and soon Cody found himself lying nude next to his lover as they continued their love fest.

"I guess cooking will have to wait," Cody said.

"Hell, we'll order a pizza," Zack replied as they both laughed.

An: Okay here is my first chapter i hope you've enjoyed reading it. Please R&R!