A/N: This story is set right after Home and so it contains spoilers for that. Although it has nothing to do with my other story Any Minute Now… I got the idea from that story. The thought of Finn wanting to experiment just fueled my imagination, and this is what I came up with. It will be several chapters long. Rated M for future chapters.

What Do You Suppose Would Happen?

Kurt looked over at Finn. The other boy was staring at the TV and switching the channels repeatedly. He would stop on some action movie, watch it for awhile, and then switch to a sports channel. Kurt just wanted to yank the remote out of his hand and yell at him to make up his mind.

He couldn't do that though. He knew that Finn was just reacting to the awkwardness in the room. Awkwardness that Kurt had caused. Why did he ever think this was a good idea?

Things had been difficult since Kurt had set up their parents. His plan had worked beautifully, of course. Kurt had known it would. But unfortunately he hadn't thought it through.

Intellectually on some level he understood. After all, he enjoyed spending time with Carole. She could never replace his mother, but he could talk to her about things his dad could never comprehend. Emotionally though when he saw his dad's face light up when he was discussing 'guy' stuff with Finn, it hurt. He felt so alone, left out. He was often tempted just to walk out of the room and see if anyone noticed. He didn't though. He didn't know if he could take it if they just went on without him.

His dad was his whole world. The person he depended on the most. Even though they didn't see eye to eye on many things, Kurt had spent his whole life trying to gain his approval. That was why he joined the football team, and why he never complained about working with him in the shop. It was something they shared. And although Kurt didn't like it at first … he would always get dirty and grease was hard to get out of his nails… he had gained a sense of pride at being able to fix an engine, just like his dad.

So now he had what he wanted… Finn's undivided attention. He and Finn were alone since their parents were out on a date. But he couldn't enjoy it. There had always been some awkward moments between them due to Kurt's feelings for the other boy. He wasn't even sure Finn realized what the strain was between them, but he knew the other boy could feel it. And now it was increased tenfold. So many unspoken feelings were between them, and Kurt felt like they were further apart than ever. The air felt thick with the tension.

"Do you want to watch something?" Finn asked breaking Kurt out of his self-depreciating thoughts.

"No, thanks. But you're giving me a headache, switching the channels like that."

"Oh, sorry," Finn replied, turning the TV off.

The silence was overwhelming, and Kurt felt bad for snapping at him.

"Sorry, Finn," Kurt said softly.

"It's okay. This is just kinda… uncomfortable. Are you mad at me Kurt?"

"Of course not, Finn."

"I know you wanted to break up our parents but… my mom's so happy, Kurt. I just can't do it. She deserves to be happy."

Kurt just nodded.

"But so do you. I just hate how much this hurts you. I don't want that either."

Finn was looking at his so earnestly. Kurt really couldn't blame Finn for any of this. The other boy hadn't known his own dad … and now he had a chance to connect with someone. But why did it have to be his dad? But Kurt knew the answer to that. He had brought this on himself.

"It think it's getting easier, Finn." It was a lie, but he didn't want Finn to worry about his feelings.

"I hope so."

"Do you want another soda?" He needed this… a chance to go into the kitchen and get away for even a moment.

"Sure, thanks."

Kurt took his time… cleaning up the already clean kitchen before he returned with their drinks.

"This is nice though," Finn said. "Things have been different lately and I miss us being friends."

"We're still friends, Finn. We will always be friends."

"I'm glad," he said with a smile. Kurt was suddenly reminded of why he did this in the first place. And here he was, alone with Finn.

"This is nice, Finn."

"Remember when we used to talk about stuff, Kurt? I thought maybe we could talk."

"Okay. What did you want to talk about?"

"Girls," he said shyly.

He should have known. That one word shattered the any warm feelings Kurt had. Of course, Finn liked girls and that was what he wanted to talk about. But at least he trusted him enough to come to him with his problems. That was something. Right?

"What about them?"

"I'm sure you heard by now that I slept with Santana. Everyone seems to know."

"She announced it over the loud speaker, Finn."

"Yeah, why did she do that?"

Because she's a girl and they will all just break your heart, he wanted to respond, but he didn't.

"Anyway, it wasn't what I thought it would be like. I mean it didn't feel like I thought it would. Do you know what I mean?"

