I am going to write more but its to late and i am sleepy but i will re uplode this and its a bit longer i will give it a new try tomorro. and ones again sorry for beinga bad person

Love is eternal

Chapter 2

I have never thought of what I was going the day after today or what I will do after I finished school. Were I was going to work, live. But when you die that is what you think. You think didn't I have plans. Wasn't I going to travel, get a job, meet someone. But someone took my chose away from me. I don't have to think of what I'm going to do any more, I can't do it any way.

I think I began to love Zebastian but denied it because I think it is easier to be alone, to be your own guardian. But I did feel more and more lonely. Still I felt cold and distant. I am just used to it and don't want to feel vulnerable. So at the same time I wanted to spend time whit him I also wanted to run away.

I still remember the first kiss like he just kissed me. I was like I was going to panic at the same time I just wanted to stay whit him forever. He was I real gentleman, he looked me in the eyes and said "I feel like I never felt before and more, I want you to know that before I do this." Then he gently took my face between his hands and kissed me. I feel so warm. Like I never had known true cold before. After he let me go I feel so cold and lost. It was like he took my warm away so that he alone could warm me.

There are monsters in this world that no one is to name or think of, they live where you live and act like anyone but when you get close you feel like you should leave. It like when someone opens the door a winter morning and all the cold and darkness is at its worst because you have just left the comfort of you bed.