Title: Prelude to What is Stolen

Genre: romance, hurt/comfort

Rating: T for language, mild violence, and suggest themes (might go up)

Pairings: JohanXJudai (spiritshipping)

Summary: Judai couldn't be happier. Johan has proposed to him! But just when Judai thinks that life can't get any better, Giese Hunter returns from God knows where and seeks revenge on the two. Yubel swears to protect Judai and Johan from the man that once worked for her, but will Yubel's strength alone be enough to stop the hunter and his new found powers? Giese decides to get revenge on Johan by stealing Ruby! Judai blames himself and goes to get Ruby back! But is this exactly as Giese planned? What will they do? Can Yubel help?

Me: Chapter twelve of "Prelude to What is Stolen"!

Lucy: Judai had a mental break down and a spazz attack, within good reason, but Johan managed to calm him down a bit, and for the most part, Johan seems to have made him a little bit better.

Me: Disclaimer! I do not own Fushgi Yugi or Yu-Gi-Oh! GX! They are the property of Yuu Watase and Kazuki Takahashi! And, we have changed up the idea so that it is not identical!

Lucy: What will this chapter bring? Read on!

Chapter Twelve: Once in a Blue Moon

"I can't believe I let that sick fuck have his way with me! Not him... Oh, God, not him-!" Judai yelled. He started scrubbing himself a bit harder until he started bleeding.

Johan's eyes widened. "Judai, stop it!" he yelled. He grabbed Judai's wrist and stopped him. "You're making yourself bleed!"

"Let me go!" Judai cried as he started struggling. Johan gripped Judai's wrist tighter and held him fast. Judai tried to yank himself free from his fiance's captive grip. "Dammit! Let me go, Johan!"

Johan jerked Judai forward and caught him in a tight embrace.

Judai instantly stopped flailing and stood still in Johan's embrace. He was trembling, and whenever he trembled even slightly, Johan would hold him a bit tighter.

After a moment, Johan slipped his arms from around Judai's shoulders, turned and walked towards the edge of the pond. He pushed a tree branch that had fallen into the sea-pool away.

"Let's get out, Judai," he called back. "I'll start a fire and cook some more fish for us as soon as I catch some, okay?"

Judai watched silently as Johan yanked himself out of the pond and went off to gather fire wood. Judai stood in the pond for a few more minutes and then slowly walked out.

Judai sat silently with his back towards Johan. Night had fallen, and Johan had covered Judai with nothing but his white and purple shirt. Judai held it like a jacket over his body. He hadn't moved an inch in hours.

Johan looked towards Judai and smiled slightly. "Judai, the fish is ready. You hungry?" he asked.

Judai kept his silence once again. Johan sighed and started cooking a few more of the fish. The silence was starting to annoy him once again, but he could start to understand why Judai wasn't speaking. If something like this had happened to him, then Johan was certain that he wouldn't know what to say about it.

Johan couldn't believe he had allowed this to happen.

If only I'd been just a bit faster, Johan thought, gripping his hand into a fist. His nails cut into his palm, almost making him bleed. If only I'd come sooner, then this wouldn't have happened to Judai! It's all my fault!

"I..."

Johan glanced up, breaking away from his stray thoughts, and saw Judai still facing away from him. The brunette had his head buried in his folded arms, and he was refusing to look any where near the bluenette.

"Johan, I won't be able to marry you anymore," Judai said.

Johan felt as if some cruel god of absolute coldness and despair had taken a hold on his heart and squeezed it with its claws. He could feel his heart pulsating just a bit faster, and it was making him sick. He almost stopped breathing. The brunette turned and stared at Judai with wide, light green eyes.

"W-what are you talking about?" Johan asked.

Judai shivered just a little at the bluenette's hurt tone. He hated doing this to Johan, but it was the truth.

He just couldn't. He wasn't worthy of that right anymore. Johan was the only person in his life that he had ever liked in that way, and Judai had betrayed that because of what happened. Sure, it wasn't his fault, but Judai didn't care. In his own eyes, he had betrayed Johan, and there was no taking it back.

Judai looked away and closed his eyes. "I'm so sorry. Especially after you proposed to me. You were even so kind as to wait for me until we were married to have sex with me," he said. "You can laugh. Call me an idiot, if you want. Hell, I am one. It's kinda funny. I'd laugh."

To prove his point, Judai gave a soft, dry laugh.

