KH: Okay since it's mother's day these are a series of women who have been a big inspiration in my life. It's in this order: Mom, Grandma (deceased), Nana, my biology teacher (Ms. Burns, deceased), and my cousin. I hope you enjoy.
I know I never say it.
I was never really good with saying what I felt.
Sure I'm temper mental, and I get on your nerves a lot.
You get on mine too.
But…
In all honesty, I like it that way.
We fight and bicker endlessly…
But we always forgive each other and hug it out.
It's hard…
Being a teenager in this life.
You were there once… You know what it's like.
Sometimes I feel that you don't understand me and you never will…
But no one can truly and fully understand someone else.
You can only get glimpses.
You can only guess.
All I know about you is no one can ever replace you.
You are a part of my heart and me…
I am you…
We laugh together…
We live together…
We cry together…
I rarely ever say it…
But you only have one mom.
And you deserve to know…
I love you…
We went to your grave…
It seemed hopeless right?
You're not here anymore, but we still believe you are.
You're in our hearts now…
You'll be alive in our memories…
Everyday after school I would stand by your bed.
We would watch movies and old cartoons…
We would laugh and smile…
I missed those days…
But those days are gone until I can see you again…
I still believe…
We will see each other again.
We visited you today.
We hugged and kissed.
I was happy.
We talked and laughed.
We sat on the couch and watched some movies.
I laughed and felt embarrassed when I realized I fell asleep in your arms.
My grandpa was taking pictures of us again…
I groaned and hid my face as everyone laughed.
The picture had captured the moment forever…
When I look back…
I'll say…
Enjoy everything while you still have it…
How could I forget you?
You passed only a month ago.
That day and night will forever be a haunted nightmare…
I had been watching the news…
I had heard rumors that you passed,
But I didn't believe them…
You were to strong to let a little thing like and accident stop you from doing what you loved the most…
I saw your name appear and the crash site.
I stopped breathing for a few seconds and fell to the ground.
My sobs and gasps burned my throat as I tried to calm myself…
I knew the truth…
You were like a second mom to me.
The treasured memories will be in my heart forever.
When I got to school, everyone was in tears…
They broke down in front of me…
I felt broken inside…
I kept praying this was a cruel joke.
Prayed that you would jump out of the closet and yell
'SURPRISE!'
But I knew we couldn't escape the truth…
You were gone…
And yet… some how… we live on…
I still haven't seen you…
I don't want to see you…
Not like that…
Not weak…
But strong.
My uncle still waits by your side…
I worry for him…
I worry for us all…
I wonder what you're doing…
What you're thinking…
I want you to open your eyes and see the light…
Whether it's His or ours.
I don't care…
You will open you eyes one day…
If it's not to us then it's to your new life…
With God…
We will wait and so will He…
I learned something today…
No matter how far we are our hearts and memories connect us…
We will wait and live together.
We will be together.
We will laugh together.
We will smile together.
We will cry together.
Because we are one.
One family.
One legacy.
One memory.
One heart…