Maybe it was due to all the frustration he had been feeling for the last few days. Maybe it was the months of listening to Finn talk about Quinn, Rachel, and now Santana. Maybe it was just that he was tired of Finn's single-mindedness. But suddenly he couldn't listen to it anymore.

"Actually, Finn… no. I don't know what you mean."

"Huh?" That had gotten his attention.

"And do you know why Finn?"

The other boy just looked confused.

"I don't know what that's like because I have never done that before. I have never even kissed anyone, Finn. So I have no idea what you mean."

"Really? That surprises me."

"Why does that surprise you Finn?" he said irritably. "Do you know any boys who are gay in Lima?"

"I know you."

Kurt rolled his eyes. Really Finn could be so dense.

"Other than me, Finn. Someone I could kiss."

"No, but I thought maybe you had kissed a girl."

"I don't even like girls... in that way, Finn. Why would I do that?"

Finn looked a little embarrassed then. "I'm sorry, Kurt. I thought maybe…that you had kissed a girl and that's how you knew you liked boys."

Kurt laughed then. Finn really had no clue. "When I imagine kissing … someone, it is never a girl. That's how I know I don't like girls, Finn. I mean there are other ways that I know, but that's a major one."

"Oh, I see."

Kurt really couldn't believe they were sitting on his couch discussing kissing. All his frustration from before had dissipated to be replaced by a new frustration. One that had everything to do with the topic they were discussing.

"But wait… you said you didn't know any gay guys in Lima. So who do you imagine kissing?"

Kurt realized in that moment that this was his chance. He could admit to Finn that he wanted to kiss him… that he loved him…

But then the awkwardness would return… and Finn might hate him. He couldn't do that. Not when things were finally getting better.

"That's a personal question, Finn. And one I am not going to answer."

"God, you're right. I'm sorry. And thinking about all the guys we know. I am not sure I want to know anyway."

Kurt just shook his head at the other boy. He really was clueless.

"I do know what you mean, though. I've been feeling the same way."

"Finn, you've lost me, I'm afraid."

"Kissing. I know what it's like to wonder and to only be able to imagine."

"Finn …you have a lot of experience kissing…" Kurt tried unsuccessfully not to think of all that experience… and what a good kisser Finn must be.

"I know… but not with guys."

Kurt looked at Finn in surprise.

"Finn… I… What?"

"I don't know what it would be like to kiss a guy. I mean I can imagine… I think a guy's lips would be firmer… and taste different…"

Kurt was having a hard time concentrating on what Finn was saying. The blood was draining away from his head… and well… going elsewhere. He really needed to focus.

"You've thought about kissing guys, Finn?"

"Yeah and other things, too. Are you alright, Kurt? You don't look so well. You're not going to faint are you?"

Kurt took a deep breath. "No, I'm fine Finn, just surprised."

"I hope you don't mind me talking about this. I thought you would understand better than anyone."

"It's… fine. Go on."

"Well, you see, Kurt, yesterday my mom was watching a movie. It was a cowboy movie so I thought I would like it, so I watched it with her."

"What was the movie, Finn?"

"I think it was called Brokeback Mountain or something like that."

Kurt just stared at him. There was so much hype about that movie, especially in conservative Lima. How could he have not known?

"Any way it was kinda uncomfortable watching that movie with my mom. When those guys were kissing…It got me thinking… about what it would be like to kiss a guy."

Kurt thought he could understand. Finn had felt something and was now curious.

"How many times did you watch the parts with them kissing, Finn?"

"After my mom went to bed… I watched them over and over," he admitted quietly.

Kurt tried to squash the hope he was suddenly feeling. Just because Finn might be gay, didn't mean he would be interested in Kurt.

"Anyway, Kurt," he continued. "When you were talking earlier I had a thought. Maybe we could help each other out."

"What do you mean, Finn?"

"We could be each other's first. Your fist kiss ever and my fist kiss with a guy. What do you say, Kurt?"

"Wait… you want to…" Kurt understood the words, but he still had trouble processing them. It just seemed impossible. Finn wanted him to … what?

"Can I kiss you, Kurt? Please?"

Finn seemed so sincere and as Kurt looked into his eyes, he thought then that he might actually faint, after all.