{I've never wanted to cry when writing my own story before, but I did for this one. SoTISSUE WARNING!!

Disclaimer: I don't own Jamie & Landon or their story, Nicholas Sparks and his genius brain do!}

Break My Fall

I made my wish list two years ago when I was first diagnosed with Leukemia. Although long, I was managing to cross most of them off. The day I crossed #42 off was the day my life changed.

Landon came into my life when #42 was finally done. He was the reason I completed it.

He'll never know how much he means to me or how much he's done for me. With every smile he keeps me breathing and with every touch he keeps me hanging on. Everytime I see him I fall in love all over again. Sweet Landon with his strong arms that protect me and his voice that saves me. I know it wasn't always like that though, I know there were times when the sound of my voice made him roll his eyes and seeing me made him turn away.

There are days now when I'm the one who turns away when I see him. I don't understand how he can love me like this, my hair matted, my skin dull and blotchy and my eyes heavy with bags of fatigue. When I look away though, he takes my face in his strong hands and tells me he loves me even more.

I know I don't have much time left with him though, in fact, I overheard the doctor talking to Landon and dad yesterday. He said I probably won't make it to Friday.

Today's Tuesday.

The only reason I've lasted so long is because of Landon and dad. Without their love, I would have left a long time ago, when the pain was new. Now it's dulling and almost unbearable.

Landon's here now, I feel him before I see him enter the room. He kneels beside me and takes my hand in his.

"Hey," he says, stroking my hair with his free hand. I smile weakly.

"Hi," I can't speak loudly without feeling a sharp pain in my lungs. He knows this and kisses my hand gently.

"I've been thinking a lot Jamie," he says, softly, "I love you and I always will, but I can't stand seeing you in pain. I wish I could trade spaces with you, but I can't and it hurts me to see you this way." I know where he's headed, but I don't speak. "I think it's time," he says, and he looks away. This is hurting him almost as much as it hurts me.

My free hand moves on top of his and with the little strength I have, I squeeze it, feeling his wedding band press into my palm.

"Thank you, Landon, for everything," I tell him, watching his face, "but you're right, I can't hold on anymore. Please don't hate me for leaving you." He turns to look at me again, tears in his eyes. I rest my hand on his cheek, wiping away a tear.

"Baby, I could never hate you," he says, his voice unsteady. He leans in to kiss me gently, his breath hot against my face.

"I love you so much," I tell him.

"I love you too," he replies, and I'm no longer scared. He clings to my hand and I take a deep breath. Smiling softly, I close my eyes for the last time.