"I tried to be perfect,
But nothing was worth it"

Zack tossed and turned in his bed, making a big mess of the sheets beneath him, as sweat devoured every inch of his pained face and body. He tried to hold back a moan of pain as his stomach decided to turn into a feisty roller coaster that had gone out of control. He hadn't received a minute of sleep or rest ever since he came back from that jewelry store and bought Cody the "one of a kind" pair of earrings that he'd been itching to get so badly for Bailey, since the moment he'd that heard she wanted them. Zack could hardly believe that he actually ate ears and eye balls just for his younger brothers sake and happiness, however he didn't regret it, or so he thought until another wave of sickness came along and washed him all the way to the bathroom to heave the contents of the "things" he ate a couple of hours ago.

Feeling rather lightheaded, Zack gradually began making his journey back to his bed, with a few stops on the way to steady himself, he finally made it after a good long five minutes. He sat up on his bed, with his back leaning against the wooden board, while he drank the remains of the water he had in his water bottle. He never liked being ill, not that anyone did, but he always felt so weak and helpless and that bothered him greatly. Even though he had to admit that right now the feeling of helplessness wasn't what bothered him the most but the fact that his twin brother wasn't even around to check up on him or even realize that he'd been sick. He was probably too busy enjoying himself with Bailey and the rest to even notice that Zack had left the room abruptly soon after giving Cody the earrings.

Zack tried to shake such thoughts from his head by looking for a distraction, something that would distract him from the wild amount of pain he felt in his stomach and to a bigger extent; his aching heart. He found a magazine lying on the table next to his bed and decided it would be the best distraction considering he had never read it before. Once Zack finished skimming through it he glanced at the clock and found it was 9:02, almost an hour and a half since he had left the rest and almost an hour and a half since he had expected Cody to run after him to check on him or even thank him, but the second never happened.

The thought of Cody lead to many other thoughts and memories. Memories were all mostly heart whelming as for the thoughts not so much.

"I thought it'd be easy"

Cody had started to grow away from Zack and closer to other people that he seemed to favor over his own twin brother. Zack had noticed a while ago, that he and Cody barely ever spoke and every time they did it ended up in an argument of some sort with one leaving the other behind, that's why he did what he'd done today. He'd wanted to make up for all the mistakes he had committed, wanted Cody's forgiveness and happiness and best of all get his little brother back. Only nothing happened, it almost felt like Cody didn't appreciate it and had shrugged it off like it meant nothing to him. That killed Zack. Was he really not good enough? Was he unworthy of his brothers love? Does he deserve all this pain?

Before Zack could come up with any answers, he was doubled over in striking pain and began whimpering and quietly sobbing. He was not sure if the source of pain was his stomach or the sudden rush of wretched emotions through his mind. It didn't matter though not to him and not to anyone else, he had lost the most precious thing in his life.

"I'm trying to let you know"

Hours and minutes passed by and Zack continued to whimper and moan in pain, he was feeling worse than ever, never had he expected himself to be this weak physically or emotionally and never had he expected to get through his worst moment on his own, in the dark, laying there in a small ball, forgotten by Cody and his friends. Zack turned one last time to check the time: thirty minutes to midnight. He sighed, exasperated and exhausted, turning to face the ceiling, where he stared at the shadows that laughed and pointed at him.

He gave up.

"…That I'm better off on my own"

"Zack?"

A/N So this it for now, I know its not like Zack but I felt like this how he would of felt like after the incident, this is probably going to have just one more chapter and more sequels, because its a little different and unexpected. The italics are actually part of a song called pieces by sum 41. I hope you guys liked it, let me know what you think, so read and review xD