Diary of A Lonely Girl

Who I am?

I've always been wondering… Who I am? Well, even though it has been 24 years since I was born, I don't know myself quite well. I only know I am a lonely person. I do not have so many friends. I do not have a special talent or gift. I'm just a plain-regular person. I went to school, I went to College, and I did have boyfriends but know it's all just a blurry memory. My so called "friends" have abandoned me lately. They are having their own lives. They are all married and some of them already have a family. I'm not part of anybody's life. I mean, my own family rejects me for who I am. My friends have abandoned me because they do not understand me. My ex-boyfriends have found girls prettier than me. I now feel lonely. I don't get why people cannot love me the way I am? What I did wrong? I'm just myself. I'm open-minded. I accept people for who they are but apparently, they can't accept me. I respect everyone. Why am I so lonely? Why nobody wants to hang out with me? Why people don't accept me on their lives? I AM SO MANY QUESTIONS. I guess that is really Who Am I.

I live in a Spanish speaking country. Traditions and people's social activities are different from the States. Here, where I live, people do not like to eat alone. People get drunk all the time. People like spicy, greasy and unhealthy food. I just don't fix on that way of living. I eat alone all the time because I want to gain time to do some things and don't waste an hour having lunch. . I don't like to get drunk because I've seen a lot of people who got hooked in alcohol. Now, they can't get away from that habit. Also, I love healthy food. You know, I'm always obsessed with my weight and I don't want to risk all my achievements eating a greasy hamburger or extra cheese pizza. I do love hamburgers but they have to be veggie or turkey ones. I've smoke before but it is a filthy habit. I understood that's not good for my lungs and also could damage my heart, so I quitted smocking. I'm up for a healthy life but friends don't understand that. They say I'm silly, stupid, moron, coward, and naïve. I'm not any of that. I'm just a conscious person who wants the best for all. We are different. We think different. Don't expect me to be like you want me to be. I know I'm myself. I AM ME! Simple as that! If you can't accept me for who I am, don't expect to accept you for who you are. I'm not a material girl.