Johan shivered a bit at the sound of the dry laugh that came from his beloved. He saw Judai's shoulders quaking under the white and purple shirt that he had covered him with.

"What is this?" Johan yelled. He shifted a bit closer to Judai, who shrunk down. "This was not your fault, Judai! None of it! If I had only been a little faster, then... Then maybe this wouldn't have-"

"I came knowing that something like this could have happened!" Judai yelled.

Johan fell silent once again in shock.

The same cold feeling of despair washed over his soul, and he couldn't find anything. Johan watched as Judai shivered and curled up a bit closer into a ball in the white and purple shirt.

"If I snuck up on Giese, I could get Ruby's spirit back from him!" Judai yelled. "I was fricken' dumb enough to believe that and went rushing right into it! I knew somewhere in the back of my mind that this could happened, but I never pegged Giese as the type to rape a guy! I went off on my own without even considering how you felt, or even considering if you got worried, and I got nothing! I didn't even get the Ruby back because she wasn't stolen! God, I fucking had it coming!"

He shuddered and almost started crying again.

"I'm so fucking pathetic! God, what type of person am I? Jesus! God, I just want to die right now! I didn't mean to go and betray you like that! I'm so, so sorry, Johan!"

Judai started crying as soon as he finished. He covered his face with his hands and started shaking.

"I'm so-"

Judai stopped crying and yelling when he felt Johan wrap his arms around his shoulders and jerk him backwards into an embrace. Johan rested his head on Judai's shoulder and gripped him as tightly as he could. Judai shivered, and like what happened in the water earlier, Johan clutched him closer every time he sobbed.

"Judai..." Johan whispered. "Take off the coat and show me your body, okay?"

Judai turned around and looked at Johan in shock.

"J-Johan?"

Johan reached forward and slowly started removing the shirt of his that Judai had covered himself with. Judai gasped as his naked body was revealed, and he covered himself quickly with his arms. He didn't want Johan seeing him after what had happened. He didn't feel as though he were good enough for Johan anymore.

Johan reached forward again and moved Judai's arms out of the way, taking in a good image of him.

"There's nothing wrong with you," Johan whispered. "You are perfectly clean to me, Judai. There's nothing wrong with you or your body. You're no different now than you were the day that we met. I still think what I thought then. Nothing was more beautiful in the world than you."

Johan looked up and locked eyes with Judai.

"Nothing can make you defiled, and nothing can make you any less pure to me than you always have been," the bluenette said. "I don't care if you were raped or not, that doesn't change how I feel! I didn't want to marry you because you were a virgin, Judai!"

Johan wrapped his arms around Judai and brought him close, as close as he could get him.

"So, you don't have to cry anymore," he said. "Even if you aren't a virgin anymore, so what? You're still right here with me, and I am not going anywhere. I promise you that I will always be here for you, no matter what happens. So, don't cry, all right?"

He pulled back just enough to make eye-contact with Judai.

"I swore that I would always be with you. And I'll swear it as many times as I must, because you're... everything to me, Judai. Nothing in the world has more meaning to me than you do," Johan told the brunette.

Judai felt tears swelling in his eyes, and he wrapped his arms around Johan's waist. Johan! Please stop being so nice to me. I don't deserve it after all that has happened.

"Nothing's changed," Johan whispered.

He wanted- no, he needed Judai to understand.

Judai had been through so much, and Johan understood why Judai would feel like he had betrayed Johan. But he hadn't. Judai had not asked for Giese to do what he did, and no matter what it cost him, Johan would make him pay. He swore to all things holy that Johan would make Giese pay for every single tear that he made Judai cry, and every single ounce of pain that made Judai feel.

"I still love you, Judai. And I always will," Johan said, staring into Judai's eyes. "I swear that. But, I want you to swear that you won't leave me, all right? No matter what happens? Do you swear that to me?"

Judai sniffled and drew closer to the man that he loved, the man who meant the whole world to him.

"I swear..." Johan... God, I love you so much!

Me: Aw! Judai had another mental breakdown, but Johan snapped him out of it again!

Lucy: Johan's so romantic! He's such a great person! But what's he going to do to Giese for what he did to Judai? Will he just sit there and do nothing, or will he go and kick Giese's ass?

Me: I think we all know the answer to that, Lucy-chan! We all know the answer to that!

Lucy: Please review nicely and we'll update!